Two year mark

*blue*flower* · May 2012

Our two year mark is this week and has been weighing heavily on me. I know my 2IF has had some major effects on me in a lot of ways. I think I am hesitant to move forward with treatments and that is why I have dragged everything out so long. I feel prepared, I have done plenty of research and know what the process should involve, but I just haven't gone through with initiating any of it now that we are moved and I think it is because that would official admit that we can't have another on our own. Some days I feel like I should just be happy we were blessed with our older DD. She is our little miracle, we definitely didn't expect to have so much difficulty trying to have a second. She is getting older, and the longer this whole process drags out the more I wonder if we should even keep trying or if we should just move on and enjoy being a family of three. She went through a 2 week period about a month ago where all she could talk about was having a sibling and wanting to have a brother or sister to play with and asking if I would have a baby brother or sister for her. I explained that it isn't that easy, and then I went off to cry alone because I know she wishes she had a sibliong like all her classmates do. It feels like everybody around me is so fertile and can get pregnant right away. I haven't reached out to talk to anyone about it because I don't feel like people will understand at all. We had no struggles TTC DD, I feel like people just won't understand how we could have had one so easily and not be able to get pregnant on our own a second time.

The two year mark is definitely weighing on me way heavier than any of the other marks in this journey.

Hnysckl426 · May 2012

Hugs! I feel your pain on both.....the two year mark hits this summer for me.

Lately DD has been asking to be a big sister and has been saying she is going to be a big sister to one of the little babies at daycare, oh if it were only that easy! It is so difficult to explain to them when all their little friends have or are having siblings.

SIF is so unfair Crying

brideonjuly8 · May 2012

This month is our 2 year mark as well. I know how you feel. ((hugs))

JMay · May 2012

I'm sorry.

Milestones are tough and watching each one go by just makes the pain of 2IF worse. I hope your bfp is right around the corner. (HUG)

AprilDrew04 · May 2012

2IF is so hard. Even though we did struggle with IF before having DD. I thought we could just repeat what we did to get DD and we'd have #2 right away. 2 years later it is not so. Each step is hard, but remember that each step also can bring renewed hope.

I totally agree with not really having anyone to talk to, because no one really gets 2IF. Even if you didn't conceive easily the 1st time. They just figure you have one, and you should be happy that you have her(or him). It's just not that simple.

Virtual hugs and real thoughts being sent your way.

*blue*flower* · May 2012

Thank you so much ladies! It is nice to have an outlet and a group of caring people who understand the feelings behind it all. I really appreciate it!

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