The closer my due date is, the crankier I am. Today, I feel super resentful toward Alien's father. I hate that he's out at clubs and bars and what not wasting money, and I'm wondering if I saved enough to make it 12w without pay. I hate that he drives a fully loaded 2011 Acura TSX, and then complained about me asking for child support. I hate that I have to be nice and civil, while he gets to be a DB and play the victim. I hate that ppl say he's smart to question paternity, when they've known me longer than him. I hate that my so-called friends took his side and it's like I don't exist anymore. I'm terrified he'll somehow mange to get custody, even though I know it's really unlikely. I just wish I could go back and undo the last 12 months of my life. Sometimes, I'm scared resentment I have toward his father will make it harder for me to bond with my son once he's here. I feel like I'm betraying DD by bringing someone else into our family after she's had me to herself for nearly 16 years. Ugh!
Sigh. Most of this stems from me getting an apology from him saying that he was sorry for telling me how he feels, aka...I'm an unfaithful, vindictive, money hungry, slut that screwed around on him and got pregnant on purpose to take his money.
I'm just having a blah pregnancy day. Hormonal melt down. I'm so sick of being pregnant. Combine that with DDs father crying foul because he hasn't seen her in three weeks (he didn't ask) and I'm just fed up with the Y chromosomes in my life. Sorry for dumping. But, somehow, y'all are easier than my family or what few friends I have left. Suggestions on what a pregnant woman can do to cheer up?
Re: Down Day Dump
Hugs. I'm sorry your having a bad day. It seems like pregnant bad days are a lot harder than regular bad day. Plus, you can only be strong for so long before you just need to let it all out. Remember, your an amazing mama and no matter what happens no one can ever take that away from you.
Your probably physically and mentally exhausted. Treat yourself to something yummy, a warm bath and head to bed early. A good nights sleep always seems to make everything feel better in the morning.
Thanks, ladies. I'm 1000 times better today. I actually slept semi-decently last night and woke up with a lot of energy. My OB and her nurse just looked at each other and decided I wasn't goin to make it much longer. Well, whatever works.
I think I might get that pedicure, even tho I don't like them, just so my toes are painted in my flip flops...they're the only shoes that FIT!!!
We, DD and I, haven't decided on one. We're going to wait and see what he looks like. I'll definitely post when he's born. We have a list, plus we're taking the name book with us:
Damian Salvatore
Henry Morgan
Jonathan Disney
Julian Alexander
And, I love Decl?n Alistair
I forgot Kaidan Zachariah
Wait, is this from Vampire Diaries (the evil/bad brother)
Either way I do like your choices. I favor the name Declan though! :-) Yay, your almost there!