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1st EDD is tomorrow and I THINK I will be ok

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Tomorrow, January 30th is the EDD for my first pregnancy.  I am dumbfounded that the day is actually here.  We have been through so much since June that I don't know where the time went.  Of course I am saddened that I don't have my LO and I think of him/her every.single.day.  My DH doesn't acknowledge what tomorrow is, not because he is heartless but quite the opposite...that is how he copes.  So I will not mention it tomorrow.  I will be going about my day...going to work and moving forward.  I hope that doesn't make me sound like a bad person.

In my sadness I am trying to find hope.  I am focusing on the endless possibilities that our future holds.  I am not giving myself a deadline or a timeline.  I am trying to hold it together, to keep my chin up and keep moving.  I can very easily sit here and cry at the drop of a hat, but I have had enough tears.  So off I go to try to find my happy ending and my rainbow baby. 

3 ectopic pregnancies (EDD's 1/30/12-tube removed, 6/2/12-methotrexate and 10/2/12-methotrexate)
IVF and Natural FET resulted in BFN's and a hole in our wallets
Natural BFP #4 on 9/7/12 gave us our miracle on 5/18/13
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  • morkmork member
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  • ecmleoecmleo
    (((HUGS)))  I will be thinking of you!!!
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    (((hugs)))
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  • skye83skye83 member
    (((big hugs)))
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  • bluebonnetmegbluebonnetmeg member
    ((hugs)) It is great that you are so positive. I hope the day goes quickly for you.
    BFP#1 12/18/10 EDD 8/28/11 | 2/14/11 discovered that our baby girl had anencephaly D&C 2/17/11 at 12.5 weeks | no O or AF post loss - Dx: AO + mild PCOS = secondary infertility Provera after 70 days = AF but no O | Provera + 50mg Clomid after 110 days = AF but no O 3 rounds of 100mg Clomid + Estrogen + Progesterone = mixed O results, all BFN hysteroscopy 1/6/12 - removed fibroid tissue injection cycle #1 - 75 IU follistim + ovidrel (triggered 2/9/12) + endometrin = BFP! EDD 11/3/12 | Beta @ 13dpo = 184, 17dpo = 993, 26dpo = >5000 IT'S TWIN BOYS!! Tommy and Charlie arrived on 9/10/12 after less than 6 hours of labor at 32 weeks Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
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  • amazing22324amazing22324 member
    (((Hugs))) I hope tomorrow goes quickly for you as well!  That is definetly one of the days I am dreading most, I hope by July, I will have an inner peace and just like you be "ok"!  I love your positive outlook, it is truly inspiring! :)
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  • Malka7997Malka7997
    (((HUGS))) T&P that tomorrow goes quickly for you.
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    ((hugs)) 
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  • DeethebeeDeethebee
    Most people say the anticipation of the event is worse than the actual day...I hope the same goes for you (((hugs)))
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  • RedRose84RedRose84
    You have a wonderful attitude and are such a strong woman.  **Hugs**
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  • jinxycat24jinxycat24

    Big (((hugs))). I think you have an amazingly positive attitude. I hope all goes well for you tomorrow.

    We"ll be here if you need anything. 

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  • buckeyebaby814buckeyebaby814 member

    Big ::HUGS::

    My husband is the same way (for the same reason).  We're here for you. 


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  • chop2428chop2428 member
    Keep holding onto that hope, it will help you get through the day. ((hugs))
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  • cg0112358cg0112358 member
    ((BIG HUGS))
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  • Manderlin923Manderlin923 member
    ((HUGS)) I am so glad you are looking forward and thinking positively.
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  • amidkiffamidkiff member
    ((Hugs)) I hope you find your happy ending and get your rainbow baby! I think it's great that you are having such a positive out look!
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  • katharine25katharine25 member
    ((( hugs))) 
    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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  • ChloBubChloBub member
    HUGE (((HUGS))), delino. I'm so sorry the day isn't what it should be for you.
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  • ashpink25ashpink25 member
    Huge ((hugs)). I will be thinking of you tomorrow. I hope and pray that you get your beautiful rainbow baby soon!
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    Married my best friend in May 2009
    Started TTC our first since May 2010
    1st BFP: 8/18/2011.....EDD 4/25/2012
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  • gina78gina78
    ((HUGS))  I'm sure you're going to be ok.  Today is my EDD and even I'm surprised at how well I'm handling it, especially considering this is my 2nd EDD.  Both times I had hoped to pg by the time they approached but, never happened.  You sound like a strong girl and good for you for not putting timelines on anything.  You're time WILL come and you'll appreciate it that much more!
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  • babyquestnortheastbabyquestnortheast member
    You're not a bad person. You have been through a lot lately! ((hugs))
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  • LEP424LEP424 member
    ((Hugs)) Thinking of you!
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  • mikeANDjen448mikeANDjen448 member
    I'm so sorry.  big (((hugs))).  You will be in my T&P's tomorrow.

    TTC #1 since 5/2010 dx: annovulatory 

    RLP: 2/2012: normal HSG 3/2012: normal

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  • ktsnshnktsnshn
    ((Big Hugs)) I will be thinking of you tomorrow. For me, the days leading up to my EDD were worse than the actual day. I hope your day goes smoothly tomorrow.
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  • butterfly843butterfly843
    ((hugs))

    Jenn

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    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

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