Late Term and Child Loss

$hitty day (baby mentioned)

At work today my co-worker (who had her baby in Dec.) decided to show up unannounced.  My other co-workers were ooohing and ahhing all over the baby.  It was all I could do to keep it together and make it back to my office in one piece.  One of my friends/co-workers came into my office to talk to me about it and I vented to her for a little bit.  Then she told me that the co-worker and the baby had left but would be back a little bit later.  So I took that as my cue to take an early lunch.  I headed to the bank to deposit a check and it occurred to me that the check I was depositing was for the memorial t-shirts I purchased for my family to wear at my upcoming half-marathon.  I got so upset and angry that this women got to be there loving on and showing off her baby and her I was cashing a check for my dead baby.  

I headed over to a place that was having a blood drive and decided that because I was feeling awful that I would try to make myself feel better by doing something good.  Long story short, an hour later I got turned away because on my honeymoon this past summer I rode on a bus through an area in Malaysia where malaria is present.  Ugh.  I understand why they had to turn me away but it just felt like another slap.   

When I got back to the office about an hour later, what's the first thing I saw as I walked in?  The co-worker and her baby again.  I quickly turned around and headed downstairs to my friends office and proceeded to cry and vent and emote for the next 30 minutes.  Only because I had a meeting that I had to attend did I not run home and crawl under the covers.  

/vent/rant

Here's to hoping tomorrow is a better day.   

BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
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BFP  #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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Re: $hitty day (baby mentioned)

  • I'm sorry you had a bad day. Hugs!
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  • I am so sorry.  :(  I'm really glad that you have a good friend in the office who was available to vent to.  I hope tomorrow is better. ((hugs))
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  • I am so sorry, huge huge hugs.
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  • imagelittlepenguin2012:
    I am so sorry.  :(  I'm really glad that you have a good friend in the office who was available to vent to.  I hope tomorrow is better. ((hugs))

    This. Big hugs! 

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  • I'm so sorry hugs to you!!
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  • I'm sorry it's been a difficult day :(  Hoping the weekend is kinder to you!
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  • Sorry about your bad day, I found out my friend is pregnant the day I came back to work, I'm happy for her but also feel sad and weird :-(
  • I'm really sorry you had such a bad day today. It's nice you have someone you could talk to at work.
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  • Big (((HUGS)))
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  • How awful! Sad  I really hope today was better and that the weekend is too.
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  • I am sorry. I hope today is a better day. That is a lot to deal with.
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