Late Term and Child Loss

Triggers (living children mentioned)

This seems so ridiculous, but I guess it just shows that you never heal from a loss of a child. 

 I was going through DDs clothes from 12-24 months trying to figure out what I going to hold on to, and what I was going to donate. I got so emotional. Of course because I couldn't believe how little she was just 2 years ago, but more than anything I remember her wearing all that clothes while I was pregnant with Gabriel. I broke down because it took me back to when I was pregnant, and the months following his death. It was a suffocating feeling. I couldn't believe clothes was doing that to me. I felt like that clothes were a part of Gabe too. Needless to say, I decided I wasn't ready to part with any of the clothes.  

Andrea 7/9/08, Joaquin 4/18/11, boy coming 12/18/13 Forever missed: Gabriel 11/24/09 at 20 weeks

Re: Triggers (living children mentioned)

  • Hugs. I'm sorry. I wish we didn't have those triggers.
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  • I'm sorry, triggers are really hard to deal with.  I hope one day when my heart has healed some I will see a trigger that will remind me of my love for him or time with him and it will make me smile.
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  • (((HUGS))).  I don't think that sounds ridiculous at all.
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  • Going through my DD's clothes would definitely make me break down too! We didn't know Nathaniel's sex until we lost him, so he wouldn't have ended up wearing most of them anyway. But I had had it in the back of my mind that at some point we'd have to go through the boxes and find the unisex stuff "just in case". There's no way I can touch those boxes until we have another baby in the house.
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