Hello, I am looking for any wisdom or advice. On how to cope with a husband missing out babys first month and how to deal with lonliness.... Husband and I have been together for 8 years (since highschool) Truly best friends... Got married a little over a year ago and he decided on joining the milititary after college in OCT. This was a joint decison... I think I actually played a large role in his desicon considering my father is prior service and I worked for the dod. Well we decided on having a baby (wanted to be younger parents), he ended up leaving for training sooner than expected.... Long story short he was told that he would be able to see me and the baby visit, be there for the birth... blah blah blah and now he is being told other wise ( which I understand comes with the military ) So we prepared ourselves and I have been preparing my self, but its freaking hard!
I am living near his parents and mine (for help) and yet I feel like Im always alone and have no help all the time.Sometime I just need help and no one is here to help me and I am a very independent person and just hate to rely on everyone. Due in less than a month, I dont know if its bc Im overly emotional or what but seems like I have been extra sensitive about being alone and dealing with a new baby. My husbands training has been crazy for him, he barley been getting 3 hours of sleep a night and any chance he gets he calls. I appreciate it alot, bc alot of the guys dont even call their wives... But I have been mad at him and I dont know why. I know why he joined and why he is there ( bc we thought it would be best for us all) but I keep asking myself was it worth it and I feel guilty bc I think I played a large role in him joining. I keep on thinking what if he never even meets his son ( Im morbid), but the other day he mentioned the same thing to me (made me sad)... At the doctors office I saw a couple about my age (25) with a new baby and husband was so helpful and it made me soooo sad (litterally started to cry) bc I know that will never be us. I told DH and he said yeah it will be in a couple of months, but in the back of my mind I know it wont bc our son will only be that little once and he is going to miss it... makes me sad for him bc he is a awsome uncle and is great with kids. I just cant imagine how heart broken he is. I told husband that I feel like some 18 year old babys mama that got pregnant by some random guy and is doing everything alone... I go places by myself to get baby things and feel like people are judging me ( which really bothers me for somereason).... Anyways thats the jist of it... I can probly ramble on and on. I guess I am looking for some advice or shared experiences on dealing with this, I told husband I think I need therapy bc I have been crying alot about it latley.But I think it could just be pregnancy??? Dont get me wrong I am super exited about the baby and sooooo ready to meet him, DH keeps telling me that things will get better when he is here. So any advice on dealing with this? Experiences? Thanks.