My PGAL anxiety is setting in so badly today :(

myaddiwaddi06 · April 2012

So I have been keeping my anxiety at bay as much as possible. But today it's taking over. I was concerned about cramps a week ago and they seem to have gone away. I found comfort in the fact that I was nauseous for a good amount of the day since about 6.5 weeks. Since yesterday my nausea hasn't really been there and it's really bothering me. I know it's crazy to want it back because I know that nausea doesn't really mean anything. I am still tired and my breasts are sore pretty much everyday and I'm still constipated for the most part so I do have some symptoms still. It also doesn't help that my hair is shedding which for the most part had stopped until now. Anyone else still shedding hair? I am hoping it's the new shampoo I changed to.

I just remember last time telling my dr before my u/s that I just don't feel pregnant and then there was no baby. Ughh I wish I could leave work and go spend the day with MH.

So sorry for the whiney post. I had to get this out. I try to talk to DH but he just keeps telling me everything is fine and my mom thinks I am crazy.

ToiKenne · April 2012

I know that PgAL causes so much anxiety! Just try to relax and remember that symptoms come and go and that every pregnancy is different.

kelly321 · April 2012

First off, ignore your mom if she says you're crazy. In our mom's generation (and unfortunately even in ours), women simply did not talk about miscarriages, so those women who didn't have them lived in ignorant bliss.

Second, I'm so sorry you're feeling so anxious. I hope you know that it's normal, especially after multiple losses. I posted yesterday about the possibility of a blighted ovum and having to wait for a follow-up u/s next week. This morning I was talking to my SIL about it. She had a m/c last year in her first pregnancy and is now in her 20th week with her second pregnancy. She was telling me how she drove her husband insane by pacing and trembling in the OB's waiting room before each of her early u/s's (she had bleeding this pregnancy). Anyway, it's normal. You're normal. And it's just fine to whine and express your anxiety on here. I hope you get some reassurance from your doctor soon that your baby's doing just fine!

BarooGirl · April 2012

PgAL anxiety just stinks.

I am sorry hun.

I know the on and off symptoms can drive you nuts, but I really do hear from lots that is is so normal.

I wish you the best. When is your next appt? I hope it calms your fears some. ((big hugs))

myaddiwaddi06 · April 2012

kelly321:

First off, ignore your mom if she says you're crazy. In our mom's generation (and unfortunately even in ours), women simply did not talk about miscarriages, so those women who didn't have them lived in ignorant bliss.

Second, I'm so sorry you're feeling so anxious. I hope you know that it's normal, especially after multiple losses. I posted yesterday about the possibility of a blighted ovum and having to wait for a follow-up u/s next week. This morning I was talking to my SIL about it. She had a m/c last year in her first pregnancy and is now in her 20th week with her second pregnancy. She was telling me how she drove her husband insane by pacing and trembling in the OB's waiting room before each of her early u/s's (she had bleeding this pregnancy). Anyway, it's normal. You're normal. And it's just fine to whine and express you're anxiety on here. I hope you get some reassurance from your doctor soon that your baby's doing just fine!

Thank you so much you are too sweet. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I must have missed your post yesterday. Waiting in the unknown/limbo is so difficult. I have certainly been there myself. I am so sorry. I hope this week goes by quickly and you get nothing but positive results from your doctor.

keiral · April 2012

PGAL sucks! I totally understand. I have been worried as well. My nausea doesn't seem as intense the last couple of days and yesterday I had some pretty substantial cramping. This made me totally freak out. Seems to be gone now though. Maybe the cramping is just stretching?

It is very normal for symptoms to come and go. Just keep telling yourself that.

I haven't even had an U/S yet! This drives me crazy! Have you had one? When is your next one?

All you are feeling is normal. Smile

myaddiwaddi06 · April 2012

BarooGirl:

PgAL anxiety just stinks.

I am sorry hun.

I know the on and off symptoms can drive you nuts, but I really do hear from lots that is is so normal.

I wish you the best. When is your next appt? I hope it calms your fears some. ((big hugs))

Thank you! My next appt is April 16th. My dr is going to do an u/s and make sure everything is ok. She told me that if I could just get to 10 weeks she would feel much better about this pregnancy. I have a lot to do between now and then to keep me busy but it's just agony.

GHBEA · April 2012

PGAL anxiety is worry some. I get so nervous I go and take another pregnancy test.

Hope everything is okay HUGS

myaddiwaddi06 · April 2012

keiral:

PGAL sucks! I totally understand. I have been worried as well. My nausea doesn't seem as intense the last couple of days and yesterday I had some pretty substantial cramping. This made me totally freak out. Seems to be gone now though. Maybe the cramping is just stretching?

It is very normal for symptoms to come and go. Just keep telling yourself that.

I haven't even had an U/S yet! This drives me crazy! Have you had one? When is your next one?

All you are feeling is normal.

The cramps are scary right??? I had them in my back and in my lower abdomen on and off for about a week. My dr said it's normal as long as there is no bleeding/spotting. I think it's stretching but who knows. I wish I had a pair of ute goggles so I could just check in on the LO every once in a while. I thought about getting a doppler but if I don't find a heartbeat on my own talk about freak out.

I have had an u/s. I had it at 6w2d. The dr wanted to date my pregnancy as I had a M/C in November and my cycles weren't back to normal yet. We saw a heartbeat and my dr was happy. She checked my progesterone also which was low last time and she was happy with that also. So I am just waiting until the 16th to see her again.

