Already a bad day. :(

dandywarhol · February 2012

It is only 8:15am and I'm already having a bad day. Hubby and I have been fighting/avoiding each other since yesterday morning. He's mad at me for something one of the cats did and I'm mad at him for the way he handled it. It came to a mini-head this morning and ended with me crying and saying, "I can't do this now. I have to go to work." So now I'm shut in my office, my eyes brimming with tears.

I log onto FB and of course there's a post from a friend from high school who just had a baby. Which brings up pangs of jealousy (I've had jealousy issues with this person from all the way back in high school). Then at almost the same time a song comes on the radio that I haven't heard in years that has direct memories tied to this same girl. Ahhh! WTH????

To add to the vent, yesterday before a meeting I was talking to a co-worker/friend about how I'm struggling with emotions related to TTCAL and she's been wonderfully supportive and sympathetic through this entire thing. After the meeting we walk into my boss's office and she and my boss start talking about my boss's son who was born full-term and healthy as can be 2 weeks before Sylvie. Hello? I'm in the room. Hearing about chubby baby cheeks doesn't help with the raw emotions related to TTCAL.

I want to go home and crawl into bed but I can't because Hubby is there and I'm mad at him.

Heatherhah · February 2012

I am so sorry you are going through all of this at one time. It is stressful enough to be going through the loss of a child then the other stress of life rally makes our loss more pronounced. I am here for you my friend. I am only an email away if you would like to vent. Hugs for you this morning!!!!

fluttergirlmoonchild79 · February 2012

Aww, sweetie. I'm so sorry you're having such a bad day. I swear, bad days are 10 times worse when our DH's contribute to the issue. You'd think they, of all people, would know how to handle us but sadly they don't. We're here for you if you need to vent. {{HUGS}}

krysiahamaty · February 2012

I am so sorry you're having a bad day. I hope things start getting better. Or as better as they can. :-/

Hugs.

dandywarhol · February 2012

Thanks, ladies. The weather is grey and dreary, I'm stressed at work and home, and I'm struggling with a project at work. Bah. I want my kittens, rainbows, and unicorns.

beck2624 · February 2012

Sorry your having a bad day! I hope it gets better!!

foxxy1 · February 2012

When it rains, it pours sometimes...

Just giving you huge, huge, ****HUGS****

weddedwife · February 2012

The bad days are so much harder to handle after a loss! I hope your day gets better. Could you maybe take a walk at lunch or something?

JessicaRobb · February 2012

((hugs))

olp79 · February 2012

Hi, I'm having a bad day too :-( and will be going back to the office tomorrow, I'm pretty sure the same thing will happen to me. I went to Ikea today and almost broke down when passing by the children's section. Looking at the cribs made me more sad, then we went to eat and I saw so many children around me. It made me feel even worse, to end my day, I went with my sister to pick up my nieces from school. It's been such a bad day that I decided to come back home to be alone. I hope you feel better, hugs.