Wednesday was my first day back at work and I feel like my heart has been ripped out. I'm having a really, really hard time leaving my baby at daycare everyday. It's hard enough leaving DD#1, but at least I know that she enjoys going to school and she's getting a lot out of it. But my baby...I'm pretty sure my co-workers must think I've gone crazy because I just cannot contain my emotions. I really thought having gone through this once before, I would be prepared and better able handle leaving my baby. It's been so much harder this time around. It doesn't help that our commute home the past two days have been so
shitty--really bad traffic with a baby who cries all the way home.
Breaks my heart. The teachers in that class are so nice and they already really love my little girl, but I want to be the one who gets to be with her all day. There's just not enough time in our evenings for me to love on both my girls to make up for having to be away from them all day. I feel like they are both getting the shaft because I have to work, and that makes me feel terrible.
Moms of two in daycare, did you find it to be harder the second time around too or I'm I the only weirdo around here? I don't remember having this sense of desperation or helplessness the first time around. Thanks for letting me vent.
Re: Struggling :(
I found it 1000x harder the second time around.
Maybe 1000000x harder.
I'm sorry. I know how much it sucks.
It sounds like you're in good company, Duckie. I'm sorry you're having a hard time.
I'm so sorry.
((hugs))
My situation was different obviously since I WFH (and he was at home with me) but someone else was caring for him and it KILLED me. It took a long while for me to get over it but when I finally did I rebounded back with a vengeance.
It was hard for me to admit out loud, but it was for some reason INFINITELY harder for me to go back to work the 2nd time around.
You're not weird at all. I chalk it up to the fact that with the first child, there always seemed to be more time and definitely more focus with 2 parents on 1 child, but with the second, you somehow feel like they're always getting the shaft.
(((HUGS)))