Today I had my first experience with a very new baby...like 4 weeks old. And I thought I was doing pretty well with this whole thing. I didn't think I was even that sensitive about babies. But I was in the office and the lady who has the studio office next door just had a boy. It's not like I didn't know it was going to happen because she's also my DD's dance teacher. But, I just figured I wouldn't see the baby before dance was over for the summer. Today she brought him in and asked if my boss would watch him for a little bit while she taught a short class.
He was crying, normal baby crying, because babies do that...but it was like sensory over load for me. I started shaking, and sweating and then crying. It was the worst 30 minutes of my life. I wanted to post here earlier for some support but I couldn't even pull it together long enough to type a coherent thought. I ended up leaving work early. But, just knowing you ladies would be here for me at the end of the day helped.
I missed you ladies today. Here's some whole wheat chocolate chip cookies for listening..my fave.
Re: My first experience with a new baby (not mine..obviously)
1/12/13 DD was born
4/9/16 DS was born
9/17 CP
6/23/18 BFP EDD 3/4/19
Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
***PGAL/PAL WELCOME***
BFP#2: 07/04/12 EDD: 03/14/13
*All Welcome*
BFP#1 - 11/13/11, Natural MC - 12/24/11 at 12 weeks
BFP#2 - 10/2/12, Please be our rainbow.
BFP #2, 12/12/11, m/c 12/25/11
BFP #3, 3/09/12, CP 3/10/12
BFP #4, 7/22/12, DD#2 born 4/2013
BFP #1 - 1/16/2012, EDD 9/12/2012, m/c 1/27/2012, D&C 2/3/12
BFP #2 - 6/20/2012, Saw HB on 7/6/2012 at 6w0d ~ EDD 3/1/2013
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby