I think I may cry (pg mentioned)
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Ok, so I know I'm just on my first cycle post m/c where we can TTC. So I'm not even stressed about that, yet. However today I get back from lunch and MH says oh it looks like so and so is pregnant. I say, no way, they just got married like 6 months ago, and she was adament that she wanted to wait at least a year. I see her as I'm walking back to my desk and yep, definitely pregnant, and by the looks of it around where I would be...lovely, so here I am dealing with my post m/c AF (which by the way is a total biatch, if I didn't want children so badly, I'd try to stab my uterus) and just getting over a nasty 24 hour virus where I thought I would throw up my own stomach I was puking so much, and she's happily pregnant.
Luckily MH is wonderful and told me we could take sick leave for the rest of the day if I wanted to...blame it on my stomach virus. But I need to save my leave.
I know I shouldn't be jealous of another person's ability to have children, and I'm sure I'll be happy for her when the office throws her a shower. But I'm mid-pity party and still dealing with hospital bills from the m/c, so I just want to cry.
BFP #2 04/25/12 EDD 01/04/13(?) confirmed ectopic 05/16/12 6 wks 5 days 2 doses of MTX-Lost left tube on 05/25/12 Back to TTC, earlier than originally expected.
BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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Re: I think I may cry (pg mentioned)
That blows ((((hugs)))) Maybe you should take the rest of the day off and go for ice cream. Lots and lots of ice cream.
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this - the wine is key! {{hugs}}
There will be plenty of wine...but I gave up chocolate for Lent. Do you think God will forgive me if I break Lent this early?
Oh, and denial is my best friend. Luckily I work in a relatively big office and I telework every other day. I just need to get on the opposite telework schedule as her.
BFP #2 04/25/12 EDD 01/04/13(?) confirmed ectopic 05/16/12 6 wks 5 days 2 doses of MTX-Lost left tube on 05/25/12 Back to TTC, earlier than originally expected.
BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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Yuck, that sucks. I vote pity party with lots of wine also!
The first cycle was really hard on me too. I'm on my second cycle now, and I'm feeling a lot better. It will get better.
I have to constantly remind myself not to compare my situation with others. The fact of the matter is, pg women and babies seem to be everywhere after a m/c. Short of hiding out at home, we are going to be exposed and reminded of our losses. In the end, we will be stronger and more resilient, and I believe those will be invaluable traits when parenting.
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Chocolate Peanut Butter sounds amazing!!!!!
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BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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BFP #2 04/25/12 EDD 01/04/13(?) confirmed ectopic 05/16/12 6 wks 5 days 2 doses of MTX-Lost left tube on 05/25/12 Back to TTC, earlier than originally expected.
BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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