I'm feeling the hormonal swing and I hate it. During the day I am fine but as soon as the sun starts to set I get really weepy. I cried so much last night that my face was atrociously swollen. I start thinking about not sleeping, about DH going back to work, about how sore my boobs are, about my blood pressure being out of control, about the baby's jaundice, about how inadequate I feel, about how unhappy I am. I really love my baby and I'm glad she's here but I really want this to be over.
Re: Baby Blues Anyone? Vent/Whine
i hear you, i am finding it very hard also (baby is 4 days old). during the day too i feel ok mostly, but i dread the night time. i feel like i am useless at being a mother, i am a zombie from lack of sleep, i feel like i am not good at breastfeeding, my vag hurts a ton because i got an infection, i am poisoning my baby with antibiotics and tons of ibuprofen...
sometimes i just want her to be gone, to not exist so i can just go to sleep for 12 hours and not have a body that is just a mess of painful oozing parts.
but she is so sweet and when i take her clothes off and put her on my chest i cry because of how sweet she is and how much i love her. but i wish i could just feel like me again...
i am just holding out hope that in 2 weeks i will feel better. we can get through it!