Nightly Confessions

aussiedaze · March 2012

Let's hear it ladies.

kpowers982 · March 2012

Shoes/shoe shopping...I don't see the fascination

::ducks to avoid being hit::

aussiedaze · March 2012

I cut a woman off today for being a b!tch and cutting in front of me, turning without signaling, driving while talking on her cell and just being an all around twatwaffle. Well she ended up turning into my parking lot behind me for work. I tried to drive around and lose her so she wouldn't see where I parked, but part of me got glorious satisfaction.

raashton · March 2012

DC2London:

I'm going to try really hard to word this carefully so I don't offend anyone...

I am devastated by my loss. Some days the sadness is crushing. But then I look at what some other women have been through, and I feel so guilty for being so hurt by my one, early loss. Some of my dear friends from BOTB and some girls here have had late-term losses, still-births, or multiple losses and here I am having a giant pity party for my one loss at 8w. I feel guilty about it....I feel like I have no right to be sad when others have endured so much more sadness.

With that said, I never, EVER feel that way about anyone else mourning their loss. My heart aches for every woman who has suffered a loss, regardless of when or how many, and I have never once thought that another woman had any less right to mourn than another. Just me....I'm just hard on myself, I suppose.

I feel like you many times. I wasn't even 8 weeks, and my mom often says, "At least you never saw the heart beat." Which both makes me feel ashamed of my pain and makes my pain feel trivialized. However, at the end of the day, pain is pain, and you only know what YOU feel and experience.

I talked about this with my psychiatrist whose son died in a car wreck at 17. I made him get choked up b/c I said that I felt so petty, having never met my child but being devastated while he lost a son he had held, loved, made memories with. He told me flat out I was ridiculous, a parent is a parent regardless of time and "real" memories and I was allowed to feel hollow.

I still struggle but it really helped me; I hope it helps you.

sammer818 · March 2012

aussiedaze:
I cut a woman off today for being a b!tch and cutting in front of me, turning without signaling, driving while talking on her cell and just being an all around twatwaffle. Well she ended up turning into my parking lot behind me for work. I tried to drive around and lose her so she wouldn't see where I parked, but part of me got glorious satisfaction.

Twatwaffle has got to be THE MOST AWESOME word I've never heard of. I can't wait to be able to use it in a real sentence!!

raashton · March 2012

I love my husband very much and LOVE spending the weekends with him, the random weekday holiday where he is home, and vacations out of town. However, he took Weds, Thurs, and Fri off work so was home with me all day. It has driven me crazy to have my routine so disrupted. I will be glad when next week is back to normal.

delino · March 2012

I'm thinking of spending the entire day tomorrow in my pjs. It will be rainy and I deserve a pj's day. Maybe even a pancake breakfast.

sammer818 · March 2012

We are in the 2ww, so I'm limiting the amount I drink. Sad

The past week has been craptastic (and that is probably being optomistic about it!) and I had plans to meet my coworker out at the bar. I got there at the appointed meeting time, had my 1 glass of wine for the night, and she never showed (I was there 40 minute!!). I even called her twice and she didn't answer. I'm so angry right now I'd probably punch her if I saw her. But on Monday when I see her at work, I will be all nonchalant about her standing me up instead of telling her it really hurt my feelings. I'm so weak sometimes.

littlemusings · March 2012

kpowers982:
Shoes/shoe shopping...I don't see the fascination

::ducks to avoid being hit::

I hate, hate, hate shoe shopping...almost as much as I hate going to Home Depot. But I like shoes:)

Damn, I'm boring. I really have nothing to confess. Oh wait...I found out what my DH is getting me for my birthday even though he was planning on keeping it secret. I'm bad with surprises....just horrible. I'm not going to let on that I know....he'd be pissed!

LaTi07 · March 2012

DC2London:

I'm going to try really hard to word this carefully so I don't offend anyone...

