Intro - Long

MrsRichMT · April 2012

First, I'm so very sorry for each of your losses. I hate that any of us has to be here.

I went in Friday, 4/20, for my 20-week a/s. I have 2 children and although I've had a feeling that something wasn't right, I never thought it would turn out this wrong. The tech called in someone "more experienced" to take a look. She kept measuring the baby and everything was coming up 14-16 weeks. Then she went to the heart. Nothing. I went in to talk to the doctor, and she told me I would have to be induced and deliver my baby since I was so far along. We decided to do it the next day since it had likely already been a month since the baby had passed.

I went in on Saturday for the induction, and about 45 minutes later I started having really bad back pain and paged the nurse for some meds. Then I just felt something coming out. I thought it was the baby. I told DH to get someone NOW. The nurse came in and found a lot of blood clots. Then I started bleeding heavily. The doctor came and was trying to do manual compressions to stop the bleeding. Long story short, I was given a blood transfusion and rushed to the OR where they essentially did an emergency cesarean. I remember hearing the dr say I was going to code. I thought I was dying. My husband thought I was dead. An already traumatic experience was made that much more.

It's been horrible. Not ony the emotional recovery, but now the physical. I've never experienced so much pain from so many sources. I still can't believe my baby's gone. We got to see the baby. We got to pick a name. Today we got a call that the baby is "ready." This is so hard.

Sorry this is so long, but there's just so much going through my head and I feel like no one understands. I know you all do. My prayers are with you all as you struggle with your losses as well. No one should have to do this.

krisztina33 · April 2012

So so so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the grief and pain you are going through.

<<hugs>>

Rachaeleigh · April 2012

I'm so sorry for your loss.(Hugs)

RovinChick · April 2012

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you had such a complicated delivery. I also found out at a routine ultrasound that my twins had both passed and were measuring 15 weeks. I was given the option to be induced, but they were worried I would bleed too much, so I was strongly encouraged to have a d&e instead - I'm surprised this wasn't an option for you. I hope you are doing physically better now, I can't imagine going through that scary experience! Again, I'm so sorry for your loss, it is so completely heartbreaking. I am finding it gets a little easier as time passes and I hope it gets better for you as well. My thoughts and prayers are with you.