Pregnant after IF

What's your 'irrational' worry?

Good morning ladies,

We all took a while to get here. I'm wondering if everyone else is like me.  I'm almost 18 weeks and still worrying about everything (I probably will until I have a healthy, happy baby in my arms!).

I'm wondering, what's everyone's personal fear/worry at this point in your pregnancy? (Irrational or not)

Mine: I've been having an abundance of watery CM for the last two weeks, maybe even more.  I've discussed it with my GP and he's not overly worried.  I check little Gollum with the doppler daily to reassure myself, everything seems fine.  Still, I have a constant fear that I'm leaking amniotic fluid, however unlikely. Thanks goodness my A/S is on Monday, or I'd go crazy!

TTC since August 2009
June/July 2011 - IVF #1 - Transfer cancelled due to OHSS
23 perfect embryos. All 23 made it to freezing!
September/October - FET #1 - October 12th - 2 Grade A embies
October 20th - BFP??! EDD - July 1, 2012
Beta #1 = 154, Beta #2 = 352 Beta #3 = 3,800
U/S #2 - November 14th = 133 bpm! U/S #3 & 4 - November 30th and December 7th = 163 bpm! U/S#5 - January 30th - TEAM PINK!!!
Baby Sweets born on her due date!

Re: What's your 'irrational' worry?

  • I was just talking to my Mom about this and she's been trying to reassure me.   Even though I've had three perfectly normal u/s and saw/heard the hb each time, I just feel like after all we've been through that this is going to be ripped away from us somehow.  I feel horrible thinking that and I know it sounds awful!!  The whole thing is still surreal to me.  I'm just trying my hardest to enjoy this experience and not worry the entire time.   

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    Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

    IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    Trying for #2

    FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled :(   l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

    Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

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  • So true ccam - we wait so long to get to experience this and it's so difficult to just enjoy it while it lasts.  I'm so happy, but always waiting for things to go wrong. 

    I'm hoping once I hit the half way mark in two weeks it will start to sink in and I can relax!

    TTC since August 2009
    June/July 2011 - IVF #1 - Transfer cancelled due to OHSS
    23 perfect embryos. All 23 made it to freezing!
    September/October - FET #1 - October 12th - 2 Grade A embies
    October 20th - BFP??! EDD - July 1, 2012
    Beta #1 = 154, Beta #2 = 352 Beta #3 = 3,800
    U/S #2 - November 14th = 133 bpm! U/S #3 & 4 - November 30th and December 7th = 163 bpm! U/S#5 - January 30th - TEAM PINK!!!
    Baby Sweets born on her due date!
  • I have a new one everyday. I was so worried before my u/s that I woke up at 4 this morning. Just had my u/s and now I'm worried because I'm crampy. :(
    IF DX: DOR & Fragile X pre-mutation carrier
    2011: FSH 13.3 & E 99; AMH 0.54 2nd FSH 6.2 E 40's AFC: 8
    BFP from Clomid/IUI ~ Pre-e and IUGR during pregnancy ~ DS born 9/4/12
    Feb./March 2013: AMH less than 0.16 (undectable) and AFC = 4;
    BFP from supps ~ DS#2 due May 2014

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    So true ccam - we wait so long to get to experience this and it's so difficult to just enjoy it while it lasts.  I'm so happy, but always waiting for things to go wrong. 

    I'm hoping once I hit the half way mark in two weeks it will start to sink in and I can relax!

    I agree.  I also think that once I can feel the baby or I look pregnant, I can start to relax.  Right now, my symptoms are lessening, which realistically they should be, so I'm at that in between phase.  Its hard!

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    Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

    IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    Trying for #2

    FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled :(   l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

    Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

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  • My worry at that point was cervical length. It still is but luckily everything on that end has been good! Hang in there! It's hard not to be overly "aware" of every weird thing going on with your body. If you ever need reassurance call your doc/nurse. There is no reason not "double check" with them when things freak you out!
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  • I was trying to think of mine, saying to myself that all of my worries are totally rational, when I realized last night's worrying was fully on the irrational side. My lower right leg hurt, just some light throbbing, but it was every time it moved. Not comfortable. I walked a bit more yesterday than I have been, since I've been told no exercise right now. So when I told my husband about it, and searched on Dr. Google, one of the possible (out of maybe 10) causes was deep vein thrombosis/blood clot in my leg. Which could lead to a pulmonary embolism. Which lead to ALL kinds of terrible thoughts (particularly since an acquaintance died suddenly of a brain aneurysm yesterday at age 30). Of course, today the pain was gone. I did start sleeping with a pillow between my legs last night, though. I had no idea it would feel so good! 
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  • I have two irrational worries that simply will not go away. The first one is that I will develop high blood pressure while pregnant. I am so worried about it that I have anxiety. My second it that even though we used a donor the baby will still have cystic fibrosis. I know all donors are tested for it but I still worry. I had the same worry while pregnant with my son. We had a cvs done and it showed that he was healthy but I still worried. When he was born I remember screaming, "Can he breath? Can he breathe?" It wasn't until his newborn screening came back fine that I relaxed.
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  • My newest worry is that the baby isn't kicking enough.  She could kick all day long, stop for an hour or so, and I will worry that somethings wrong. 

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  • Right now, my extremely irrational worry is that I exerted myself too much beating the cake batter by hand for my mom's birthday cake, and it somehow hurt the baby (wow, just typing that out made me see how ridiculous that one is!).

    For the most part, I'm at the point where I do actually believe that I will be having a baby in July, but right now I am overly worried that there will be something wrong with the baby. My new irrational worry is that out of 15 embryos from 2 IVFs, only this one actually made it (no frosties), so why would this one be ok when all of the others weren't?

    Sigh. I think all pregnant women have irrational worries, but it's just magnified when you've gone through so much to get to where we are!

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  • Every time I feel sick, I decide I've lost the baby. My best friend lost a baby at 4 months and her only inkling was that she thought she had the flu. So, I had the flu this week, I was convinced the baby was dead. I think my RE thought I was crazy because he said the words positive fetal movement and I started BAWLING! He asked me what was wrong and I said I was convinced the baby was dead. My DH was so embarrassed and the RE was so nice, but I felt like an idiot!
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  • My latest irrational worry is that my pregnancy has been too easy so far -- no real m/s or difficulties, all of my test results and u/s have been great, and now that makes me worry that something major will go wrong later or during labor or something.  Stupid, I know.  I'm trying to force myself to be more optimistic by buying baby stuff and starting to get the nursery together. 


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  • Everything worries me. I just now started telling people bc from the beginning, I was convinced that mc was just around the corner. I had planned on telling people at 12-13wk but now almost a month later just started sharing. I still have yet to let myself get really excited or happy.  Last week it occured to me that things just may work out but I still have nightmares about losing the pregnancy...
    33 yo, DH with MFI Iui x4, Dec 2009 to Jan2011 all BFN.... IVF May 2011 BFP, mc June 2011 at 6.5 weeks, FET Oct 2011 BFP! Sweet baby girl born 25 June 2012** started adoption process Feb 2010, approved Oct 2010, failed match in delivery rooms Feb & Aug 2011... Birthmom called back 3d after we returned home. Aug 26 2011, our sweet baby boy comes home for good!!
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    I know I'm still very new here, and newly pregnant, but I hope it's okay if I join in.

    I'm worried that I will never accept the pregnancy as an overall good thing - that I won't be able to enjoy it, KWIM? After losses at various different weeks (see siggy) I'm just not excited right now. I'm nervous and scared and I want to be happy and have faith.

    This exactly. But it makes me feel bad you feel this way. You should be excited and happy. But I understand your fears..
    33 yo, DH with MFI Iui x4, Dec 2009 to Jan2011 all BFN.... IVF May 2011 BFP, mc June 2011 at 6.5 weeks, FET Oct 2011 BFP! Sweet baby girl born 25 June 2012** started adoption process Feb 2010, approved Oct 2010, failed match in delivery rooms Feb & Aug 2011... Birthmom called back 3d after we returned home. Aug 26 2011, our sweet baby boy comes home for good!!
  • I have two irrational worries at this point. The first is that I get worked up when I have a beta. The first one was ok, but the wait for the second one was bad. I have my third beta on Monday and I'm already getting worked up over it. I almost don't want to have one so I can continue to live in ignorant bliss. 

    My second one (and I'm embarrassed to admit this), every time I bend over I worry I'm going to squish the baby. Even DH gave me the side eye on that one.  

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