*I was unable to sleep last night and found this poem. I posted it on miscarriage board but thought it might be comforting to others over here- especially those that have had miscarriages but no children in their arms at all. We wonder if we are truly mothers, and this poem helped me to see that we are*
What makes a Mother?
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked ?What makes a Mother??
And I know I heard Him say.
?A Mother has a baby?
This we know is true
?But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby?s not with you??
?Yes, you can,? He replied
With confidence in His voice
?I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there?s no need to stay.?
?I just don?t understand this God
I want my baby to be here.?
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.
?I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child?s smile,
With all the other children and say?
?We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow?s where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don?t be sad today,
I?m your baby and I?m here.?
?So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they?ll stay.
They?ll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson?s through.
And on the day that you come home
they?ll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It?s the feeling in your heart
it?s the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They?ll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!?
-Author Unknown.
Re: What Makes A Mother?
Married 07/17/2010
Diagnosed with PCOS 10/20/2010
TTC since Oct 2010
BFP #1 March 31st 2011 Due December 10 2011
Missed m/c discovered June 2nd 2011 at 12w4d
D&C scheduled June 7th 2011 at 13w2d
Found out our baby boy had Triploidy XXY through embryopathology
BFP #2 September 28th 2011 Due June 8th 2012
Missed m/c discovered November 20th 2011 at 11w2d
D&C November 29th 2011 at 12w4d
Found out our baby girl had Monosomy X through embryopathology
BFP #3 April 24th 2012 Due January 5th 2013
Betas falling on 04/26/12 Chemical Pregnancy
RPL testing done, multi nodular goiters on thyroid discovered.
BFP #4 November 22nd 2012, Due August 5th 2013
Betas: 17 @ 9dpo, 62 @ 11dpo, 124 @ 12dpo, 321 @ 14dpo 720 @ 16dpo 13,805 @ 23 dpo
First ultrasound at 6w3d, hb 122 bpm.
Second ultrasound at 7w3d hb 143 bpm
Third ultrasound at 10w1d hb 167-170 bpm
Forth ultrasound 12w1d hb 167 bpm
Graduated rpl program, moving on to regular ob!
It's a boy!
Little man was born August 1st 2013, 7lbs 8oz and 20.5 inches long
BFP#2 6/10/12 ~ EDD 2/21/13 ~ mm/c 7/12/12 ~ D&C 7/13/12
BFP#3 2/23/2013 ~ EDD 11/5/13 Beta#1 125, Beta#2 436, Beta#3 ???
BFP #1: 12/5/11, M/C 12/19/11
BFP #2: 5/22/12 Due 2/1/13 Baby girl born 2/2/13
Cycle 9: BFP 5-3-12:EDD 1-24-13 It's a girl! Born 12-27-12
I also have only had 1 pregnancy, which ended in miscarriage. My biggest fear is not being able to have a healthy full term baby. This is so comforting to me.
1/12/13 DD was born
4/9/16 DS was born
9/17 CP
6/23/18 BFP EDD 3/4/19
BPF 1. Baby Girl "Petri" 12/22/11 Said goodbye 12/27/11
BPF 2. Baby Boy "Roo" 1/20/12 Heartbeat 160b/m 2/15/12 Said goodbye 2/20/12
BPF 3. Rainbow Baby Boy "Creed" 4/28/12 Born healthy and alive 1/5/13
BFP 4. "Rainbow 2.0" 8/17/14 due 4/28/15
"Darling don't be afraid. I have loved you a thousand years. I love you a thousand more."
BFP #1 6.19.11 ~ EDD 2.23.12 ~ CP on 6.22.11
BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
BFP #4 4.12.12 ~ EDD 12.25.12~ Born on 12.26.12
Married 07/17/2010
Diagnosed with PCOS 10/20/2010
TTC since Oct 2010
BFP #1 March 31st 2011 Due December 10 2011
Missed m/c discovered June 2nd 2011 at 12w4d
D&C scheduled June 7th 2011 at 13w2d
Found out our baby boy had Triploidy XXY through embryopathology
BFP #2 September 28th 2011 Due June 8th 2012
Missed m/c discovered November 20th 2011 at 11w2d
D&C November 29th 2011 at 12w4d
Found out our baby girl had Monosomy X through embryopathology
BFP #3 April 24th 2012 Due January 5th 2013
Betas falling on 04/26/12 Chemical Pregnancy
RPL testing done, multi nodular goiters on thyroid discovered.
BFP #4 November 22nd 2012, Due August 5th 2013
Betas: 17 @ 9dpo, 62 @ 11dpo, 124 @ 12dpo, 321 @ 14dpo 720 @ 16dpo 13,805 @ 23 dpo
First ultrasound at 6w3d, hb 122 bpm.
Second ultrasound at 7w3d hb 143 bpm
Third ultrasound at 10w1d hb 167-170 bpm
Forth ultrasound 12w1d hb 167 bpm
Graduated rpl program, moving on to regular ob!
It's a boy!
Little man was born August 1st 2013, 7lbs 8oz and 20.5 inches long
I understand completely. I found it last night and have read it at least 5 times...and also posted it to my blog. We are mothers ladies- even though the world doesn't see it, we are.
BFP #1 ~ EDD 5.20.2012 ~ MC 10.1.2011
BFP #2 ~ EDD 11.15.2012 ~ CP 3.7.2012
BFP #3 ~ DS born 12.03.2012
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