I am devastated by my loss. Some days the sadness is crushing. But then I look at what some other women have been through, and I feel so guilty for being so hurt by my one, early loss. Some of my dear friends from BOTB and some girls here have had late-term losses, still-births, or multiple losses and here I am having a giant pity party for my one loss at 8w. I feel guilty about it....I feel like I have no right to be sad when others have endured so much more sadness.

With that said, I never, EVER feel that way about anyone else mourning their loss. My heart aches for every woman who has suffered a loss, regardless of when or how many, and I have never once thought that another woman had any less right to mourn than another. Just me....I'm just hard on myself, I suppose.

I have felt this way a thousand times about my loss and now about our infertility. I just try to remind myself that while others have it worse, it doesn't by any means diminish the pain we are feeling about our own situation.

My confession: I'm so butt crazy excited about meeting Mork tomorrow that I was like the worst employee ever today!

Mrs.DeliaMarieP · March 2012

DC2London:
I'm going to try really hard to word this carefully so I don't offend anyone...
I am devastated by my loss. Some days the sadness is crushing. But then I look at what some other women have been through, and I feel so guilty for being so hurt by my one, early loss. Some of my dear friends from BOTB and some girls here have had late-term losses, still-births, or multiple losses and here I am having a giant pity party for my one loss at 8w. I feel guilty about it....I feel like I have no right to be sad when others have endured so much more sadness.
With that said, I never, EVER feel that way about anyone else mourning their loss. My heart aches for every woman who has suffered a loss, regardless of when or how many, and I have never once thought that another woman had any less right to mourn than another. Just me....I'm just hard on myself, I suppose.

I feel the same way you do, generally guilty if I complain "too much" I respect the ladies here and everywhere who have had later/more losses than me and more troubles TTC in general, and for being able to continue their journeys while still coming here to support all of us as well.

Mrs.DeliaMarieP · March 2012

kpowers982:
Shoes/shoe shopping...I don't see the fascination

::ducks to avoid being hit::

I agree with this, I just don't get it, either.

Mrs.DeliaMarieP · March 2012

My DH typically plays hockey on Friday nights, and I used to bust his chops because it's Friday night, and I would rather he were home with me.

Well, I've finally gotten used to having these Friday nights to myself, I had a particularly rough day at work, and was kind of looking forward to getting a bit drunk and watching Say Yes to the Dress marathon, and he decided to stay home tonight for the first time in over a month.

So, on one hand I am happy he's here, and on the other hand, I kind-of miss the marathon...ah well...off to take a shower and watch some of the final season of The Shield.

Good night, ladies!

panacea05 · March 2012

RosiePeare:
PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.
Oh, Petra--that's pretty much every weekend at our house--thank God I'm not alone! I often feel embarrassed when I put out the recycling bin... especially because we live next door to a family with 5 kids...
Anyway, I'm currently doing ALL of the following behaviors AT THE SAME TIME:
1) Eating an entire bag of Pirate's Booty. (To my credit, I didn't have breakfast, and DH isn't off work until 10, so dinner is late.)
2) Drinking a very large glass of white wine. (Read: at least 1/3 of the bottle)
3) Watching BridalPlasty. (In my defense, I was on Netflix looking for something mindless while I catch up on Bump PMs.)
Good Lord. Is this really my Friday night?

That sounds like a perfect Friday night to me.

So far, my Friday night has consisted of cleaning up puppy messes. Why does he sh!t on the floor 5 minutes after we've come in from outside? He's done that twice in 2.5 hours. His cuteness just isn't enough tonight; I'm pissed.

edinger3 · March 2012

Bought my Mega Millions ticket, in addition to going in on tickets with co-workers. Also splurged on $20 worth of scratch & win tickets. Came ahead $4! Was doing great with healthy eating, but had french bread pizza & a chocolate cupcake for dinner. I'm getting so sick of pizza on Friday nights. Can't wait for Lent to be over!

minicheezburg · March 2012

Sterling13:
Sometimes I just want to bury my head in the sand rather than learn there's one more thing that I'm woefully ignorant about when it comes to my body. It seems like there are a number of jerks out in the world who don't know how to find their a$$ with both of their hands who get along just fine, and meanwhile I try to learn what's going on and get nowhere fast.

