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mollybloom · March 2012

My DD was born almost 7 months ago. She came via c/s, 10lbs 9ozs, screaming her little head off.

It took a while for me to bond with her and I thought I just had a case of the baby blues.

She was sick for the first 3.5 months and had horrible colic. I kept thinking that I would feel better once she wasn't sick anymore. Then, I would feel better once the colic was gone. Then, I would feel better once she started STTN.

Well, here I am, almost 7 months later and I don't feel better. I am unhappy about almost everything. I love my daughter more than life itself, but I get so angry with her sometimes. I also have a lot of trouble sleeping because of these crazy thoughts that run through my mind. Like really irrational thoughts. Sometimes, I get freaked out by these thoughts.

I have been honest with my husband about everything I am feeling and thinking about. That helps a lot to be able to talk about it. But, last night, I found myself crying on the floor in my DD's nursery at 11pm. I decided to call my doctor this morning.

I did talk to my doc about this when DD was 2 months, but he thought it was just a reaction to everything that was happening with DD. He told me to call if I still felt this way in another month or so. I never made that call.

Well, it is 9am here and my doc's office just opened up. Wish me luck girls.

bhession · March 2012

You can and will feel better! I am so glad that you are calling your doctor today. Remember that you are not alone. Please vent here any time you need it...there is a great group of ladies who are ready and willing to share their stories and help you get through this.