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I'm pushing through today... okay

tashpedetashpede member
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I've been trying to stay really positive here lately, and have had less bad days and more good ones. But today, I'm struggling. Today was my EDD. It's been a rough morning and it seems to just be getting slower. I'm doing better than I thought I would, but not great. I am longing so bad to meet the baby tht I lost and hold them in my arms today.

I am just very sad. 

 

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  • VikingQueenVikingQueen member

    ((huge hugs))

    EDD's are always hard. Take some time to yourself today sweetie. <3 ya

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  • bsn1752bsn1752 member

    ((hugs))

    I'm so sorry.  I hope your day goes well and you find comfort.

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  • lizmitchell15lizmitchell15
    ((Hugs)) These days are always hard.
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  • ConnieRobConnieRob member

    (((HUGS)))

    I am so sorry. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

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  • bluebonnetmegbluebonnetmeg member
    imageVikingQueen:

    ((huge hugs))

    EDD's are always hard. Take some time to yourself today sweetie. <3 ya

    This. I got a massage on mine and had a nice quiet dinner out with DH. ((hugs)) I will be thinking about you today. 

    BFP#1 12/18/10 EDD 8/28/11 | 2/14/11 discovered that our baby girl had anencephaly D&C 2/17/11 at 12.5 weeks | no O or AF post loss - Dx: AO + mild PCOS = secondary infertility Provera after 70 days = AF but no O | Provera + 50mg Clomid after 110 days = AF but no O 3 rounds of 100mg Clomid + Estrogen + Progesterone = mixed O results, all BFN hysteroscopy 1/6/12 - removed fibroid tissue injection cycle #1 - 75 IU follistim + ovidrel (triggered 2/9/12) + endometrin = BFP! EDD 11/3/12 | Beta @ 13dpo = 184, 17dpo = 993, 26dpo = >5000 IT'S TWIN BOYS!! Tommy and Charlie arrived on 9/10/12 after less than 6 hours of labor at 32 weeks Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
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  • KacyChicagoKacyChicago member

    Sorry to hear that you're sad ... I know that you're going through so much at the moment.

    I already dread my EDD, so I know that I will be looking for support that day ... So I hope someone says some magic words that make you feel better today. Just know how sorry I am that you're not holding him/her in your arms.

    Instead of focusing today on what could have been rejoice in what is: Your husband's surgery went well, your ovaries look great, and hopefully soon you'll make another baby.

    Thinking about you.

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    We lost our first (EDD 07/23/12) after finding out at 12 weeks there was no longer a heartbeat. Our rainbow was born 05/22/13 and was worth all we went through.

    “So can you understand? Why I want a daughter while I’m still young? I wanna hold her hand and show her some beauty before all this damage is done. But if it’s too much to ask, it’s too much to ask … Then send me a son.” – Arcade Fire
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  • OCIrishBruinOCIrishBruin
    (((hugs))) I hope you have some time to do something special for yourself today.
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  • aussiedazeaussiedaze member
    ((Huge hugs))  I am so sorry you're having a rough day.  I hope you can follow pp suggestions and do something nice for yourself.  Your angel baby would want that for you.  :)

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    BFP #2: 4/4/2012 ** EDD:  12/24/12 ** Born: Charlotte "Charlie" Olivia   12/18/2013, 8 lbs 1 oz, 21 inches!!!  


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  • kiki4kiki4 member
    I'm so sorry. ((HUGS))
    BFP 1/19/12 No heartbeat at 7w4d 3rd dose Cytotec 3/1/12
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  • smcjmk09smcjmk09 member
    Sending hugs because a few more never hurt :). Hang in there.
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  • sammer818sammer818 member
    *HUGS* EDD are just about the hardest day to get through, but you'll make it through today....I promise.

    TTC since April 2010
    BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
    BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
    Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
    BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
    Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
    BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
    BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
    No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
    June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
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  • minicheezburgminicheezburg member
    imageVikingQueen:

    ((huge hugs))

    EDD's are always hard. Take some time to yourself today sweetie. <3 ya

    Agreed! Maybe if DH is up for it you guys can have a nice little dinner date.

