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Today has been 2 weeks... **Ticker/Picture Warning**

Luckie519Luckie519 member
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It's been two weeks today since we found out our baby stopping developing at 6 weeks.  It's been full of ups and downs.  I have good days and then bad days.  It seems like more bad than good lately.

I have really tried to be strong around DH and DS, but I lost it Tuesday night.  A coworker invited me over to her house for a drink and we watched a movie.  On the way home, I lost it.  I cried the entire 30 minute drive home.  I sat in the driveway and pulled myself together.  DH could tell I had been crying and was prying me for about what.

We went to bed about an hour later and while he was in the shower, I just laid there and cried.  Once DH got in bed, he held me and I cried myself to sleep.  This is my second miscarriage.  I had one when I was 21.  I guess it's worrying me that out of 3 pregnancies, 1 resulted in a baby.  

 I try to focus on the fact that I have an amazing, wonderful son.  Some women struggle with having children and never are able to.  So, I am trying to focus on that.  But my heart still hurts so bad.  Now to make it even worse, two friends are also pregnant and due in November, which is when I was due.  Seeing their sonograms and status really hurt.  I am happy for them, but at the same time, I know it's going to be hard to watch them go through their pregnancies.

Everyone keeps saying it gets easier, but so far, I am not finding that to be the case.  I am just a mess. 

Thanks for letting me vent.  I like to give DH a break.  I feel like the past 2 weeks I have been a wreck.  DH has been great, but I just don't want him to think I am a mess, even though I am.

Anyone have any advice?  Any would be appreciated!

 

 

 


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Re: Today has been 2 weeks... **Ticker/Picture Warning**

  • MWoodsideMWoodside member

    I'm sorry for your losses.

    I had a very hard time for several weeks, too.  Then I slowly started to feel like myself again.  For me the things that helped were dates with DH (since those are few & far between these days), time with friends, time with DD, working out once I was cleared post D&C, getting a lot of sleep.

    I, too, have many pg co-workers & friends so that is tough some days.  The big punch to the stomach was my sister announcing an unplanned pg due exactly 2 months after I would have been due.  I just keep trying to tell myself it's two different things.  Two different babies, two different pgs.  It doesn't help that she is constantly b*tching on FB about her pg symptoms Indifferent  Anyway...

    Like you, I find a lot of comfort in the child I was lucky enough to have.  Hopefully we will be blessed with more children going forward.  For now, it's one day at a time.  Hang in there.

    DD1 born 5/24/10.

    Missed M/C at 14 wks Feb 2012.

    DD2 born 5/14/13.

    Missed M/C at 9 wks July 2015.

    Expecting someone new 4/17/17.
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