I've posted a few times in the 1st trimester board.
I'm looking at a few adoption agencies (Currently American Adoptions) and I'm just at a lost of words and I have no idea where to begin.
My life keeps turning from one point to another and it just keeps getting worse. I'm 18 weeks pregnant and I finally decided to tell my family about my pregnancy and then my adoption plans. Needless to say, my family disowned me. I've been 'disgraced' as my mother says.
There is a lot of drama involved. Like my mother wanting to take the child from me or gain custody of the child once I gave birth to the baby. My mother couldn't even raise my two sisters and myself. She abandoned us periodically throughout my life and then permanently when I was 12. My youngest sister lives with her (She's 18) and my mom kicks her out every other month but then claims her on her taxes because she wants my sister as a tax break. There is no way in heck my boyfriend and I would give her this child, ever.
Secondly, my SO's family didn't know about the pregnancy. My mother took it upon herself to E-mail his father and who knows else and spin a "oh you can't possibly be okay with their decision. Oh? You didn't even know!" Which she knew that they didn't know. She's just starting drama all around.
My father is giving me two-three weeks to find my own place. Going to school full time, and having morning sickness for 3 months, I wasn't able to get a job. Now I'm just in a horrible situation and I have no idea what to do. I was thinking about seeing if I could take out bank student loans and pay for school (Since I'm paying it out of pocket anyways) and use some of the loans for rent. I just, it's all stressful. Plus my insurance is up in June and I have no idea what I'll do for insurance. It's just extremely frustrating and depressing. :