i had my son 9 weeks early and someone gave me this. i read it everyday and it helped me get through some rough times! i hope it will help you as much as it did me.
 How God Chooses Preemie Moms 
Author Unknown 
Did you ever wonder how the mothers of premature babies are chosen? 
Somehow, I visualize God hovering over Earth, selecting his 
instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he 
observes, he instructs his angels to take notes in a giant ledger. 
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint, Matthew. 
Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron Saint, Celia. 
Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint...give her Gerard. He's used to 
profanity." 
Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles. 
"Give her a preemie." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? 
She's so happy." 
"Exactly," smiles God. 
"Could I give a premature baby a mother who knows no laughter? That 
would be cruel." 
"But does she have the patience?" asks the angel. 
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she'll drown in a sea 
of self-pity and despair. 
Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. 
I watched her today. She has that sense of self and independence so 
rare and so necessary in a mother. 
You see, the child I'm going to give her has a world of its own. 
She has to make it live in her world, and that's not going to be easy." 
"But Lord, I don't think she even believes in you." 
God smiles. "No matter, I can fix that. This one is perfect She has 
just the right amount of selfishness." 
The angel gasps, "Selfishness?! Is that a virtue?" 
God nods. "If she can't separate herself from the child occasionally, 
she will never survive. 
Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect. 
She doesn't know it yet, but she is to be envied. 
She will never take for granted a spoken word. 
She will never consider a step ordinary. 
When her child says momma for the first time, 
she will be witness to a miracle and know it. 
I will permit her to see clearly the things I see-- 
ignorance, cruelty, prejudice-- 
and allow her to rise above them. 
She will never be alone. 
I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life 
because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side." 
"And what about her Patron Saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in 
the air. 
God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
Re: how god choses preemie mommas!
Me: PCOS DH: Low everything (MFI)
Clomid with TI x 3 2010 BFN
Clomid+IUI+Ovidrel 2010 BFN
IVF w/ICSI #1 2011
9/8/11 Beta #1: 2082!! 9/19/11 Beta#2 34,689!! U/S 9/22/11 HR 127! 11/8/11 HR 150! 12/6/11 HR 136! 12/14/11 HR 139! Born at 26w2d on 2/4/2012! After 83 days in the NICU, Adalyn came home on 4/26/12!
FET 1 3/2013 BFN
FET 2 5/2013 BFN
This has always made me cry. My sister printed this out for me shortly after DD was born. I have never gotten so emotional over a poem before.
Thanks for sharing.