TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

Hugs needed please

I am just feeling so overwhelmed lately!  I should be starting cycle 18 any day now and if I start any earlier than Thursday there's a good chance I won't be able to get in a baseline monitoring appointment for clomid, which means the possibility of another TTA cycle since clomid is the only thing that gets my LP past 9 days.  

My cousin, whose GF just had a baby this fall (unmarried @ 19 & 20 y/o, no place to live), was soliciting for babysitters (on FB) to go with them to Applebee's so they could get drunk and then have a safe ride home.

Baby shower @ work this week for a long term sub that's here for someone else's mat leave.

Final stab to the heart, a big long post by a family member talking about all the babys on my ILs side.  I know they're excited and I am too, but did they all forget that I should have been due in a month?

It seems like this grief/ sadness comes and goes in cycles.  A few weeks ago I felt so hopeful after my last RE appointment.  Where did that go?

Thank you all for the support and love you've offered so far- I love you ladies! 



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  • Huge hugs!  I'm sorry you're having such a hard time.  It does seem like when it rains it pours!

    I hope things turn around for you soon! Until then we're here to vent to!

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  • ((huge hugs)) Sometimes it seems to even harder than normal. I hope all of this eases up on you soon. 
    TTC #1 since January 2011
    BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
    BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
    After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
    Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!! 
    BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
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  • Huge hugs honey. I'm sorry things are overwhelming to you right now.

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  • Huge hugs! It definitely comes in waves.  

  • Huge Hugs!!!  I'm sorry you are at a low right now.  I'm crossing everything I have that you can do a Clomid cycle and it's just what you need!!!
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    June 2010, corrective surgery for Septate Uterus and large fibroids

    2nd pregnancy: BFP- 10/18/10 - Slow rising, non-doubling HCGs, no heart beat. Non-viable pregnancy, D&C- 11/12/10

    Started Metformin 6/30/11, Started Clomid 7/20/11 - Unsuccessful

    HSG and Laparoscopic surgery revealed blocked tubes and lots of scar tissue...IVF here we come!!!

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  • Thank you all- you're the best! Smile

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  • Huge hugs coming your way. It does seem to come in waves. I hope things work out for your cycle and that you don't have to TTA another cycle.
    BFP#1 7/09 DS born 3/30/10 BFP#2 5/11 M/C 6/11 BFP#3 9/11 M/C 10/11 BFP #4 5/20/12 Pregnancy Ticker
  • {{{hugs}}} hun!!! 

    Why do all of these things seem to happen at the same time. I'm wishing you lots of strength this week, as well as "stay away a few more days AF dust".  


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    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
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  • sending ((huge hugs!)) your way!
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  • Lots of (((HUGS))).  I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now.  I agree with you - it does seem like the grief and sadness come and go in cycles for me also.  It can be really hard to deal with at times.  Thinking lots of good thoughts for you that you'll be able to start your next clomid cycle as planned.
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
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    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
  • ((((hugs))))  I know that is always the way it is - it just hits you all at once and you feel so overwhelmed.  It's just so, so hard sometimes. 

    I really hope that your cycle works out and you don't have to TTA. 

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  • Sending lots of hugs your way. Hope af waits a few days to arrive so you don't have to tta another cycle.

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    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • Giant, squishy ((hugs))! When it rains it pours, right? I hope your cycle lines up the right way. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

     

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    ((((((HUGE SQUISHY HUGS)))))) IF Sucks. Sad Hang in there. I hope AF shows soon so you don't have to TTA another cycle. Can you hide your cousin's GF on FB? I hid every pregnant person I know. Makes it easier. I feel like there are a few less landmines on there. ((((HUGS))))

    Thank you Smile

    I actually don't know how to hide people anymore.  When I hover over the right side of their posts I only see things to 'unsubscribe' from users... I understood this as deleting them, so I never press it.  How do I do it? 


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  • (((HUGS)))

    I hope things look up soon. 

     

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    WHAT?! AE's can give support too!

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  • Many many many (((((Hugs)))))
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    (((HUGS)))

    I hope things look up soon. 

     

    ETA:

    WHAT?! AE's can give support too!

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    Ha!  Thanks ObviousAEisObvious!  You really ARE the best AE! Wink 


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  • I am so sorry BEB.  Sending you some ((huge hugs)).  You will find your hopefulness again.  This journey is such a rollercoaster of emotions.  I hope and pray there is a rainbow waiting at the end for all of us. 
    3 ectopic pregnancies (EDD's 1/30/12-tube removed, 6/2/12-methotrexate and 10/2/12-methotrexate)
    IVF and Natural FET resulted in BFN's and a hole in our wallets
    Natural BFP #4 on 9/7/12 gave us our miracle on 5/18/13
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  • Sending you giant ((Hugs)). It does come in cycles and you have every reason to feel overwhelmed. We are here for you.
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    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
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    I'm "borrowing" Vanessa's hug heart because it is so perfect!  I 've been where you are and it makes no sense why things happen the way they do.  I hope things get better soon!

    dd(Brianna) 11/01/94, ds(Bram)10/17/95, ds(Jesse)9/26/97, dd (Annie Ruth) 7/27/05 5mc Jan '08, May '08, Feb '09, Sept '09, Apr '11 "And can it be that in a world so full and busy, the loss of one weak creature makes a void in any heart, so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of vast eternity can fill it up." - Charles Dickens

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  • I am sorry. All of that sounds like too much for one person. Sending you a big big hug! FX'd AF stays away for a few more days. 
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    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
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    born: 9/11/13

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  • *LATE BUT HUGE HUGS*

    I'm sorry you're in the middle of a crappy wave beb.  *MORE HUGS* 

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  • Big ((((hugs)))). 

    My sadness comes in cycles, too.  This will pass and there will be brighter days ahead, I promise!!

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  • Big squishy (((HUGS)))

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  • (((hugs)))) I'm sorry. That really is a lot to deal with.

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    Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

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    JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

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  • ((huge hugs)) I am so sorry your having a rough time right now
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  • I am so sorry you are feeling down BEB. I think about you often ((huge hugs)). You will get pregnant again, have hope. Tons of T&Ps to you. 
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  • I'm sorry you are feeling like this hun!  I hope you start to feel better!
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  • ((HUGS)) I will be thinkking about you!
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  • Wanted to offer virtual hugs as well! These times where it seems like life is adding insult to injury are so hard to get through and not many others understand. 
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