Going back to work tomorrow

PrettyAccountant · April 2012

G-d please give me the strength to be able to get through the day.

I don't know if going back to work is the best idea - I still haven't been able to get a full nights sleep. I keep replaying the triplets birth over and over in my mind. I think my head is going to explode sometimes.

I think I am going to need strength to get through today.

Jackie2200 · April 2012

Good luck! I found that going back to work was somewhat helpful. I did cry alot thoses first few days but having a distraction was a nice break for my salt-encrusted eyes.

Ps...I took Ambien for the first month I lost my twins because I couldn't sleep at all. It was a huge help.

jbranden12 · April 2012

In some ways it was helpful, but it was still tough. It did give me a distraction, but it also felt very lonely. My colleagues and boss are very understanding, but they don't really know how to act around me and I can't really guide them. I worked about half time last week, and I didn't do hardly anything. I felt bad because on one hand I feel like if I'm there I should be working, and I don't want anyone to resent me. On the other hand, I can't focus on anything and certainly don't care about anything. How can I care about updating a spreadsheet when my world just collapsed? I can't be my normal, overachieving self. People don't know what to expect from me and I don't know what to expect from myself. I hope you find the strength you need to make it through the day. ((hugs))

Gizu92708 · April 2012

Good luck . It helped me distract myself during the day. But I still had my moments where I would go to the bathroom and cry. I think it will help you get through your day. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. ((hugs))

tubbsy32 · April 2012

Good luck, we'll be thinking of you. Let us know how you do.

((hugs))

hoping4more · April 2012

/hugs. Just take it 1 day at a time and cry if you need to.

Auki13 · April 2012

Good luck sweetie, and let us know how it goes. The first few days are the most difficult, and you just need to remember to take it very easy on yourself. I know for me, it was nice to have a distraction and get back into some sort of "normalcy". I hope tomorrow is easier than you are anticipating. (hugs)

Carolee · April 2012

Sending you (((HUGS))). For me, the actual anticipation of returning to work was much worse than actually being back. I hope it ends up going ok for you. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.

Mandiemn · April 2012

I went back this past Monday and was so nervous and scared. I didn't know how I was going to react to questions or the knowing sad looks. But I was actually surprised with how much it has helped to get back to being busy. I had many times a day where I needed to walk away and be by myself and cry. And that's ok. Anything you want to do or say is fine.

I was also very surprised with how much I wanted to talk about my little girl. I wanted people to know about her. It hurt sometimes to tell people that she weighed 10.4 ounces and 10 inches long, but it also made me feel like a proud mom who was keeping her memory alive.

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow and I know that you will get through it. (HUGS)