Sadly, I'm here with the rest of you. But through my lurking, have decided that I'm ready to say something.
A month ago I went in for my regular check up and 26 week glucose test. I bought a bagel on my way to the office, I left it in my car - it was my treat for drinking the glucose; I'd never get to eat it. The nurses and the other doctor joked about how icky the glucose drink tasted; we all laughed. Then the nurse took my blood pressure and everything went so fast after that. Within 5 minutes I went from feeling perfectly fine, to finding out that my baby didn't have a heartbeat. Best guess is pre-eclampsia.
Backtrack 3 weeks. I had symptoms of pre-eclampsia. I tried to stress to the doctor's office how puffy my feet were. I tried to explain the heartburn with no burn - just severe stabbing pain. But this was my first, and all my charts were perfectly normal. PERFECTLY NORMAL. I wish I would have demanded to come to the office.
Rowan was born March 30th. He weighed just 14.5 ounces but he was perfect. I remember leaving the hospital - everyone knew who I was, they all looked at me - glad they weren't me. As they wheeled me out, a very pregnant girl my age was being wheeled in. Her mom was running up behind her, looked at my mom and said "I'm gonna be a grandma." The most horrible thing someone could say.
I have a lot of support at work, but I don't want to be a downer all day. If I could talk about Rowan all the time, I would. I don't know if or when I'll feel different. But I hope someday the bitterness will be less.
Re: Time for my Intro
BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
My blog My chart
BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08

BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12
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TTC #3 since May 2012
BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14
No longer trying to conceive.
Remembering Robby
type 1 diabetic for 7 years. Been on the pump for 6 years.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Rowan. The women on this board are absolutely amazing and very, very supportive. You're among friends here.
I'm so sorry for the loss of Rowan. I love his name! I too had a routine pregnancy and everything was "normal" up until I unexpectedly went into preterm labor. It kind of makes it all the more insulting.
Ugh! That woman's comment- that's so awful. I'm sorry you had to hear that.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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