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    TTC for #1 since Jan 2010
    BFP #1 Oct 1 2010 MC Oct 3 2010
    DX PCOS w/ AO Nov 2011
    3 rounds of Clomid all BFN
    BFP #2 10/12/12 Beta #1 45.1 Beta #2 160.7 * 2/27 diagnosed with IEF in utero.
    Dalaney born @ 35w2d via emergency C-section due to Pre-E after 30 hrs of labor & losing her HB twice. She weighed 5lbs 8oz & was 19in long on May 26th 2013 @ 605am

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  • orangegogglesorangegoggles member
    (((Hugs)))
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    BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
    BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
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  • misstrish521misstrish521 member
    ((hugs))
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  • BarooGirlBarooGirl member
    Tash, I am so sorry. I am thinking of you on this hard day. ((hugs))

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    BFP #2- 9/11/11 ~EDD 5/25/12 ~M/C (mmc10w)11/4/11 @ 11wks ~Missing my May Flower

    BFP #3- 02/21/12 ~EDD 11/1/12  Audrey Lee Born 11/4/2012

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  • ella.mabelella.mabel member

    EDD's suck because people in real life don't understand.  It's such a silent suffering, which seems to make everything so much worse.  Big hugs to you.  You'll be in my thoughts on this difficult day.

     

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  • mijakachmijakach member
    Milestones suck. I'm so sorry today is so difficult for you. ((Hugs))
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    BFP #2 ~ EDD 11.15.2012 ~ CP 3.7.2012
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  • FreyaWin2382FreyaWin2382 member

    I am so so sorry. I wish I could say something that would make it better, but all I can tell you is that IT SUCKS that this happened and that we are here for you.

    (((HUGS))) 

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  • Allycat11Allycat11 member
    ((hugs))  I am praying extra hard for you guys today.
    11/2010 Diagnosed with PCOS 
    10/31/11 M/C at 9 weeks
    1/12/13 DD was born
    4/9/16 DS was born 
    9/17 CP 
    6/23/18 BFP EDD 3/4/19 

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  • foxxy1foxxy1 member

    HUGE HUGS to you.

    Just focus on yourself today. Don't push it.

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  • Krissy2388Krissy2388
    Lots & Lots of ((HUGS))! The overload of the last few days has been stressful for you on top of the painful thoughts today brings & I am so sorry! I will be thinking of you today hun!
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  • jinxycat24jinxycat24

    Huge (((hugs)))

    I wish there was something I could do to take that heartache away but know we are thinking about you and sending you T&P's.

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  • chop2428chop2428 member
    I'm so sorry Tash, ((HUGS))
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    (((HUGS)))
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    ((big hugs)) to you love!
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    Big (((HUGS)))
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
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    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • delinodelino member
    EDD's are tough.  I'm sorry you are here.  I'm sorry you've had to face what you have. 
    3 ectopic pregnancies (EDD's 1/30/12-tube removed, 6/2/12-methotrexate and 10/2/12-methotrexate)
    IVF and Natural FET resulted in BFN's and a hole in our wallets
    Natural BFP #4 on 9/7/12 gave us our miracle on 5/18/13
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  • karenczkarencz member
    I know it's hard when the bad days sneak in like that. I'm sorry that today is one of them. :(

    Baby #3 is on the way! EDD  3/8/15
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  • bananersbananers member
    ((huge hugs))
    BFP #1 10/6/11 | EDD 6/15/12 | MMC 11/7/11 @ 8w3d | D&C 11/14/11

    BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13

    BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15

    BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d

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  • thatlauragirlthatlauragirl member
    ((hugs)) Milestones are so hard.
    Me: 38 l DH: 41
    Gavin - 8/27/10
    *TW*
    Gabriel - 2nd tri loss 5/17/16 Trisomy 18 & 21
    Hope -  2nd tri loss 12/7/16 complications from pneumonia


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  • tashpedetashpede member
    Thank you ladies so much. I don't know what I would do without this outpouring of support sometimes.
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  • rrouse131rrouse131
    I'm so sorry ... ((hugs))
    TTC Since December 2009 BFP #1 Jan 2010, expected due date 10/24/10 - missed m/c and D&C 3/31/10 BFP #2 Aug 2010, expected due date 05/15/11 - natural m/c 10/13/10 After 2nd m/c - was told to wait a minimum of 6 months before TTC again. After great debate and much anxiety, we are ready to try again. Daisypath Anniversary tickers
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  • ChloBubChloBub member
    Coming in late with the ((((HUGS)))), but I'm so sorry today isn't what it should be. Take the time you need to be sad. We are here for you.
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