- Pregnancy
- Baby & Toddler
- Parents
- Getting Pregnant
- Baby Names
- Product Reviews
-
Registry
- Community
-
More
Want a personalized experience?
Download the free app
TTC After a Loss
chrisleath
member
Last time I was really happy....
chrisleath
member
So yesterday we got our wedding video!!!! Finally after 8 months but it was sooooo worth the wait. They did an amazing job! DH and I ended up watching the video twice, once by ourselves and once with our parents last night. I realized while I was watching it the second time that I looked happy. It is probably the last time I have been really and truly happy. Little did we know 2 months later I would find out I was pg and lost my job in the same day and m/c a month later. It was a reality check I think for me watching the video because I really thought that I found a happy place again. I really thought I found a good place since I am basically in the same circumstances I was in since my m/c. But watching the video made me realize that I am miles away from really being happy. I am not sure if I will ever be that happy again. I think back then I was too naive to things that could/would happen. I will be that happy again, maybe with just a scar on my heart then...
OK enough with this. Happy Easter everyone! Thanks for listening.
BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/27/12 ~ m/c 11/15/11 BO
BFP#2 6/10/12 ~ EDD 2/21/13 ~ mm/c 7/12/12 ~ D&C 7/13/12
BFP#3 2/23/2013 ~ EDD 11/5/13 Beta#1 125, Beta#2 436, Beta#3 ???
BFP#2 6/10/12 ~ EDD 2/21/13 ~ mm/c 7/12/12 ~ D&C 7/13/12
BFP#3 2/23/2013 ~ EDD 11/5/13 Beta#1 125, Beta#2 436, Beta#3 ???
This discussion has been closed.
Re: Last time I was really happy....
I know some days can be very hard. I know it's hard to smile, thinking about what we went through. But if you can, think of the wonderful man at your side, your loving family, and the babies you will take home in the future.
Maybe if you can think of these positives in your life you can start rebuilding some happiness back into your life.
*hugs*
נשמה שבאה לעולם למספר חודשים לשהות במעי האם, היא נשמת צדיק גמור שבאה לעולם רק לתקן פגם קטן ולאחר מספר חודשים אלו היא שבה למקומה לגן עדן להתענג על ה'. לעתיד לבוא נשמה זו תוכר באחד מבנייך ובזכות נשמת צדיק זה תזכי להיות במחיצת צדיקים
TTC Since September 2011
BFP#1:Dec.1.11 EDD:Aug.09.12 MC:Jan.11.12 (9WK5D)-Natural
BFP#2:Apr.18.12 EDD:Dec.21.12 MC:May.1.12 (6WK3D)-D&C
BFP#3:Sep.12.12 - Suspected CP | BFP#4:Dec.1.12 - Suspected CP
BFP#5: Dec.26.12 EDD:Sep.10.13 MC:Jan.7.13 (4WK6D)-Natural
BFP#6: Jun.11.13 EDD:Feb.23.13 Beta: #1=8000 #2=24532 US@6wk2d showed 7wk2d size with 143BPM HR * NT US@12wk6d looked good. A/S passed with flying colors and our team color is Blue! *Grow my little Pamplemousse*!!!
The good thing is that you were able to watch something that made you happy. Life sure does throw you for a ride. I never thought that I would be in this situation. I think the same thing as you about being happy again. We will get there and I hope its soon!!
((((Hugs))) I was telling DH last night that I just wanted to get a injection of "Happiness".
Looking at my wedding pictures always makes me happy... It was such a happy day, and I just have to think that I will have that same feeling of happiness again when we welcome a new one into our family. It's really hard never knowing when that will be, or even if it will. But I just HAVE to believe that we will all be happy like that again.
BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
Yes. I agree. And "wedding day happiness" is a d@mn high standard that I am really not sure you want to aspire to, for your own good. I think contentment is a more reachable, and a more valuable, goal. Contentment is consistent, and it isn't determined by outside circumstances. It's determined by your response to those circumstances. I know, it is hard. My wedding pics actually make me sad sometimes, as Jessica said. ((hugs)) to you.
ETA: I reread this, and it sounds snappy--that was unintentional. I rephrased a bit. I hope you get to a happier place soon. I sincerely know how hard it is to be sad all the time and to find that what you now consider "happy" would have once just been "okay." More ((hugs)).
this ((((hugs))))
Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
***PGAL/PAL WELCOME***
Married 07/17/2010
Diagnosed with PCOS 10/20/2010
TTC since Oct 2010
BFP #1 March 31st 2011 Due December 10 2011
Missed m/c discovered June 2nd 2011 at 12w4d
D&C scheduled June 7th 2011 at 13w2d
Found out our baby boy had Triploidy XXY through embryopathology
BFP #2 September 28th 2011 Due June 8th 2012
Missed m/c discovered November 20th 2011 at 11w2d
D&C November 29th 2011 at 12w4d
Found out our baby girl had Monosomy X through embryopathology
BFP #3 April 24th 2012 Due January 5th 2013
Betas falling on 04/26/12 Chemical Pregnancy
RPL testing done, multi nodular goiters on thyroid discovered.
BFP #4 November 22nd 2012, Due August 5th 2013
Betas: 17 @ 9dpo, 62 @ 11dpo, 124 @ 12dpo, 321 @ 14dpo 720 @ 16dpo 13,805 @ 23 dpo
First ultrasound at 6w3d, hb 122 bpm.
Second ultrasound at 7w3d hb 143 bpm
Third ultrasound at 10w1d hb 167-170 bpm
Forth ultrasound 12w1d hb 167 bpm
Graduated rpl program, moving on to regular ob!
It's a boy!
Little man was born August 1st 2013, 7lbs 8oz and 20.5 inches long