Does anyone else just have random bouts of depression?
I've always been prone to depression, suffered from it for 5 years, got on antidepressants and what not. For the past year and a half I've managed to control it though with exercise and recently vitamins. But this past week or so I've been really down in the dumps, excessively crying, not eating, sleeping any chance I get, not going out and doing things, no motivation to go tot he gym at all. It just hit me.. I know I have a lot going on with everything that could have triggered it (M being a total douche.. the fact C and I should have been married for 3 years next Wednesday, etc.) but usually I bounce back from things like that within a day or so.. but this time it is dragging on.. I don't know what to do about it.
Just wanted to know if anyone else goes through that, and what they do to get out of their funk.
Re: Anyone else?
BFP #1 07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
TTA for 7 months
Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
TTC Again May 2014
Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles - All BFN's
SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results
Diagnostic cycle monitoring = Polycystic ovaries leading to premature egg release
TTA Oct 2014 - Jan 2015
Jan 2015 - Medicated cycle with timed intercourse
My Blog: The Canadian Housewife PGAL/PAL Welcome My Chart
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
Hugs and love darling! It is perfectly normal to start hitting a slump around an anniversary that isn't relevant to your life anymore (I'm sorry if that sounded harsh, I couldn't figure out a way to word it.) especially if it is your first pass through that day. Just hang in there and keep on keeping on.
I also battle depression and it sucks!
If you could, you may just want to do some maintenance therapy- a few sessions just to vent and let it all out.
I have nothing else for you except for ((((hugs)))) and love, you also know how to catch me if you want to just let it out more!!
Thanks sweets.. I really think it's the anniversary (the way you said it didn't sound harsh at all btw
) and the fact that I had hoped to have a distraction from that day (i.e. M) but since he is being a douchebag at the moment that probably won't happen.. so of course I'll be alone that night and I can almost guarentee that C will text me saying something about that day 3 years ago and have me in tears.. cause he does that sort of thing.
Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant
Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl
So many ((hugs)) and good vibes to you. It's hard for people who've never been there to understand that depression isn't about feeling sad, it's about feeling completely disconnected from everything. It's not your fault, and it's not because you let yourself feel the emotions that those triggers may have brought up. We should be allowed to feel sad and upset without feeling like the world's going on without us, but depression doesn't work like that. I agree with PPs that talking with someone can help. Or you said exercise helps you, so maybe finding a trainer to help keep you motivated until this cloud passes? Just a thought.
For me lately, music has been such a comfort. Even though I've been indulging in some pretty emotastic bands, sometimes the lyrics just hit a chord with me, YWIM. Hang in there, dear. I'm always here if you need to vent.
"there is no foot so small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world"
BFP #2 2.27.13 EDD 11.8.13 Grow, baby, grow!
My Ovulation Chart
~ all ALers welcome ~
type 1 diabetic for 7 years. Been on the pump for 6 years.
I don't know if its "normal" but I kind of get that way sometimes too. I've decided its more hormonal than anything though because I always notice its worse just before i ovulate and again at the beginning of a new cycle.
I hope you feel better soon though. I know it sucks.
[spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow
BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]
TTC since April 2010

BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
~All AL always welcome~
Yes, I have suffered from depression and anxiety for years. It seems to get exponentially worse around O and about a week before AF is due, so I know a huge part of it is hormonal for me.
My symptoms were really kept at bay with BCPS's and antidepressants, neither of which I am taking anymore. For me, a big part of getting out of the slump is recognizing the "why." This helps me to be prepared for an especially rough day, so I'm not blindsided my the emotions.
(((Huge hugs))) you are not alone in feeling this way. I hope that you feel better soon, and are able to take extra special care of yourself next Wednesday.
My husband told me just the other day he thinks I need to go back on medication. I have good weeks and bad weeks. Honestly, a good cry and a long walk usually help me. Maybe a really funny movie.
I'm so sorry you're having a hard time!
I have struggled with depression for three years and it sucks. I have also been diagnosed with mild bipolar as I often get in depressive states, but also have 'manic' states. Don't worry- I don't go out and blow 1,000 dollars or anything. It more manifest in not being able to sleep or working out excessively. So I go in cycles and it is very tiring. I more often stay in the 'depressed' state- I wish I had advice for you- I wish I knew myself.
I am just sorry you are feeling down. It truly is a sucky hopeless feeling.