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I'm calling it, ladies

12 dpo and a stark bfn. I'm calling this cycle a bust. To say I'mdevastated would be an understatement. We have one more iui and thenwe're d.o.n.e. done. I am so f*cking tired of this. I know there isstill a small chance. But I just can't believe that with a trigger andall, I wouldn't be getting a positive by now. Last medicated cycleI got af at cd25. That is tomorrow. I'll let you know. Thanks, ladies. I'm going to go crawl in my hole and drink a cup of coffee now.
Conceived DD after 15 cycles--- TTC #2 since 11/10---Me- Poor egg quality and supply---DH- Poor count and motility---2 rounds 75IU Follistim/IUI-BFN---5/12 150IU Follistim/IUI-Over-produced! Converted to IVF! 0 fertilized:( Rescue ICSI performed. 2 embryos transfered-BFN

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Re: I'm calling it, ladies

  • I'm so sorry.  It does suck and you have every right to be mad.  It's hard not to be discouraged each time you get a BFN. 

    Sending warm wishes & hugs your way!

    DD conceived naturally in 2009.  TTC #2 since August 2010.  Praying for guidance as we decide what's next.

    When the world says, "Give up,"

    Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

     ~Author Unknown

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  • Oh Linz Sad  I'm sorry.  I know you are disappointed.  I'm not going to tell you to keep your head up and not lose hope and you're not out until you're out, because I hate when I feel like crap and people try to encourage me.  I'd rather people just be pissed and sad with me sometimes.

    XOXOX

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    Married: 6/27/2008
    DS: 3/14/2010 Planned, PG first try
    M/C 6/2012
    DD: 4/22/2013 Planned, UnDx Infertility, PG on our own
    BFP: 10/28/2016 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE! 
    M/C 12/12/2016
    BFP: 10/27/2017 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE
    EDD: 7/2/2018


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  • Hugs, I am so sorry......IF just plain sucks and is so unfair.

    Spoil yourself this weekend!

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    I'm so sorry Lil.  You've been on such a long road.  T&Ps coming your way.  HUGS, Jenna
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    TTC #2 since Dec 2008 w/ PCOS
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  • imageWorkinWeezel:

      I'd rather people just be pissed and sad with me sometimes.

    I'm pissed and sad.

    You really maintained a lot of positivity this cycle and I know it really hurts.

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  • Sorry you are having to go through this disappointment and devastation.  Find a good sappy movie and go ahead and feel sorry for yourself.  You deserve to have a pity party (so to speak) after what you have gone through.

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    DD conceived after 3 years of ttc.
    MFI - DH had varicocele repair and took Clomid to get DD b. 02/2010

    TTC #2 since 6/2010
    10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
    A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013. 
    DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair. 
    Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies. 
    Wishing, hoping, waiting.


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  • Ladies. You are all amazing. Thank you so much. I don't know what I would do without you. I am feeling much better after a good cry. I honestly don't know how I'm still standing. If I knew a year ago that I would be in the same exact place, I think it would have ruined me. I find new strength each day, partly because of all you.

    I'm starting to realize that it is probably not going to happen for us. We haven't had even a whisper of success in 18 months and we are doing EVERYTHING right. We even still love having sex together!

    I just got done reading Waiting For Daisy. She had one ovary and an A/F count of 2 and got KU. Maybe someday it will happen for us, but I really don't think my body likes treatment. We'll do one more IUI and then we are getting our lives back. We'll never avoid, but I will never worry about monitoring again.

    Thanks, again, ladies! You truly are amazing!

    Conceived DD after 15 cycles--- TTC #2 since 11/10---Me- Poor egg quality and supply---DH- Poor count and motility---2 rounds 75IU Follistim/IUI-BFN---5/12 150IU Follistim/IUI-Over-produced! Converted to IVF! 0 fertilized:( Rescue ICSI performed. 2 embryos transfered-BFN

    ---------Game Over---------

    Moving on as a family of 3
    Lou's Infertility News

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    imageWorkinWeezel:

      I'd rather people just be pissed and sad with me sometimes.

    I'm pissed and sad.

    You really maintained a lot of positivity this cycle and I know it really hurts.

    Weez, you are SO right! It drives me crazy when people don't validate my feelings and just tell me to feel better.

