Introduction - Been lurking for a few days
beck2624
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I had been posting in the May/June board during my pregnancy but unfortunately I am now a member of the loss board.
My husband and I were so excited to be due in June with our first baby together. I have a little girl who will be 5 in April from a previous relationship. We had a reveal party at the beginning of January and found out we were having another little girl.
My blood pressure had been high starting at the beginning of December and they thought they could control it with blood pressure medication. Unfortunately, they were unable to control it at all. I ended up in the hosptial on January 20th at 22 weeks pregnant. They diagnosed me with severe pre-ecamplsia and they kept me there for a few days. I was put on strict left side bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. I had a check up on Wednesday the 25th and things looked like they were remaining stable. On Thursday the 26th I ended up with severe pain in my right side underneath my ribs. My husband took me to the hospital and long story short they ended up needing to air-lift me to a larger hospital that would be able to take better care lf me.
They did an ultrasound at the new hospital and it showed that she had not grown in the last 3 weeks. She was closer to a 20 week baby instead of a 23 week baby. They ended up inducing labor due to HELLP syndrom which had caused my liver and kidneys to fail and my blood pressure was at a level that should have caused a stroke.,
Emery was born on Friday evening, 24 hours after I had first arrived at the first hospital and only made it a few minutes before passing away.
This board has been a place where I feel like I can come and someone actually understands what is going on. I have been asked so many times if we are going to have more kids anytime soon and I just feel that I can even think of the idea. I can't even go into our office which was going to be turned into the nursey with out losing my mind.
Re: Introduction - Been lurking for a few days
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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I am so so sorry for the loss of your precious Emery. I hope you find support and friendship here.
Don't rush yourself through the grief. I don't know why people think that talking to a loss mom about immediately having a new baby would make her feel better.
Big hugs!
Welcome to the board and I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet Emery. The ladies on the board are very supportive and I couldn't ask for a better group of girls.
***HUGS***
I love the name Emery. I am so sorry for your loss. We are here for you. It took me a while before I could go into our office too. If its any consolation, I can now go in there without dwelling on its intended use.
I am sorry you had such a scary time there in dec/jan. I am glad you came out of it alright. Talk to us anytime you need us.
EDD 3/12/2013, natural miscarriage on 7/18/12 @6w2d
EDD 8/01/2013, D&C scheduled for 12/31/12 @9w4d
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If you were in my shoes, you'd fall the first step."
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I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Emery. Welcome to the board that no one wants to be on. The ladies here are wonderful. We are all here for you.
Hugs,
Jenn
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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Our baby boy,Logan, was born still at 19w3d on 7/1/2011
Our 2nd baby boy, Mason, was born still at 20w3d on 1/31/2012
After a much needed sanity break... we are praying for our rainbows
((BFP 7/29/13)) ((EDD 4/12/14)) It's BOY/GIRL twins!!!
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I hope you are able to find some comfort here, the ladies on this board have been absolutely wonderful and truly get what I am going through.
I also have an older child. DD is only 2.5 but she has been my rock and my reason for getting up each morning.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
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BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12