Breastfeeding. Hands down.
I have cried uncontrollably, discovered the nipple shield (which I am 99% sure is the only reason we are still able to BF), worried I am not feeding DD enough, freaked out with each dry diaper that I think should be wet and so much more.
I thought it would be easier than this. Not easy, but easier. DH has been amazing and been a huge support for me. He even went to BRU at 9pm one night to get me the shield since I was about ready to give up.
Last night she wanted to nurse every hour and did not want to be put down. It's definitely a lot go through, but it's been worth it. I just tell myself to make it through one more day. It's been working, so far...
Re: One week in and the hardest thing has been...
DD 1/3/2012
BFP 5/21/2013 MC 5/24/2013
BFP 7/16/2013 EDD 3/27/2014
I could have written this post. After doing everything "right" during my pregnancy and having a beautiful drug-free birth I thought breastfeeding would come so naturally and easy. Wrong!
I have cried my eyes out time and time again and my little dude even lost weight between 2 and 12 days old (only 1 oz, but still). I felt like such a complete failure and that I was starving my baby. Luckily, thanks to a nipple shield (best $7 ever spent) LO is finally nursing effectively. Thank goodness for a wonderful midwife, lactation consultant, and birth center staff.
Jess and Michael Married 10/2006
It is SO hard, but it DOES get easier, I promise! Reach out to LC if you haven't already because as much as everyone says it hurts and that's normal, with a proper latch it actually should stop hurting once the nipples heal/get used to the abuse. I am only 3 weeks in but it is now almost completely pain free...
Edited to add that I have found that my little guy needs to burp after nursing. I know a lot of people say that BF babies don't need to be burped, but he gets super fussy after eating even though I know he's gotten enough (my boobs are like super soakers, I'm an over producer) and once he burps he settles right away.
Oh also if you are worried about weight gain try feeding only 1 breast per session. The first part of the milk that comes from your breast is full of sugar that stabilizes the babies blood sugar and makes them calm down, the second half (which often gets missed if you are switching breasts) is where all the fat is which keeps them fuller and helps with weight gain. It also gives your nipples a break in between!
I am happy but also saddened to hear you're all having the same issues. Isn't it crazy that something natural can be so difficult? (I have to keep reminding myself that natural =/= easy)
I do stick to one breast at a time, and that seems to satisfy her. Now I am starting to wonder if I should pump after feeding with the shield. I don't think I have an issue with supply (I pumped 2.5oz out of both breasts after a feeding last night), but I want to make sure my supply isn't impacted by the shield.
Hang in there ladies and let go of the guilt if you can't get it to work. Motherhood is hard enough without making yourself feel worse!!
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