    Coxity, I really was! This was the best I felt about a cylce...ever. Thanks for your support. I hope you're doing well!

    Conceived DD after 15 cycles--- TTC #2 since 11/10---Me- Poor egg quality and supply---DH- Poor count and motility---2 rounds 75IU Follistim/IUI-BFN---5/12 150IU Follistim/IUI-Over-produced! Converted to IVF! 0 fertilized:( Rescue ICSI performed. 2 embryos transfered-BFN

    ---------Game Over---------

    Moving on as a family of 3
    Lou's Infertility News

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  • sorry to hear....

    IF sucks.

    ~after 34 cycles we finally got our 2nd little bundle of joy~
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    Ladies. You are all amazing. Thank you so much. I don't know what I would do without you. I am feeling much better after a good cry. I honestly don't know how I'm still standing. If I knew a year ago that I would be in the same exact place, I think it would have ruined me. I find new strength each day, partly because of all you.

    I'm starting to realize that it is probably not going to happen for us. We haven't had even a whisper of success in 18 months and we are doing EVERYTHING right. We even still love having sex together!

    I just got done reading Waiting For Daisy. She had one ovary and an A/F count of 2 and got KU. Maybe someday it will happen for us, but I really don't think my body likes treatment. We'll do one more IUI and then we are getting our lives back. We'll never avoid, but I will never worry about monitoring again.

    Thanks, again, ladies! You truly are amazing!

    this was exactly how i felt.  i was thankful (in a way) that "i didn't know then what i knew now".

    i was going through the motions of TTC #2, but had very little hope towards the end.  i mean, how can you?  but if someone had told me i would finally get a BFP on cycle 34, i would have told them they are crazy.

    i wish you the very best on your next IUI!

    ~after 34 cycles we finally got our 2nd little bundle of joy~
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    imagelillinzlou:

    Ladies. You are all amazing. Thank you so much. I don't know what I would do without you. I am feeling much better after a good cry. I honestly don't know how I'm still standing. If I knew a year ago that I would be in the same exact place, I think it would have ruined me. I find new strength each day, partly because of all you.

    I'm starting to realize that it is probably not going to happen for us. We haven't had even a whisper of success in 18 months and we are doing EVERYTHING right. We even still love having sex together!

    I just got done reading Waiting For Daisy. She had one ovary and an A/F count of 2 and got KU. Maybe someday it will happen for us, but I really don't think my body likes treatment. We'll do one more IUI and then we are getting our lives back. We'll never avoid, but I will never worry about monitoring again.

    Thanks, again, ladies! You truly are amazing!

    this was exactly how i felt.  i was thankful (in a way) that "i didn't know then what i knew now".

    i was going through the motions of TTC #2, but had very little hope towards the end.  i mean, how can you?  but if someone had told me i would finally get a BFP on cycle 34, i would have told them they are crazy.

    i wish you the very best on your next IUI!

    Thanks, Byrne! I've been stalking you on PAIF. Congrats on the boy! I still can't believe that you made it to cycle 34. That is really unbelievable. The way I'm feeling now, I don't think we'll make it to cycle 24. Thanks for the words of wisdom.

    Conceived DD after 15 cycles--- TTC #2 since 11/10---Me- Poor egg quality and supply---DH- Poor count and motility---2 rounds 75IU Follistim/IUI-BFN---5/12 150IU Follistim/IUI-Over-produced! Converted to IVF! 0 fertilized:( Rescue ICSI performed. 2 embryos transfered-BFN

    ---------Game Over---------

    Moving on as a family of 3
    Lou's Infertility News

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    imageCoxity:
    imageWorkinWeezel:

      I'd rather people just be pissed and sad with me sometimes.

    I'm pissed and sad.

    You really maintained a lot of positivity this cycle and I know it really hurts.

    All of this. I'm so sorry girl! Screw the coffee you need a margarita!!

    7/09 miracle DD born
    3/11 DX: lean PCOS/anovulatory
    9/11 ovarian drilling to remove cysts + 5mg Femara = BFN
    10/11 5 mg Femara again = BFP, ectopic pregnancy at 5w4d
    11/11 diagnosed with breast cancer
    12/11 bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction
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    Dori
    "Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming"
  • I am so sorry.  (((hugs)))
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    TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!
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