Have you had your first appt? Do you know when you will get an u/s?

keiral · April 2012

myaddiwaddi06:
keiral:

PGAL sucks! I totally understand. I have been worried as well. My nausea doesn't seem as intense the last couple of days and yesterday I had some pretty substantial cramping. This made me totally freak out. Seems to be gone now though. Maybe the cramping is just stretching?

It is very normal for symptoms to come and go. Just keep telling yourself that.

I haven't even had an U/S yet! This drives me crazy! Have you had one? When is your next one?

All you are feeling is normal.

The cramps are scary right??? I had them in my back and in my lower abdomen on and off for about a week. My dr said it's normal as long as there is no bleeding/spotting. I think it's stretching but who knows. I wish I had a pair of ute goggles so I could just check in on the LO every once in a while. I thought about getting a doppler but if I don't find a heartbeat on my own talk about freak out.

I have had an u/s. I had it at 6w2d. The dr wanted to date my pregnancy as I had a M/C in November and my cycles weren't back to normal yet. We saw a heartbeat and my dr was happy. She checked my progesterone also which was low last time and she was happy with that also. So I am just waiting until the 16th to see her again.

Have you had your first appt? Do you know when you will get an u/s?

The cramps are so scary!! I think it's just stretching though. Glad you got to see a HB.. that's great! I'm sure everything will be perfect when you go on the 16th. I have had my first visit, but no U/S. My first U/S will be on April 17th. It will be the first look at LO and it will also be the NT scan, since I'll be 11wks, 4 days then. I was really hoping to have a U/S earlier than this. I totally want a pair of ute goggles to know what's going on in there! That would be awesome! I have no reason to believe anything is wrong, but you just never know. I want to be positive and and think that all will be perfect at the U/S, but then there is always that PGAL part of me that knows that it doesn't always work out that way and, god forbid, it could be all over when I get that U/S. I have a "good feeling" about this pregnancy though and I'm trying to be confident in that. I think I will not be able to look at the U/S monitor until I'm told, either by DH or the U/S tech, that there is a live baby in there!

GL to you!!

BarooGirl · April 2012

myaddiwaddi06:
I wish I had a pair of ute goggles so I could just check in on the LO every once in a while. I thought about getting a doppler but if I don't find a heartbeat on my own talk about freak out.

I think I want a little window--like on a washing machine where I can just peak in when I want.

The doppler is great, however I find I am checking more and more (before work, at lunch and after work) now and I did have a panic moment lastnight when I couldnt find it (found it later and this am). Part of me wishes I didnt have one.

I hope the next 12 days fly by for you.

myaddiwaddi06 · April 2012

BarooGirl:
myaddiwaddi06:
I wish I had a pair of ute goggles so I could just check in on the LO every once in a while. I thought about getting a doppler but if I don't find a heartbeat on my own talk about freak out.

I think I want a little window--like on a washing machine where I can just peak in when I want.

The doppler is great, however I find I am checking more and more (before work, at lunch and after work) now and I did have a panic moment lastnight when I couldnt find it (found it later and this am). Part of me wishes I didnt have one.

I hope the next 12 days fly by for you.

I want a doppler so bad. I am just worried I won't be able to find the hb on my own. Is it easy? Which one do you have? I think it would be reassuring and help me stress less if I could figure it out.

LivingItUpInUP · April 2012

I know how you feel. Even after seeing the heartbeat I still feel like any day this baby could be taken away from me.

Even though your nausea comes and goes, it sounds like you always have some symptoms - breast soreness, tiredness, constipation are all symptoms. I only have breast tenderness and that comes and goes for me, and it always makes me worry too. We just have to remind ourselves that symptoms come and go. Hopefully once we hit 2nd tri we'll be able to relax a little!

BarooGirl · April 2012

myaddiwaddi06:
BarooGirl:
myaddiwaddi06:
I wish I had a pair of ute goggles so I could just check in on the LO every once in a while. I thought about getting a doppler but if I don't find a heartbeat on my own talk about freak out.

I think I want a little window--like on a washing machine where I can just peak in when I want.

The doppler is great, however I find I am checking more and more (before work, at lunch and after work) now and I did have a panic moment lastnight when I couldnt find it (found it later and this am). Part of me wishes I didnt have one.

I hope the next 12 days fly by for you.

I want a doppler so bad. I am just worried I won't be able to find the hb on my own. Is it easy? Which one do you have? I think it would be reassuring and help me stress less if I could figure it out.

I have the sonoline B - ordered from ebay, $60?

I do like it. I did have a bit of trouble lastnight finding it, but found it later. I also am getting better at finding it. Today (before work and on lunch) I found it right away. I dont pay much attention to the counter thing, because, unless I have it just right, it will skip counting a few of the beats. However I can hear it just fine.---I can still get a good read on the bpm (170ish) sometimes.

I always remind myself before I do it that I might not find it and that wont mean anything bad. Sometimes I think the LO is lower in my pelvis- maybe when my bladder (sp?- looks weird) is empty.

Overall, it is a comfort. I have only had mine out for a week.

bluebonnetmeg · April 2012

((hugs)) I hope the weeks go by quickly for you, and that your nausea makes a reappearance. (Isn't it weird to be wishing for nausea!?) I will be getting a doppler soon and I hope it calms my anxiety. Being PgAL is a mind trip for sure.

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