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Anyone else?

Does anyone else just have random bouts of depression?

I've always been prone to depression, suffered from it for 5 years, got on antidepressants and what not. For the past year and a half I've managed to control it though with exercise and recently vitamins. But this past week or so I've been really down in the dumps, excessively crying, not eating, sleeping any chance I get, not going out and doing things, no motivation to go tot he gym at all. It just hit me.. I know I have a lot going on with everything that could have triggered it (M being a total douche.. the fact C and I should have been married for 3 years next Wednesday, etc.) but usually I bounce back from things like that within a day or so.. but this time it is dragging on.. I don't know what to do about it.

Just wanted to know if anyone else goes through that, and what they do to get out of their funk.

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  • Yes, I go through times of feeling like utter crap and I'm a complete basket case. I'm not sure if it's officially depression but it gets bad. I don't really have any advice though since it usually just passes. Sending you ((hugs)). Know that we are here for you.
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  • I have only had experience with depression through my TTC/loss/TTCAL journey.  I wish I had some advise for you, but I just wanted to send you (((HUGE HUGS))) and say that we are here for you!

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  • Hugs and love darling! It is perfectly normal to start hitting a slump around an anniversary that isn't relevant to your life anymore (I'm sorry if that sounded harsh, I couldn't figure out a way to word it.)  especially if it is your first pass through that day.  Just hang in there and keep on keeping on.

    I also battle depression and it sucks!

    If you could, you may just want to do some maintenance therapy- a few sessions just to vent and let it all out.

    I have nothing else for you except for ((((hugs)))) and love, you also know how to catch me if you want to just let it out more!!

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    Hugs and love darling! It is perfectly normal to start hitting a slump around an anniversary that isn't relevant to your life anymore (I'm sorry if that sounded harsh, I couldn't figure out a way to word it.)  especially if it is your first pass through that day.  Just hang in there and keep on keeping on.

    I also battle depression and it sucks!

    If you could, you may just want to do some maintenance therapy- a few sessions just to vent and let it all out.

    I have nothing else for you except for ((((hugs)))) and love, you also know how to catch me if you want to just let it out more!!

    Thanks sweets.. I really think it's the anniversary (the way you said it didn't sound harsh at all btw Smile) and the fact that I had hoped to have a distraction from that day (i.e. M) but since he is being a douchebag at the moment that probably won't happen.. so of course I'll be alone that night and I can almost guarentee that C will text me saying something about that day 3 years ago and have me in tears.. cause he does that sort of thing.

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  • For years.  On and off.  Ive tried many different things, exercise and vitamins included.  Seeing a therapist, altering diet... The bouts seem to come and go except for when something truly amazing happens and I feel like I can over power it then ( like when I met DH)
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  • So many ((hugs)) and good vibes to you. It's hard for people who've never been there to understand that depression isn't about feeling sad, it's about feeling completely disconnected from everything. It's not your fault, and it's not because you let yourself feel the emotions that those triggers may have brought up. We should be allowed to feel sad and upset without feeling like the world's going on without us, but depression doesn't work like that. I agree with PPs that talking with someone can help. Or you said exercise helps you, so maybe finding a trainer to help keep you motivated until this cloud passes? Just a thought.

    For me lately, music has been such a comfort. Even though I've been indulging in some pretty emotastic bands, sometimes the lyrics just hit a chord with me, YWIM. Hang in there, dear. I'm always here if you need to vent.

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  • ((hugs)) no advice. I seem to be in my own slump with the coming of my babys birthday/anniversary. Although I don't remember a time I haven't been intensly grieving since I lost him, someday are worse than others.
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  • I don't know if its "normal" but I kind of get that way sometimes too. I've decided its more hormonal than anything though because I always notice its worse just before i ovulate and again at the beginning of a new cycle.

    I hope you feel better soon though. I know it sucks.


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  • I know the feeling. I hit those times during college off and on, and then again after our 3rd loss earlier this year. I think most everyone slides into a funk like that once in awhile and it seems that you've got multiplie things all adding up to a slump-tastic few days. It's hard when there are the "what ifs" of anniversaries that are no longer relevant (I couldn't come up with a better word. Sorry. I don't mean to sound cruel) and boys being douche canoes...I don't have any advice on how to get out of it. Just know you are loved on this board!! *HUGS*

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  • Thanks everyone. I'm gonna try to drag myself to Zumba and the gym despite my lack of motivation tonight and see how I feel after.. I just wish the next week would fly by to next Thursday..
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  • My sister suffers from severe depression, so I know how difficult it can be to deal with day to day from growing up with her. I am so sorry you are going through an especially difficult time right now. Many (((hugs))) and prayers that things start getting better for you!
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  • Yes, I have suffered from depression and anxiety for years. It seems to get exponentially worse around O and about a week before AF is due, so I know a huge part of it is hormonal for me.

    My symptoms were really kept at bay with BCPS's and antidepressants, neither of which I am taking anymore. For me, a big part of getting out of the slump is recognizing the "why." This helps me to be prepared for an especially rough day, so I'm not blindsided my the emotions.

    (((Huge hugs))) you are not alone in feeling this way. I hope that you feel better soon, and are able to take extra special care of yourself next Wednesday. 

  • Yes. I have a family history of depression and think I have it mildly. How I handle it depends on the day. Sometimes exercise helps, sometimes being with other people helps, sometimes "retail therapy" helps and sometimes I have to wait until it passes because nothing helps. I am sorry you are going through a rough patch. I hope you are feeling better soon. Remember to take good care of yourself. ((hugs))
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  • VQ - I have struggled iwith depression for my entire life, have been on and off meds, but am currently off, have been for the past year. I totally get those depressive bouts and eventually they just go away, typically. The best advice I can give you is to either consider talking to someone to get things off your chest, even if its just a couple of sessions. Also, I like to work on projects around the house, yard or crafts that help to get my mind off of things and make me feel good about being productive. We're here for you and trust me you are not alone in this journey. Let me know if I can do anything to help or support. (HUGS)
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  • My husband told me just the other day he thinks I need to go back on medication.  I have good weeks and bad weeks.  Honestly, a good cry and a long walk usually help me. Maybe a really funny movie. 

    I'm so sorry you're having a hard time!

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  • I have struggled with depression for three years and it sucks. I have also been diagnosed with mild bipolar as I often get in depressive states, but also have 'manic' states. Don't worry- I don't go out and blow 1,000 dollars or anything. It more manifest in not being able to sleep or working out excessively. So I go in cycles and it is very tiring. I more often stay in the 'depressed' state- I wish I had advice for you- I wish I knew myself. :( I am just sorry you are feeling down. It truly is a sucky hopeless feeling.

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