I am in this frame of mind right now. I am sorry sweets.

minicheezburg · March 2012

I made my appointment for the new doctor today and now I am nervous because I am to have my pap with a mid wife and then will have a seperate appointment with the RE. Has anyone had a mid wife? Should I be worried? I don't know I guess I am just scared because my last doctor was a huge doopty doo.

minicheezburg · March 2012

DC2London:

minicheezburg:
I made my appointment for the new doctor today and now I am nervous because I am to have my pap with a mid wife and then will have a seperate appointment with the RE. Has anyone had a mid wife? Should I be worried? I don't know I guess I am just scared because my last doctor was a huge doopty doo.

DS mentioned...

I have used midwives since 2008, I love them. A midwife delivered my DS and it was wonderful. What exactly concerns you? A CNM can do everything an OB can, just not surgery (i.e. a c-section).

I like midwives because they tend to be a little more laid-back about things than an OB. Just my two cents, though

This actually helps me A LOT. I know absolutely nothing about mid wives. I guess my idea of what they do was different for some reason.

samakasrc · March 2012

I've told my work over and over again that I can't make last minute changes to my schedule because I have to be able to find childcare. They called me 2 days ago to add Saturday night to my schedule - I told them I couldn't because of not having a babysitter. My boyfriend would be home so its not really an issue - I just was looking forward to having a weekend off... I feel bad, but I don't know how many different times and ways I have to tell them that I can only work 2 days a week (Fri, Sat or Sun) overnights. They just don't get it and I'm super frustrated!

samakasrc · March 2012

littlemusings:
kpowers982:

Shoes/shoe shopping...I don't see the fascination

::ducks to avoid being hit::

I hate, hate, hate shoe shopping...almost as much as I hate going to Home Depot. But I like shoes:)

Damn, I'm boring. I really have nothing to confess. Oh wait...I found out what my DH is getting me for my birthday even though he was planning on keeping it secret. I'm bad with surprises....just horrible. I'm not going to let on that I know....he'd be pissed!

I knew what my S/O was getting me for Christmas as soon as he bought it... I didn't have the heart to tell him and acted totally surprised when I opened it. He still doesn't know I knew...

behapy2day · March 2012

I couldnt find my black belt to wear with my black dress pants to wear to work so I used my black bella band to hold my pants up at work.. and loved it even if I am not pregnant. It looked so much smoother underneath my top. Embarrassed

eta: wording

minicheezburg · March 2012

DC2London:
minicheezburg:
DC2London:

minicheezburg:
I made my appointment for the new doctor today and now I am nervous because I am to have my pap with a mid wife and then will have a seperate appointment with the RE. Has anyone had a mid wife? Should I be worried? I don't know I guess I am just scared because my last doctor was a huge doopty doo.

DS mentioned...

I have used midwives since 2008, I love them. A midwife delivered my DS and it was wonderful. What exactly concerns you? A CNM can do everything an OB can, just not surgery (i.e. a c-section).

I like midwives because they tend to be a little more laid-back about things than an OB. Just my two cents, though

This actually helps me A LOT. I know absolutely nothing about mid wives. I guess my idea of what they do was different for some reason.

Oh, good! Granted, this was just my experience, but I saw several different midwives during my first pregnancy and they all were pretty laid back...caffeine was ok in moderation, they supported exercise during pregnancy, they didn't push induction or medication, etc. While I was in labor, I was allowed to wear my own t-shirt, eat, and bounce on my birthing ball or walk as much as I pleased. It was wonderful. I hope it goes well for you!

That sounds really wonderful! Thank you again I will remember to direct my mid wife questions to you!

katharine25 · March 2012

PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.

