Intro, hope to join you soon

   My husband and I have 3 children between us. We were actively trying to NOT get pregnant, but on December 15th we discovered an ectopic pregnancy that required emergency surgery. I was about 5 weeks pregnant, and was on the verge of rupturing. My left fallopian tube was removed, and thankfully everything else was healthy and the Dr said if we wanted to try again we could. Granted I only have one fallopian tube, so I?m sure it will be more difficult to get pregnant.

   Now here we are, 2 months out from our loss and we started talking about having a baby. My husband was originally dead set against having anymore kids (our Modern Day Brady Bunch is already chaotic) but now he wants a baby. I was originally very content with our controlled chaotic blended family, but now I want a baby. But oh my lord I?m terrified.

   What if I can?t get pregnant? What if I God forbid have another ectopic pregnancy and lose my last fallopian tube? I know there are plenty of people (all of you) who have successfully conceived after a loss and delivered healthy happy babies, so here I am lurking and trying to calm myself that it IS possible. We?re going to start trying within the next couple months, so hopefully I?ll be fully joining you lovely ladies