Update: Dear Man Upstairs... Please let me keep this baby.

Ash&Baby T · February 2012

Hi Ladies... I have no idea how to do normal updates or anything fancy on here, so I just copied and pasted for the sake of anyone who might have run into something similar.

But the update is this... I went to see my Dr. today (still spotting, but very dark and not nearly the amount that was gushing on Saturday night) and he did an u/s (baby girl was napping with her leg floating up by her head) counted out the heartbeat (154) and checked my cervix which is completely closed and Baby Girl is no where near it, relatively speaking.

He said that what happened to me as something along the lines of the end of my placenta moving away from the uterine wall and causing the bleed. He said that this is common in pregnancy, but is normally something that happens much earlier (8-10 weeks) but that it happening to me between 17-18 weeks has no meaning other than it just happened later. He said that it corrects itself and my placenta seems to have since reattached itself (so weird).

He did put me on pelvic rest for the next 3 weeks at least with emphasis on no funny business in the bedroom and absolutely no lifting anything heavier than my dog (15 lbs), oh and no exercising...So it looks like I'll have to scale back on my super stealthy ninja training.

I'm just relieved that this human of mine is still in there and growing, with no signs of making an exit anytime soon. Onward and upward.

Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers over the weekend when I was sure it was game over. Hope is an amazing thing. We both appreciate you all so much.

Original post-

I don't post a lot. Mainly because my phone is my primary form of lurking (for I am far too lazy to actually pull out the computer at home after being on one all day at work) and won't let me post like a normal person...

But I've been up for a whole day...Most of it was great, went to work, had dinner with my husband, went out to celebrate 2 dear friends' engagement...

And then it all went south. We got home at 11:30ish last night, I put on my pj's, did the night time thing (teeth brushing, face washing, staring very closely at my pores) and then I pee'd before getting into bed... And to the tune of my worst nightmare...I wiped and the TP was covered in blood...Not just a smidge, COVERED in bright, red, blood. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. It's not stopping.

My DH and I were in the car on the way to the ER in under 5 minutes...Fast forward to the ultra sound they ordered immediately...Baby's heartbeat is 150 (at previous appointments it has been 162 and 154) measuring 3 days ahead, so wiggly, yawning, stretching, dance partying away... And a girl, with the longest little ballerina legs I could only have imagined in my dreams...Everything I was hoping for...But not like this.

But where is the blood coming from??

Fast forward another 3 hours... Dr. does a pelvic, cervix is closed, ultrasound results look "so good" and the bloodwork looks good, and he "doesn't think" that I am miscarrying even though heavy bleeding in the 2nd trimester isn't "normal"...It's not "uncommon"...But you can't know these things "for sure"...But where is all the blood coming from? Why isn't it stopping? What is happening to my baby?

"I can't say for sure, I don't see anything, take it easy for the next couple of days, monitor the flow, call your OB on Monday, it should taper off...If it doesn't..."

I know that there is nothing that we can do at 17 weeks, "whatever is going to happen to the fetus is going to happen" But I don't understand...I don't understand how they can not know. I can't stand laying here, "restricting movement", terrified that it's the only thing that I can do. How can this be happening? I thought that this was the honeymoon trimester...I thought things were safe now.

I know this is rambling, and I apologize for the choppy composition, but if anyone has had this, or something similar to this...With no how or why's answered, I would so appreciate it. I am exhausted...Sleep doesn't seem to be an option now... Words of...Anything...

Thanks Ladies.

lynsimarie · February 2012

YAY! So happy your baby is healthy and everything will be okay!

kgauntt · February 2012

That sounds so scary! I'm so happy your baby girl is safe and doing well!

overtonhayes · February 2012

So, so happy and relieved for you. I'm glad everything is going well. I'd say you deserve the rest after what you've been through!

Medic99 · February 2012

Yay!! So glad you received good news!!

ashcart01 · February 2012

I'm so happy for you

Buona Fortuna · February 2012

I'm so happy you got good news. I'm sure you were scared out of your mind! Thank you for sharing your story and updating us. Seems like the man upstairs was listening.

lauren1204 · February 2012

How scary! I'm glad everything is okay.

xokell2 · February 2012

Great news! I was thinking about you! I too am a victim of so called "harmless" pregnancy bleeding that freaked me the out. Pregnancy scares are the worst. Hope you have smooth sailing for the rest of your pregnancy.

AprilAngie · February 2012

Thanks for the update- glad things are well

jrgoogrl · February 2012

Glad to hear everything is ok with you and baby girl!!!Try and rest and take it easy. T & P for some sailing the rest of your pregnancy!

RebeccaS6627 · February 2012

I'm so glad to hear that everything's going to be ok with you and LO. Thank you for the update. Keep us posted!

francisc · February 2012

that's so scary - what you went through! Im glad things turned out good and i hope the rest of your pregnancy goes well too...I hope everyone has a healthy pregnancy!

lizzybean · February 2012

I remember your original post and am so glad that everything worked out for you! I cant imagine how terrified you must have been! Take it easy for awhile and try to de-stress. Smile

oleksa312 · February 2012

Hi! I missed the original post but wanted to let you know that at 16.5 weeks with my first baby, I had the exact same thing happen. I still remember driving to the ER with my husband bleeding everywhere (sorry for that visual) and just knowing in my heart that I was losing our baby. Thank God I was wrong! Like you, I was given a really vague explanation of what happened and put on pelvic rest until my 20 week ultrasound. It was scary, scary, scary and I ended up bleeding for almost 6 weeks (the last couple of weeks were more like spotting but still required a pantiliner). The best news is that I carried to term - baby was born on due date - and gave birth to an incredibly healthy 9lb, 6oz baby boy who just celebrated 15 months. So blessed. Rest and take care of yourself and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!