My DH doesn't drink. There are nights when I realize I'm the one who drank the whole bottle...

danaunclaw · March 2012

Last night I drank an entire bottle of champagne by myself. Out of a plastic solo cup. I proceeded to go from giggly to sobbing in no time flat. How pathetic did I look? And classy!!!!

shellyco · March 2012

DC2London:

I'm going to try really hard to word this carefully so I don't offend anyone...

I am devastated by my loss. Some days the sadness is crushing. But then I look at what some other women have been through, and I feel so guilty for being so hurt by my one, early loss. Some of my dear friends from BOTB and some girls here have had late-term losses, still-births, or multiple losses and here I am having a giant pity party for my one loss at 8w. I feel guilty about it....I feel like I have no right to be sad when others have endured so much more sadness.

I totally understand this, and think this every time I cry about my loss.

I'll go one further though, and confess that I do often think that others (even others who have had a loss) think that my loss was "only a CP" and I shouldn't be as sad as I am. I really wish I weren't as sad as I am.

panacea05 · March 2012

katharine25:
PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.
My DH doesn't drink. There are nights when I realize I'm the one who drank the whole bottle...

Haha. Ditto. But an entire bottle is only like, 3 glasses. It just looks like a lot in that giant bottle

TA110980 · March 2012

panacea05:
katharine25:
PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.
My DH doesn't drink. There are nights when I realize I'm the one who drank the whole bottle...
Haha. Ditto. But an entire bottle is only like, 3 glasses. It just looks like a lot in that giant bottle

This! You are my kind of people.

bananers · March 2012

I really want some wine right now, but the only bottle we have in our house right now is a $50 bottle we were saving for a special occasion. I'm seriously considering cracking that puppy open and drinking it all by myself.

JuddandJessica · March 2012

I've decided that once all of this is said and over and I'm holding a baby, I'm never using bc again. Seriously? What's the point?! I feel like even if we were TTA, I'd be able to figure it out with thinking about it. Apparently, it's damn hard to have kids!

danaunclaw · March 2012

RosiePeare:
danaunclaw:
Last night I drank an entire bottle of champagne by myself. Out of a plastic solo cup. I proceeded to go from giggly to sobbing in no time flat. How pathetic did I look? And classy!!!!
Please tell me you were listening to Toby Keith's "Red Solo Cup" as you did so?
And there's is nothing BUT classy in admitting when you just need a cocktail! :-)

There were definitely references by DH to the song. It was seriously sad. DH doesn't drink so I was drinking alone too. I woke up hung over and depressed. Exactly the opposite of my intent. Oops.

s.alarie · March 2012

TA110980:
panacea05:
katharine25:
PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.
My DH doesn't drink. There are nights when I realize I'm the one who drank the whole bottle...
Haha. Ditto. But an entire bottle is only like, 3 glasses. It just looks like a lot in that giant bottle
This! You are my kind of people.

Holds the contents of an entire bottle of wine...

s.alarie · March 2012

Here's my confession:

I was just cutting some strawberries for strawberry short cakes, and realized it was the first fruit I'd be eating all day. Healthy eating fail.

behapy2day · March 2012

JuddandJessica:
I've decided that once all of this is said and over and I'm holding a baby, I'm never using bc again. Seriously? What's the point?! I feel like even if we were TTA, I'd be able to figure it out with thinking about it. Apparently, it's damn hard to have kids!

Yes

kiki4 · March 2012

PetraStonegirl:
DH and I split a bottle of wine last night. The entire bottle in a single pour. We filled two big bordeaux glasses and tossed the bottle.
I plan on doing the same thing tonight.
And tomorrow.

I you! I plan on doing the same thing!

My confession is that I feel guilty for not being around this week. It is hard to bump from work; add in that it was crazy busy, and I just couldn't manage much more than lurking from my phone. Then when I got home, I couldn't manage enough alone time to pee in privacy, much less get on the computer. All this has me feeling very alone.

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