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XP: back from bump break, sad and frustrated (long)

RachH517RachH517 member
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Hi Ladies-

Sorry that I have not been around the past month or so. I was on a self-imposed bump break (and forced IF break). Congrats to all that have had good news and big hugs to all of those who have had difficult times. I am sorry that I was not there to give support but between moving, starting a new job, not being able to do anything IF related- DH and I agreed that it would be healthier for me to try and concentrate on other things.

 As for an update on me, in January I had a lap and hysteroscopy to remove a uterine septum and scar tissue. A stint was put in after to help my ute heal correctly. After the surgery I had really heavy bleeding and was out on bed rest but since then things have been progressing well and I have been healing.  The stint was removed in Feb.

I went in for a repeat SHG and HSG yesterday and although my ute is much lovelier shape wise than it was before they said that I still had about 25% of the scar tissue and it was still blocking my right tube. I will now be going for another operative hysteroscopy with a possible lap (won't know about the lap until he gets in there and decides if he needs to do it) in April.  That means I will have a stint until May and will then need two cycles off to heal. The earliest I can even try for an IUI will be August.  

This will be my third operative hysteroscopy in a 12 months and our last IUI was in June 2011. I will be on a forced break without cycling at all for well over a year. I just want to be able to try. The waiting is killing me (and the surgeries are sucking up all of my money.) I spent all of yesterday in tears.  

Sorry this turned into a really long vent- I just don't know what to do anymore. I would insert a picture of a cocktail here and offer you a drink for having read this whole thing but I'm on my iPad and have not figured out how to do it so (insert favorite cocktail here). 

I will try to come on and post more but it is getting to the point for me where it is hard to watch others cycling and not be a part of it. For the first few months I tried to stay on and offer support, answer questions etc but it's just hard when I am not having shared experiences with all of you. Best of luck to everybody.  Hope you all get your BFP soon!!

 

Me: 33, Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, DOR (AMH .35), DH: 38, Borderline low morph
5/09- Off BCP, 5/09-9/09- No period, 9/09-9/10- Lots of Tests & accupuncture
10/10 and 11/10- 2 rounds of Menopur + TI= BFNS
12/10-IUI #1 Menopur = BFN
1/11- IUI #2 Menopur = BFP, 2/11 missed mc at 9 weeks, D&C
5/11- Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum
6/11- IUI #3 Menopur = BFP, 8/11 missed mc at 11 weeks, D&C
1/12- Lap and Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum (again) & scar tissue
2/12- Stint Removal, 3/12 repeat SHG and HSG- showed scar tissue blocking right tube
4/12- Operative hysteroscopy (again), RE said he can now see right tube (yay!)
5/12- Stint removal, 6/12 repeat SHG and HSG-both tubes are open!
8/12- IUI #4 Bravelle = BFN
9/12-IUI #5 Bravelle = BFN
1/13- IVF #1, micro-flare protocol, 7R, 6F, 5dt of 2 AA embryos, 1 to freeze = BFP
Beta #1: 176, Beta #2: 422, EDD 10/8/13- it's TWINS!
*PAIF/SAIF always welcome*
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  • shanrobshanrob member
    What a trying year you have had so far!  I don't blame you for feeling sad and frustrated.  Big hugs as you heal and look toward the future.  August will be here before you know it!
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  • ct103ct103 member
    Hello and welcome back. I don't think I met you before your bump break, so nice to meet you! I'm sorry you have to be here. Hoping you get some good news soon, it's clear you've been through so much already. 
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  • funny bunnyfunny bunny member

    Since I think you can use this, I insert the drink on your behalf: image

    *Hugs* I hope the wait is over soon!

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  • jenn0021jenn0021 member

    I'm so sorry. It sounds like you've had a stressful month and a break is what you needed. I can't imagine how frustrated you are. Waiting can be so hard.

    I do get what you mean though about coming on here and not really feeling like you're in the same place. I'm TTA and while it's completely different than you, I sometimes feel sad that I can't participate in a lot of threads concerning TTC.

    Sending you ((Hugs)) and I hope that things start to look up for you. Welcome back!

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    BFP #1     07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
    TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
    BFP #3 08/18/13. EDD 04/30/14. Missed m/c 09/25/13. D&C 09/26/13. }Daylin{
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    Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
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    Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles     - All BFN's
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  • big_noisebig_noise member
    Welcome back. I'm new to this board since you're break, I believe. Hope things start to get better for you.
    BFP #1, 12/22/09 - DD#1 born 9/2010
    BFP #2, 12/12/11, m/c 12/25/11
    BFP #3, 3/09/12, CP 3/10/12
    BFP #4, 7/22/12, DD#2 born 4/2013
     

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  • KacyChicagoKacyChicago member

    It's nice to "meet" you ... I've only been around for a few weeks or so. I am sorry to hear that you've had a such a tough time here recently, and I'm sorry you have to TTA for a while. (I'm in the same boat, so you're not alone there!)

    Welcome back ... I hope you get all the support you need.

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    “So can you understand? Why I want a daughter while I’m still young? I wanna hold her hand and show her some beauty before all this damage is done. But if it’s too much to ask, it’s too much to ask … Then send me a son.” – Arcade Fire
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  • GatorBaby2012GatorBaby2012
    Welcome back and (((big hugs))) to you!
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