I went out and bought some maternity-specific clothing this weekend and even stopped into a baby store (gasp!) and looked at cribs and strollers. All I could think about when I was on my way home is that I need to check the heart beat with my doppler because I am so scared that doing all this baby-related shopping is going to jinx my pregnancy. This just sucks.
I am sure I am not alone in this feeling...

Re: Still scared I am jinxing it...
I know I'm not nearly as far along as you, but this is how I've felt every single day for the last week! I bought a *gasp* pregnancy magazine over the weekend, and I immediately went home to pee on a stick, just to make sure I'm still pregnant (and of course I was).
Me = lean PCOS;DH = poor morphology (3%)
3 IUI/TI cycles = BFN
IVF #1 with ICSI: antagonist protocol = BFFN
IVF #2 with ICSI : Lupron downregulation = BFFN...FML
IVF #3 with ICSI and AH (Antagonist) = IT'S A BOY!!!!
We are finishing up our nursery this week, and I can't help thinking how hard it would be to see that if something went wrong now. But, I wanted to get it done when I still had the energy to do it, so I just keep pushing the bad thoughts away and moving forward as if everything will be ok.
I think there's always going to be something to worry about -- before they're born, you worry about something happening to them, after they're born, you worry about something happening to them ........ I guess it just comes with the territory.
IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
beta #2 11/28 = 2055
Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
i have a scheduled c-section in 3 days and I'm still worried. It doesn't ever completely go away, you just learn to "deal" with it better. After IF it is impossible for any of us to go back to that blindly happy pg place. Many people told me this phrase when I was having the same worries, "Today I'm pregnant and I love my baby."
I know it is hard for me to take my own advice sometimes, but I just have to keep saying that to myself to keep calm.
~Lauren~


**SAIF always welcome.**
After 2+ years, 3 losses, 3 surgeries, 2 IVFs and 1 FET our little girl is here.
my read shelf:
Read in 2011: 56/55
Read in 2012: 31/30
Read in 2013: 1/25
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Trying for #1 since May 2010 l DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011
IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks
November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!
Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26
1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12
**TEAM GREEN!**
Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12
Trying for #2
FET #1 - October '13 - c/p l FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled
l FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN
~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~
Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14
**TEAM GREEN!**
Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14
This is very good advice indeed. I am glad to have so much understanding support here, and at the same time I am a little sad that so many of us feel this way.
IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)
DS born 07/29/12
FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN
FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs
3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN
Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!