So I did not have a full blown panic attack..Thank you anxiety meds but I cried alot...ANd I called alot... I was worried all day, I talked about him all day, and everytime I did...I cried..
Gah they are so going to fire me if I don't pull it together. Well in all reality probably not b/c they know all about Kam (my area director goes to my church and usd to watch her in nursery, she was at the funeral) but still.
Apparently he cried for the last almost 3 hours and did not nap at all after 9 am, when DH picked him up after he got off he stopped crying immediately and snuggled into his neck. It amde DH feel great b/c usually Gabe won't let anyone but me hold him (he may be a little bit of a mama's boy...)
But once I got home and he heard me it was over. He wouldn't even let me put him down to go to the bathroom. Which was unfortunate as Mondays are Cheerleading for Katelyn and I am one of her two coaches. He was a complete little cheer boy tonight. LOL we may have to get him some little red pants and a head band.
He is finally asleep after lots of rocking, and we get to do it all over again tomorrow...At least there isn't Cheer tomorrow so I can be with him all evening. He will also be with DH so maybe he will be ok ![]()
Thank you for all the support and words of comfort. I appreciate it!
Re: It went as well as it could have.
I'm glad it went as well as it could for your first day. Don't worry about calling too much or crying. We're three months in daycare and I still call everyday and I still cry everyday.
((hugs)) You are so strong.
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