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ChevTrucksr4Grls
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Lost my little boy...
ChevTrucksr4Grls
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I'm very new to this board... my husband and I tried for a year on our own, did 2 years of IVF - we had one ectopic... the very next ivf round we got pregnant with our twins - it was amazing. One twin was always measuring smaller.. and passed away at 9.5 weeks. I had four times that I hemmorhaged - but I never passed the deceased baby - he remained the entire pregnancy. The other baby did wonderful... he thrived... Well, at 10pm on Wednesday February 15th - I woke up - went to the bathroom - and my water broke. I was 18 weeks pregnant. We got to the hospital and our little boy was still alive - but the sac was ruptured... we either had to have a dne or be induced and deliver our baby too soon - the night was doomed. We decided to wait a few hours in hopes that there were any chance in the fluid being replaced - in that time - my husband felt his son move in my womb for the very first time... about a half hour after that - I knew something was different. We looked at ultrasound and our little man had passed away. I then chose to be induced. The first doctor and nurse I had - sucked... they tried a morphine drip which was doing nothing for pain except causing me to vomit. The next doctor who came in.. and nurse (they were all changing shifts) were wonderful. I had an epidural - and after 4 hours of being induced- I delivers my little boy in a matter of minutes. Hudson Edward was born 7inches long and 8.5ounces. He was beautiful. He has his daddy's long toes, his hands, and definitely his daddy's nose. He had my lips.... and a certain expression on his face that my husband tells me I get when I am sleeping. I love that little boy.
I know time is the only thing that will help heal me... but the question will always remain as to why my water broke. The placenta was sent for testing - and I wonder if there was some type of infection ... I also wonder if I will ever have a live baby... all these questions I guess no one could answer.
That's my story... thank you for reading... I hope I can manage to mentally be better some day.
~Heather~ TTC Since 12/2009
Septated uterus, pcos (on metformin), MTHFR
Clomid # 1- July 2010 = BFN / #2 Sept 2010= BFN
IVF#1 - 1/2011 = BFN (Severe AF started 7dpo)
IVF#2 - 3/2011 = Ectopic
Aug 2011- FE - Thaw all - cancelled - embryos didn't make it!
Oct 2011 - IVF#3 = BFP!! ~ TWINS!!
Said goodbye to Twin B @ 9w5d
Hudson Edward ~ Pprom 18 wks 2/16/12 - We love you forever. You have our hearts.
8/15/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 7wks gestation
11/9/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 5wks gestation
12/28/12 - Septated Uterus Found (was misdiagnosed as bicornuate!)
Septated uterus, pcos (on metformin), MTHFR
Clomid # 1- July 2010 = BFN / #2 Sept 2010= BFN
IVF#1 - 1/2011 = BFN (Severe AF started 7dpo)
IVF#2 - 3/2011 = Ectopic
Aug 2011- FE - Thaw all - cancelled - embryos didn't make it!
Oct 2011 - IVF#3 = BFP!! ~ TWINS!!
Said goodbye to Twin B @ 9w5d
Hudson Edward ~ Pprom 18 wks 2/16/12 - We love you forever. You have our hearts.
8/15/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 7wks gestation
11/9/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 5wks gestation
12/28/12 - Septated Uterus Found (was misdiagnosed as bicornuate!)
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Re: Lost my little boy...
Started fertility treatments 11/2010
Ovarian dysfunction, LPD, male factor
6 failed medicated IUI's
Pregnant 5/2011 - Miscarriage at 6 weeks due to triploidy
Decided to adopt - 6/2012
SURPRISE! Pregnant without intervention - 7/2012
Sweet Baby James Born 3/2013
Decided to be "One and Done"
....OR NOT.
Pregnant 12/2018 despite birth control pills
Here we go again...
Due 8/26/19!
Thank you so much.. I think after I delivered him I kept saying F--K whoever did this to me .. whoever is watching or supposed to be watching me and let this happy... though I know its no ones fault ... but I just wish I knew what really happened
Septated uterus, pcos (on metformin), MTHFR
Clomid # 1- July 2010 = BFN / #2 Sept 2010= BFN
IVF#1 - 1/2011 = BFN (Severe AF started 7dpo)
IVF#2 - 3/2011 = Ectopic
Aug 2011- FE - Thaw all - cancelled - embryos didn't make it!
Oct 2011 - IVF#3 = BFP!! ~ TWINS!!
Said goodbye to Twin B @ 9w5d
Hudson Edward ~ Pprom 18 wks 2/16/12 - We love you forever. You have our hearts.
