Parenting after a Loss

It went as well as it could have.

So I did not have a full blown panic attack..Thank you anxiety meds but I cried alot...ANd I called alot... I was worried all day, I talked about him all day, and everytime I did...I cried..

Gah they are so going to fire me if I don't pull it together. Well in all reality probably not b/c they know all about Kam (my area director goes to my church and usd to watch her in nursery, she was at the funeral) but still. 

Apparently he cried for the last almost 3 hours and did not nap at all after 9 am, when DH picked him up after he got off he stopped crying immediately and snuggled into his neck.  It amde DH feel great b/c usually Gabe won't let anyone but me hold him (he may be a little bit of a mama's boy...)

But once I got home and he heard me it was over.  He wouldn't even let me put him down to go to the bathroom.  Which was unfortunate as Mondays are Cheerleading for Katelyn and I am one of her two coaches.  He was a complete little cheer boy tonight.  LOL we may have to get him some little red pants and a head band. 

He is finally asleep after lots of rocking, and we get to do it all over again tomorrow...At least there isn't Cheer tomorrow so I can be with him all evening.  He will also be with DH so maybe he will be ok Tongue Tied

Thank you for all the support and words of comfort.  I appreciate it!

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  • I'm glad it went as well as it could for your first day. Don't worry about calling too much or crying. We're three months in daycare and I still call everyday and I still cry everyday.

    ((hugs)) You are so strong.

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    BFP 6.1.10 - 6.10.10 Ectopic M/C @ 5wks
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    BFP 1.30.11 - CVS 3.28.11 (Girl) - EDD 10.11.11 - Born 10.6.11
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  • Sounds like a successful day to me! Tomorrow will be even better.
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  • I am glad your first day went well, it is still tough!
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  • Each day will get a little better. Keep your head up!
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  • Glad it went well. I cried like a baby at daycare the first day I left E. I dropped by and called and checked on him too. The first week was the hardest, although I still don't like leaving him. I am glad it went as well as it could go and that he gets to be with his daddy today.
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  • I'm glad that you got through it! Hope today is going well.
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  • glad to hear you made it through... maybe each day will be just a little bit easier? hope so :)
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    BFP #1 3/29/11.  EDD 12/4/11... Missed m/c 5/9/11. Cytotec fail. D&C 5/17/11.
    BFP #2   7/5/11.  EDD 3/14/12... Our rainbow Kellen born 3/14/12 via c/s.
    BFP #3 5/30/13.  EDD 2/8/14...  6wk u/s HB 126. 8wk u/s lost HB. D&C 7/12/13.
    BFP #4 2/18/14.  EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
    BFP #5 7/27/14.  EDD 4/9/15...  m/c @ 5w4d.

    IVF #1    Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN. 
    IVF #2    Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.  Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
    IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.

    BFP #6  (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15.  EDD 11/30/15...  CP at 4w2d.
    IUI #2:    Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
    IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN. 

    BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).

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  • (((Hugs))) I'm glad it went as well as it could.  He should adjust over time and it should get easier for both of you. 
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  • Super big hugs to you! You made it through!!!!!
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  • (((hugs))) I'm so proud of you. 
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  • I was absolutely thinking about you yesterday and was planning on sending you a shout out - but we had a rough day yesterday.  I'm so, so glad that it wasn't horrible and I hope it keeps getting better each and every day.  ((BIG HUGE HUGS))

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