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Just sad... *****update****

winidpuwinidpu
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RE called today on my egg status. Not good. I only have three and it appears at this point only one may fertilize and that's a big maybe. Nothing going w/ the other two. I am just so sad, mad, frustrated, and every other emotion in between. I knew this could happen but yet it's still so hard to take. I am crying as I write this post and I have been doing that off and on all say since they called. Was not a great day at work to say the least. My DH is trying so hard to comfort me and I do love him for that. I know it's not over until it's over but I feel like the writing is on the wall. Thanks for letting me cry Crying

Update 01/20 

Transfer tomorrow. One embryo 4 cell as of day two grade B w/ some fragmentation. I hoping it's at least 6 cell or higher by tomorrow morning. I hate this whole IF emotinal roller coaster!

TTC #1 since 2/10 Me 38 FSH 12.9 & AMH 0.16 DH 47, low sperm count due to meds. 07/11 We have sperm! 28 million, 70% motility, morphology 1% normal. 08/14/11 1st IUI unmedicated BFN. 09/11/11 2nd IUI w/ Femara + trigger BFN 10/14/11 trigger & Final IUI 10/16/11 BFN 10/21/11 Started acupuncture and loving it! 01/21 ET one embryo 6 cell grade C. Beta 02/02. BFN. Taking a much needed break. image
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Re: Just sad... *****update****

  • brooklynesquebrooklynesque member
    I'm so sorry, sweetie.  Hugs.  I hope your good egg does indeed fertilize so you get to transfer.  It only takes one.  Don't give up yet!
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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
    I'm so sorry honey. T&P's that you will have at least one to transfer.  Cry it out. IF just rips your heart out.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


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  • happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member
    Your post is making me tear up.  I am so sorry that you got this news today.  Hope that your one egg fertilizes and makes it to transfer.  We are all aware this could happen to us....but who wants to face that awful reality after all we've been through.  (((hugs)))
    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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  • XV11StarXV11Star member

    I sooooo know how you are feeling right now, and I feel the sadness in your post.  I just wish I could give you a big hug.  I will say a prayer for your egg, that it fertilizes and gives you hope again... c'monnnn, little egg!   We are rootin' for you on your big date with Mr. Wini!!!!   Get busy!  ;-)

    Good luck, please keep us posted.

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  • Temp556193750005695Temp556193750005695
    (((hugs))))
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  • owlprofowlprof member
    Oh, I am so, so sorry.  Ugh. 
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  • KGS2003KGS2003 member
    (((Big Hugs))) FX that you have 1 to transfer.  You are right it's not over til it's over. Wishing you much luck. 
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  • MelleTXMelleTX member
    So sorry. I have no words of comfort, just offering you many hugs!
    Single Mother by Choice. Life didn't work out the way I planned so I did it on my own. IUI #s 1-3, unmedicated = BFN, IUI #s 4-6, 50mg Clomid, Ovidrel = BFN IVF #1: 23R, 20M, 17F. 5 day transfer 2 blasts. 2 Snowbabies BFP 6dp5dt, Beta #1 7dp5dt = 58, Beta #2 9dp5dt = 114, Beta #3 10dp5dt = 187 1st Ultrasound = 5/3, not much to see yet. 2nd Ultrasound = 5/17, TWINS!!! Hospital Bed Rest at 32 weeks due to pre-ecclampsia and severe edema. Audrey Grace, 5lbs9oz, & Lydia Louise, 6lbs, born via emergency c-section on 12/6/12 at 36w1d My IVF Journey
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  • Amyaggie97Amyaggie97
    I am so sorry.
    Me- 37, DH- 32. TTC- June 2010- Adoption journey started April 2012 image
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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel
    I'm so, so sorry. Cry it out all you need to. Bad IVF cycles are devastating. Hugs.
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

    SAIFW/PAIFW
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  • pillowasspillowass member
    Oh I am so sorry to hear this. Sending you big hugs and hope for your little embie.  
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    TTC #2 since July 2010
    FSH = 11 (20 on day 10 of CCCT)/ AMH = .98 / AFC=12ish
    5 IUI's with oral meds = all BFN
    March 2012 IVF (MDL Protocol) Started stims 3/3; ER 3/11 (9R, 8M, 7F) ET 3/16 (5dt of 2 blasts graded 3AB and 3BA, 3 frosties(!!) Beta 3/26 = 386; Beta 3/28 = 827; u/s 4/11 says TWINS! Boy/Girl Twins delivered at 36 weeks 6 days

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  • Country Girl in the CityCountry Girl in the City
    I am so sorry.
    BFP on IVF #2 6/29/2012. Beta #1 7/3 = 522; Beta #2 = 1180; Beta #3 = 6491 image BabyFruit Ticker
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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member
    I am so sorry... I am sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers that it is not over.. hang in there and don't give up!
    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • brooklynesquebrooklynesque member
    imagewinidpu:

    Transfer tomorrow. One embryo 4 cell as of day two grade B w/ some fragmentation. I hoping it's at least 6 cell or higher by tomorrow morning. I hate this whole IF emotinal roller coaster!

    I'm so glad you have an embie to transfer!  Good luck!!  I'll be sending sticky vibes your way.

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member

    imagewinidpu:
    Transfer tomorrow. One embryo 4 cell as of day two grade B w/ some fragmentation. I hoping it's at least 6 cell or higher by tomorrow morning. I hate this whole IF emotinal roller coaster!

    Wishing you lots of luck that you have a winner there!  Stay strong.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

    imageimage

    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


    http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member

    imagewinidpu:
    Transfer tomorrow. One embryo 4 cell as of day two grade B w/ some fragmentation. I hoping it's at least 6 cell or higher by tomorrow morning. I hate this whole IF emotinal roller coaster!

    Wishing you lots of luck that you have a winner there!  Stay strong.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

    imageimage

    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


    http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com

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  • Bubs711Bubs711
    I'm so sorry you're going through this roller coaster of emotions.  Praying that all goes well for you tomorrow!
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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel
    Will be thinking of you. Good luck tomorrow!
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

    SAIFW/PAIFW
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  • XV11StarXV11Star member
    Good luck Wini!!!!  Sending that little emby lots of sticky vibes!
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