And I have NO idea what to expect. Part of me thinks I'm going to be fine and part of me thinks I'm going to be a blubbering mess. I really hope that I'm going to be okay. It's really important to me to be honest about my feelings, but it's also really important to me that I put in the hard work to keep growing in this process. I'll update later today.
Re: going to see my friend's baby today
*hugs* The first time I held a baby after losing Logan was maybe 4-5 months after. The baby was actually our godson and he was nearly 9 months old. I was terrified....but in a way, a very bittersweet way, I found a little healing.
Good luck, Lovey! I'll be thinking of you.