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I like to torture myself

Gizu92708Gizu92708 member
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I've been lurking at my bmb and they are all about 30 some weeks pregnant and some are even starting to have their babies. Why do I keep lurking here? Why am I such a masochist (sp*). I can't believe they are having their babies and I buried mine 1 month and a half ago. Ugh!!! Why was I the one to have to go through a still birth. Why are they all getting there babies and I'm not. I still don't get it and probably never will. And I need to stop going to that board . It's gonna drive me crazy. I'm so sad.
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  • HeatherhahHeatherhah member

    I have only gone on my BMB once and it killed me so I vowed never to go on there again. I saw the moms all complaining about not sleeping and fussy babies and I wanted to get on there and tell them to shut up and suck it up it could always be worse. It sucks that this is our life now we are no longer the innocent who have no clue about Still birth. I am so sorry you are going through this but know that you aren't alone as I tell everyone on this board we are all feeling the same heartbreak. I question why all the time. It isn't fair at all!!!

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  • LuckEinLuvLuckEinLuv member
    I am currently in my birth month.  Stupid me went on the other day and was bombarded (not unexpectedly) with birth stories.  There were some women on there that I was really rooting for (awful diagnoses that they are hoping are not too bad) so I wanted to check in.  Ugh!  It was so hard!!
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  • foxxy1foxxy1 member
    I went on my BMB a couple times to let the girls know how I'm doing but I really don't visit there too often. I do like to check in every other month or so. I probably won't visit in April, though. That'll be too hard.
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  • MandynStephenMandynStephen member
    I refuse to go there!  Not a good idea.  (((hugs)))
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  • may2806may2806 member
    I go there too. I don't know why, I guess I'm a glutton for punishment. It's really not healthy but I do it anyway.
    Dx: High FSH, stage IV endo, homozygous C677T MTHFR and PAI-1
    Early loss 10/08
    Lap 1/09
    IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
    Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
    Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
    IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
    IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
    IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
    One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
    DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
    DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
    10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
    DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
    2 frosties but don't know what's next
    FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
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  • Petunia844Petunia844 member
    Big huge hugs, the why's are so impossible.
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  • nuttycoconutnuttycoconut member
    Wow I can't even bring myself to look at the April board. Going on FB is punishment enough!  I have a coworker who was 2 weeks behind me and I can barely look at her. I wish she wasn't so darn nice...
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  • Auki13Auki13 member

    I went on there a couple of times and it hurt so much that I made myself a promise that I wouldn't go back.  Like PP said, it makes me so mad seeing the moms complain about things I would give my life for! (a fussy baby, lack of sleep, etc...)  I just can't do it to myself anymore.

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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member
    I torture myself too, in other ways. I go on fb knowing full well that even though I've blocked all the ppl who are either pg or have newborns, I might be surprised. I often am.
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