Hi everyone, although I was not on here for long, the women on here were absolutely wonderful and so supportive. I want to wish and will pray for everyone here a healthy and successful pregnancy.
As some of you may know, my pregnancy was a roller coaster from 6 weeks when I had a severe bleed and was told I was miscarrying one of my triplets. It was a very severe SCH that was causing the bleed but the drs felt that one of the triplets was not viable. Unfortunately, that bleeding lasted until I gave birth. From the very beginning I was vomiting and losing lots of weight. Numerous hospital stays later they discovered I had a blockage in my stomach and needed abdominal surgery while being 15 weeks pregnant with triplets. The babies and I came through the surgery just fine ? I really felt that nothing could hurt this pregnancy.
My world came crashing down this past week. I woke up to strong stomach pains and gave birth to my first son on my couch. At almost 20 weeks pregnant, there was no hope for him to survive but my other two were still in me. We were rushed to the hospital where I learned my baby died on route. My prayers turned to the well being of my other two. Later that day I learned my white blood cell count was 28,000, my sugar level was 350, my temperature was 101 ? the drs wanted to deliver the other two because my life was in danger and I could die. I couldn?t do it. G-d saw my need and took that decision out of my hands by causing my water to break with my daughter and she was born. She was as beautiful as my son and perfect in every way ? just born too soon. After my daughters birth, my levels started to come down and I really thought I had a chance to keep my last triplet baking. That was not the case. Two days later my water broke and my other son was born and died soon after.
I feel like my life has ended. We are arranging the funeral and I must say Good-bye to my beautiful and perfect babies. Again, regardless of the stage you are in - I pray for everyone here that their wishes are fulfilled. I got to hold my babies and watched them take breaths and move ? I was instantly in love and wish I had more time with them.
I pray for everyone on here.
All my love.
Re: XP-The triplets came and with a broken heart are now in G-d's hands
Hysteroscopy 3/2011 2 Polyps removed 4/2011
DH on Clomid / Arimidex to address hormonal issues - Sperm found July 2011!
IVF #1 September 2011 - ER 9/8/2011- 8R, 5M - icsi - 1 made it to transfer - BFFN :-(
IVF #2 Lucky November 2011 - ER 11/25/2011 - 15 eggs!, 13 mature, 10 fertilized with isci - 7 made it to transfer! Transferred 1 - 8 cell and 2 - 7 cell. BFP!!!!
1st U/S - Twins! 2nd U/S - 3 heartbeats!!! - HOLY COW!!!
Prayers for our take home babies!
2 babies born on 3/27/12 and lost. Last baby born on 3/29/12 and lost at 20 weeks.
My angels grew wings shortly after birth.
Ahava Raisel, Matisyahu Nissim & Zev Chaim - Mommy and Daddy will always love you.
IVF #3 July 2012 - ER 7/17/2012 - 10 R. 5 F. 4 made it to ET
Transferred 2 on 7/20/2012 no snow babies :-(
Beta on 7/31/2012 = BFMFN
A miracle gift expected to come to us through adoption around 9/2012
Baby girl adopted - Birth Mother changed her mind and took the baby back
IVF #4 October 2012 - New RE. Doing PGD Testing. 8 R, 7F, 2 made it to 5 day blast for PDG testing. Both Normal (Thank you G-d!!!) 1 boy and 1 girl
transferred one beautiful 5day blast (girl)
Please G-d the almighty one - let this be our take home baby!
Beta #1 158, Beta #2 318, 1 Absolutely magnificent HB at 175! Thank you G-d!!!
Baby Girl born August 5th. Thank you G-d for our precious miracle.
AMA. PAIF & SAIF always welcome - I need all the prayers I can get!
DD -- 5YO
DS -- 3YO
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Married 05/30/09 & TTC ever since Clomid only for 5 cycles IUI #1: 06/07/10 BFN IUI#2: 08/19/10 BFN IVF #1 started 10/07/10, ER 10/17/10 6 retrieved/6 fertilized, ET on day 5 10/22/10... Beta #1 on 11/5/10: 680!!!, Beta #2 on 11/8/10: 2337!!!, U/S 11/18/10 Got to see the tiny beating heart! What a blessing! 12/2/10 U/S HB 176 & I'm released!
I read (in general) of your loss on the multiples board, but this is the first time I read of the actual story. My heart truly and seriously aches for you. I wish you much peace, my dear. We do not know why babies are taken from us or called home so soon. You have my love and support.
I am a little late to this post. But never forget that you ARE a mama of 3 children. You were pregnant and gave birth. Now comes the endless grieving period. If anyone ever ask if you have children you can answer a resounding YES, I have 3 angels in heaven.
My prayers are with you. The loss of a child is horrible no matter when it occurs.
Its been 4 yrs since we lost my nephew at 14 months of age. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him.
God bless you