Pregnant after IF

Still scared I am jinxing it...

I went out and bought some maternity-specific clothing this weekend and even stopped into a baby store (gasp!) and looked at cribs and strollers. All I could think about when I was on my way home is that I need to check the heart beat with my doppler because I am so scared that doing all this baby-related shopping is going to jinx my pregnancy. This just sucks.

I am sure I am not alone in this feeling... 


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FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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Re: Still scared I am jinxing it...

  • You're not. I just push on through and try to focus on my excitement. I am DETERMINED to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy!  :)
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  • I know I'm not nearly as far along as you, but this is how I've felt every single day for the last week!  I bought a *gasp* pregnancy magazine over the weekend, and I immediately went home to pee on a stick, just to make sure I'm still pregnant (and of course I was).  Big Smile

     

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  • We are finishing up our nursery this week, and I can't help thinking how hard it would be to see that if something went wrong now.  But, I wanted to get it done when I still had the energy to do it, so I just keep pushing the bad thoughts away and moving forward as if everything will be ok. 

    I think there's always going to be something to worry about -- before they're born, you worry about something happening to them, after they're born, you worry about something happening to them ........  I guess it just comes with the territory. 


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  • You are so not alone.  Some days are better than others.  But thank goodness for the doppler - it helps keep me sane. 
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  • As someone who has had a past loss...there is nothing u can do to jinx it.  It's going to be what it is.  You could buy maternity clothes at 4 wks, and not jinx it.  You have a strong baby growing in there!
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  • I agree with you! We went into BRU this weekend and I kept thinking, "What if I lose the baby now?" We actually picked things out. It was hard to get excited, but I am determined, too!
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  • I definitely have days like this and I hate it. I try to remind myself that I'm thinking irrationally and that I should have faith that things will be fine. Sometimes I wish that I can fast forward time and have my baby in my arms to stop some of this anxiety, but that also means I'd be jipping myself of this experience. Ugh darn you IF and loss!
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  • i have a scheduled c-section in 3 days and I'm still worried.  It doesn't ever completely go away, you just learn to "deal" with it better.  After IF it is impossible for any of us to go back to that blindly happy pg place.  Many people told me this phrase when I was having the same worries, "Today I'm pregnant and I love my baby."

    I know it is hard for me to take my own advice sometimes, but I just have to keep saying that to myself to keep calm.

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  • You're not alone!  I'm so cautious in everything I do but I have DH in my ear constantly telling me to try and enjoy it.  Hopefully I will the further I go. 

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    Many people told me this phrase when I was having the same worries, "Today I'm pregnant and I love my baby."

     

    This is very good advice indeed. I am glad to have so much understanding support here, and at the same time I am a little sad that so many of us feel this way.  


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    3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)

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    FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

    FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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  • Definitely not alone! I keep telling myself I have no reason to think anything is wrong and to enjoy this....it's a daily struggle, but I'm trying hard! 
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  • It took me a long time to get over the "jinx" feeling everytime I bought something pregnancy or baby related. I remember buying What to Expect a few days after my BFP and being completely freaked out. Heck, I still feel it... I had my shower this weekend and I'm afraid to unpack everything!  It does get easier with time!
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  • It's good to know this feeling doesn't go away!   I'm not as far as you ladies and every day I wake up expecting to see bleeding.   I have bought a maternity book but that is about it.  I can't bring myself to buy anything else.
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