TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

I'm so tired of all of this.

Well, my CHs finally were taken away. And I guess the next logical thing to do is call and get provera and start over. But honestly, I don't want to. Because what if I have another cycle like this all over again?

After hearing that my BIL and his wife are pregnant last night {Their new baby is 8 weeks old, and she's now 5 weeks pregnant} I really have lost my faith. I'm thinking of just letting this cycle play out the way it's supposed to. Maybe i'll put the breaks on CD 100. I don't know yet.

I think i'm just done. I'm tired. I don't want to do this anymore.  


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Re: I'm so tired of all of this.

  • Big ::HUGS:: hon.  I completely understand the feeling of just letting things be sometimes, this whole process is frustrating and stressful.  I have two friends whom were 4-5 months pregnant when we started trying who are already out of their 1st trimester of their second pregnancy.

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    Big ::HUGS:: hon.  I completely understand the feeling of just letting things be sometimes, this whole process is frustrating and stressful.  I have two friends whom were 4-5 months pregnant when we started trying who are already out of their 1st trimester of their second pregnancy.

    I hate that! Two of my cousins got pregnant with their first after I did with Aurora.... one had her second baby in October, one is having her second in April. 


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    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

  • Oh Cashews, I have no advice as I haven't been in your shoes. I just wanted to send you ((hugs)) and tell you that I'm thinking of you. I hate hearing the stories of people getting KU right after having a baby. It makes me so angry that they can have two babies in one year and others can't. It's just not fair. Sending you some love.
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  • Oh hun, I know.  This whole TTC thing sucks!  I am so upset to hear about your BIL, what a joke.  I don't blame your for wanting to just let this cycle go, if it won't hurt you medically, why not?  Sending you tons of love!
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  • oh, i 'm so sorry. i'm right there with you. it must be the moon. ((hugs))

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  • ((hugs)) I'm so sorry. If you think letting this cycle go will mentally help you, why not? It's not right that some people can get KU 3 weeks PP and others try for years with no luck. Not right at all.
  • ((HUGE HUGS))

    I'm so sorry hun.  Do what you need to do for yourself.  If you're not ready to call, then don't.  Take it one day at a time.

    ((MORE HUGS)) 

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  • I am so sorry. DH felt like this in August and September and so we took a break and it really helped to recharge our spirits. I don't know what else to say but I am sorry and I'm sending you a big hug. 
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  • I'm so sorry honey. This whole process is just not fair. Maybe giving yourself a break will help. Big hugs!
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  • sending ((huge hugs)) your way.  i hate that you are feeling this way and wish i could help to ease your pain, frustration and worries.  ((hugs))
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  • Sending ((hugs)), it's so unfair that everyone around us has a few kids while we are still struggling. Dh is definitely the positive of our relationship. I'm trying to be positive this year since that was my resolution, but deep down I don't believe we will ever have a baby.

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  • I am sorry. ((huge hugs))
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  • ((hugs)) I am so sorry. I know how frustrating long cycles can be. I hope yours resolves itself soon and that you don't have to go on meds.
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  • I am so sorry that you are feeling this way, although I do understand.  It is so incredibly frustrating to watch people get pregnant time after time and have it not be you.  And what's with your BIL and his wife?  Last time I checked you are supposed to wait until you are cleared to even have sex - let alone TTC and that's typically around 6 weeks.  Life is just so ridiculously unfair sometimes.  (((((hugs)))))
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    So frustrating.  I'm sorry hon. ((hugs)) 

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  • Lots of (((HUGS))).  I get it.
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    Oh Cashews, I have no advice as I haven't been in your shoes. I just wanted to send you ((hugs)) and tell you that I'm thinking of you. I hate hearing the stories of people getting KU right after having a baby. It makes me so angry that they can have two babies in one year and others can't. It's just not fair. Sending you some love.

    This exactly.   Big squishy (((HUGS)))

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  • I know the feeling.  Even some idiot at the barn got pregnant.  And she's breaking a two year old horse to saddle pregnant.  And she won't shut up about it.  Even my sanctuary isn't safe.
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  • ((((HUGS)))

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    IVF #1- ER 2/2; ET 2/5;-Two 8 cell embryos transfered = BFFN
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    U/S on 6/8/12 - H/B at 128 BPM; U/S on 6/14/12 @ 9wks-No H/B-D&C on 6/17/12
    IVF 2.0- ER 10/17; ET 10/20-One 12 cell, one 10 cell and one 8 cell embryo transfered
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  • I wish I had some intuitive words to offer you.  I'm so so sorry sweetie... offering you many ((((hugs))))
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