I just don't get it. I'm "pretending" to be okay with this around DH because it stresses him out when I'm upset and the last thing he needs right now is more stress... but I'm about to burst into tears if I don't at least type it out.
DH has no family in Indiana. All of his family lives in WI and TN. Well, his Aunt (from WI) just sent around an email to "warn" us that his 16 year old cousin is pregnant and is due September 15. I can't say that I'm surprised, as she has always been really rebellious, but WHY!?
Why is she experiencing a perfectly healthy pregnancy and I'm struggling to get pregnant after a loss? I hate that it's not me. I hate even more that I have to spend a week up in WI at her house and we always get her room during the 4th of July. I will have my SIL who will be due in four weeks at that time on one side of me and his cousin who is just 4 weeks behind her on the other side.
I am crushed. Hurt. And so angry.
I sent a private email back to his Aunt to just encourage her because I know she is stuggling. My own sister was pregnant at 15... but it doesn't change the fact that I just feel...