8/15/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 7wks gestation
11/9/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 5wks gestation
12/28/12 - Septated Uterus Found (was misdiagnosed as bicornuate!)
I found it to be a cruel joke to finally be able to experience the joy of pregnancy, only to lose my son. I blamed God for a very, very, very long time. I still do sometimes.
Started fertility treatments 11/2010
Ovarian dysfunction, LPD, male factor
6 failed medicated IUI's
Pregnant 5/2011 - Miscarriage at 6 weeks due to triploidy
Decided to adopt - 6/2012
SURPRISE! Pregnant without intervention - 7/2012
Sweet Baby James Born 3/2013
Decided to be "One and Done"
....OR NOT.
Pregnant 12/2018 despite birth control pills
Here we go again...
Due 8/26/19!
DD1 born 5/24/10.
Missed M/C at 14 wks Feb 2012.
DD2 born 5/14/13.
Missed M/C at 9 wks July 2015.
*PGAL/PAL Welcome*
My Ovulation Chart
Big, big ((HUGS)).
I am so, so sorry.
BFP #2 12/26/11 ~ EDD 9/6/12 ~ MMC discovered on 1/27/12 @ 8w1d (measured 6w2d)
BFP #3 8/10/12 ~ EDD 4/23/13 ~ MMC discovered on 9/13/12 @ 8w2d (measured 6w6d)
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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2/13/12 Partial Molar Pregnancy diagnosed
Forced break for two cycles
TTC June 2012
BFP #3: 01/28/12, EDD: 09/23/12, MMC (BO), D&C 2/16/12 at 6.5 wks
BFP #4: 05/23/12, EDD: 01/31/12, Early MC at 5 wks
RPL Workup: + LPD (7DPO Prog = 7.8, Endometrial Bx = out of phase)
Elevated Alpha 2-glycoprotein IgA and antiphosphatidylserine IgM -->
Hematologist said not to worry and no need for treatment!
Dx: LPD
Cycle #1(08/2012): Clomid 50 mg CD3-7, Ovidrel CD13 + Progesterone = It worked!
BFP #5 on 09/10/12 (11 DPO). HCG #1 @ 14DPO = 131.6 HCG #2 @ 16DPO = 509
EDD: 05/23/2013
Me 41 DH 46 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. TTC #2 **5th cycle 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy is due 04/28/13!!
BFP #5: 3/25/2015: EDD: 12/8/2015.
I am so very sorry for your loss. No words can make you feel better, atleast they dont really help for me. I too lost my baby at 18wks and had to deliver. I had no signs that anything was wrong, accept I had a gut feeling I had lost my baby and I was right. It will be a month on Monday since I delivered. Ive had my ups and down. We had a funeral service for our Daughter this past monday. it was beautiful.
Im new to this board ( mostly use TheBump Iphone app) but if you ever want to talk or vent or whatever, you can always IM me.
Take care of yourself, and again im very sorry for all that you have been through.
I'm new here too, and suffered a similar situation. I stopped emails from The Bump for a few weeks and logged on today to see that my son would've been the size of a papaya and that I SHOULD be 22 weeks. That felt like a punch to the gut. We lost our first a little over three weeks ago at 19 weeks. It was completely unexpected. We had an ultrasound 2 weeks before and he was perfect. I went to a checkup--and wouldn't you know this was the first appointment I went to alone since it was supposed to be a quick, in and out appointment. My husband has been so devastated that he wasn't there. There was nothing he could do though. There was simply no heartbeat. I had to be induced the next day. Talk about unfair.
So I definitely know what you're going through. I hate Facebook lately. So many of my friends are pregnant or just had a baby. Some of them aren't too excited or take it for granted, didn't want a baby or complain about feeling bad, etc. It's all I can do to stay quiet when I want to tell them how much I'd give to trade places with them.
I live in the Charlotte, NC area, and my doctors, hospital staff and nurses were amazing. My doctor called me last week to check in and talked to me for 15 minutes my delivery nurse even stopped by to see me last week and brought me and my husband cupcakes. Those things don't make it better, but I guess calm a bit of my intense anger at life in general lately. Anyway, in my area there are lots of resources for folks in our situation. My husband and I have gone to a couple grief counseling sessions (one on one. A group would not be good for me...nor I for the group at this point) with KinderMourn. If you have anything like that where you are I would highly recommend it. We're not typically counseling type people, but it has really helped. As much as anything can.
Hang in there. And know you're not alone. I'm so so sorry this happened.