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GatorBaby2012 · January 2012

Good afternoon ladies. Some of you may remember me from a few months ago, but since I know there are so many new ladies on here, I thought I'd do a re-intro.

I'm GatorBaby2012 (not to be confused with another user with a similar SN that rubbed many of us on TTCAL - including me - the wrong way). I first came over to TTCAL after my m/c in August. DH and I have been TTC since June 2011, and were very lucky and got a BFP on our first cycle trying. Also in June 2011 I was dx with hypothyroidism. My thyroid levels got a little out of control, but we saw a beautiful u/s and heard a beautiful hb at 9 weeks. One week later, I had some spotting, and was dx with a missed m/c. Baby stopped growing one day after the u/s we saw. I opted for misoprostol to induce the m/c. Needless to say, that experience was heartbreaking. We took one cycle off from TTC, per dr.'s orders, and have been TTC-ing for this go-around since Sept 2011. After that first cycle back on the TTC train, I had some mixed signals (including symptoms and a very faint BFP) that lead me to believe I may have had a CP, though there's nothing to confirm that as I did not go to the dr. to get it verified.

At that point, DH and I decided it was best for me to take a Bump break to try to reduce some of my tunnel visionary obsession and focus on getting myself healthy and focus on our relationship. During that time I have lurked off and on, so I've been keeping up with what's going on with you all as well as some of my TTCAL friends that have moved over to PGAL. DH and I had two more cycles of hard-core TTCing, and then last month decided to take the month off (meaning, we would still have relations, but because we wanted to, not because the calendar told us to.) Still no luck. (FYI - that whole "it will happen when you're not trying so hard" is BS!) Also during the last few months I have started seeing a therapist, which has helped to communicate my emotions and given me tools to cope with the loss as well as the frustration with TTCAL. I also started seeing a personal fitness trainer, as I have gained 10 lbs since my m/c and want to be in the best health possible. (I'm on MFP, friends with MrsErinH, if you want to look me up.)

My OB and I have had some discussions and are curious whether my thyroid might be currently over-medicated (because I'm on the same increased dosages as when I was pg) or whether there are some other hormonal things going on with my body that are causing me to not O. As such, this month I'm starting the Clomid Challenge with blood work on CD3, CD10, and CD21. Not sure yet whether my OB will actually put me on Clomid, but will find out after my first b/w results. I'll also be including thyroid tests in the CD3 b/w.

I have never officially charted or used OPK's, but if there is no success this cycle, that is something I will highly consider doing in future cycles. My OB doesn't recommend it, as she is a believer of the "don't try too hard" approach, and, with the exception of last month, DH and I BD'd EOD from the time AF left until the time AF arrived.

In order to prevent myself from over-obsessing, I'm going to limit my Bumping to one or two times per day. I love to provide support and love receiving it. Not so much a fan of the drama side of things, so you'll probably not see me get too involved in any phishing, DD, or "salad dressing lube" posts (yes, saw that when I was lurking!)

Hugs to all of you. I know you hate being here as much as I do. I look forward to developing relationships with all of you.

ETA: spelling

SoCoGirl · January 2012

I remember you. Welcome back, I hope that all of your testing goes well.

Eveanyn · January 2012

Welcome back! I remember you. Hope you don't have to be with us for long! FX for good results with Clomid this cycle!

LEP424 · January 2012

I'm so sorry for your losses. I look forward to getting to know you, I hope you're only here for a short time!

Bizzy98 · January 2012

Welcome back and I hope the testing goes well!

vanessa lynne · January 2012

Hello Gatorbaby! Welcome back.

ChloBub · January 2012

Welcome back and GL!

[Deleted User] · January 2012

I remember you, welcome back. Hopefully your stay is short and sweet!

jenada2011 · January 2012

Welcome back! I seriously just thought about you last night, because someone wore a Gators-Shirt at Volleyball and I thought "hey, I know that from somewhere..."

Well, anyways ((hugs)) and again welcome back