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One year ago...(feeling sorry for myself post)

Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
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One year ago today was my first RE appt.  I'm currently on my 4th RE since...I wonder how many appts I have had since then and the number of injections, pills, vag supps etc I have used.. I am no closer to a baby than I was back then. In fact, I am probably further away than ever.  Just feeling sorry for myself since I am 13DPO and got a BFN from my first cycle with the "Egg Whisper". I skipped my beta this morning as  there is no point in going. I feel so silly to admit this but I really thought that the timing of Riley getting sick and leaving me was that he traded his life for me get a BFP.

Pass the wine/whine please.

TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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SAIF/PAIF Welcome


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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel
    Hugs. I did a year-end accounting of appointments, meds, etc. (partially for tax reasons) and it was incredibly depressing. And, I don't think you're silly at all for thinking Riley might have left you a gift. It does happen - just not for everyone.
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

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  • gundy21gundy21 member
    Big hugs. 
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  • brooklynesquebrooklynesque member
    I'm sorry about the BFN.  Maybe Riley just needs a few weeks to work out your BFP from kitty heaven.  :-)
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  • owlprofowlprof member
    Totally understandable and justified.  I agree with brooklynesque that Riley is just taking a little bit of time to get squared away in kitty heaven and get to your BFP.  I would imagine there are lots of balls of yarn and sunspots keeping him busy.
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  • AdiAdi

    Mrs.Irish - You aren't sill at all for thinking it. When my Grandma passed away last April, I thought the same thing. She had been my most constant supporter when I had my m/c last January(almost exactly a year ago)... so in April, when we were cleared to try again... I couldn't help but think it. I'm no closer either.

    Biggest hugs to you sweetie... enjoy your wine.

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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member
    I am so sorry McIrish.. Sometimes those dates can be terribly depressing.  As always I wish for you that soon this will all just be a story you can share with your child.
    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • pillowasspillowass member
    I'm sorry about your BFN. I hate how significant dates become deadlines, and getting through them is one of the hardest parts of this. Whine away! and Wine away! ((hugs))
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    TTC #2 since July 2010
    FSH = 11 (20 on day 10 of CCCT)/ AMH = .98 / AFC=12ish
    5 IUI's with oral meds = all BFN
    March 2012 IVF (MDL Protocol) Started stims 3/3; ER 3/11 (9R, 8M, 7F) ET 3/16 (5dt of 2 blasts graded 3AB and 3BA, 3 frosties(!!) Beta 3/26 = 386; Beta 3/28 = 827; u/s 4/11 says TWINS! Boy/Girl Twins delivered at 36 weeks 6 days

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  • MelleTXMelleTX member

    HUGS.

    Give Riley a little time to pick out the right baby for you. He JUST got up there. He needs to make sure you get the best one! 

    Single Mother by Choice. Life didn't work out the way I planned so I did it on my own. IUI #s 1-3, unmedicated = BFN, IUI #s 4-6, 50mg Clomid, Ovidrel = BFN IVF #1: 23R, 20M, 17F. 5 day transfer 2 blasts. 2 Snowbabies BFP 6dp5dt, Beta #1 7dp5dt = 58, Beta #2 9dp5dt = 114, Beta #3 10dp5dt = 187 1st Ultrasound = 5/3, not much to see yet. 2nd Ultrasound = 5/17, TWINS!!! Hospital Bed Rest at 32 weeks due to pre-ecclampsia and severe edema. Audrey Grace, 5lbs9oz, & Lydia Louise, 6lbs, born via emergency c-section on 12/6/12 at 36w1d My IVF Journey
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  • CheezeFaceCheezeFace member
    <3.
    ~Married 11/08~
    ~TTC since 01/09~
    ~SA & B/W - 06/09 - Normal~
    ~Encouraged by OB to "just keep trying" 06/09 - 06/10 (oh, the wasted time)~
    ~HSG - 08/10 - Clear/Normal~
    ~Lapo - 01/11 - Normal~
    ~Clomid 50mg, Trigger shot, Prometrium - 01/11, 02/11, 03/11~
    ~BFN - 02/11~
    ~IUI #1 03/15/11~
    BFP 3/28/2011
    Diagnosed with GD at 28 weeks. Controlled through diet and exercise. No insulin.
    Diagnosed with Cholestasis of pregnancy @ 36 weeks.
    Delivered via C-section @ 36 weeks on 11/9/11.

    TTC#2 for a few months naturally (ha!)
    ~IUI#1, Clomid, Trigger,  10/13 - BFN
    ~IUI#2, Femera, Ovidrel, 11/13




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  • debnut39debnut39

    Popping over from infertility board..

    I am SOOOO sorry to hear this news. Sending you big Hugs, thoughts and prayers.

    I didn't know that your kitty had passed. I am so sad to hear this. I hope that you are doing okay.

    Although you haven't achieved your BFP YET, you have become a much stronger, assertive and beautiful person after enduring this past year. I will continue to pray for you that you will get your BFP. This Egg Whisperer just needs to figure out how to whisper to your little eggies. Your eggies need to be romanced a little by his whispering first and next time they will behave.

    You have been such a positive presence to all of us on the boards and are always there to cheer us on, give advice and comfort us when we need it most. You don't have to do this but you do it because you are truly wonderful. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

    I wish I could offer the magic comfort cup of tea to you. Take care and know that you are in all of our thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))

     

    Me: 39 DH: 39 Dx: MFI, DOR, Poor Responder Our only option is IVF with ICSI; 1/11 IVF#1.1: Lupron flare, canceled lead follie/poor response; 3/11 IVF#1.2: EPP, canceled due to lead follicle/poor response; 10/11 IVF#1.3: Antagonist, microdose HCG, 2 embies 2dt BFN; 12/11 IVF #2: Stims started 12/17, ER: 12/27 3R, 1 mature, 1 fert, other 2 eggs matured overnight and rescue ICSI performed and both fertilized! (frozen on 12/30), On 12/29 1 2d 4-cell, grade 1 embie transferred. 1/12: Scheduled Beta, FX'd! IVF Snowflakes!
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  • winidpuwinidpu
    I actually thought the same thing. I had my pug put down when she was 15 and thought for sure I would end up getting my BFP real soon after that. How wrong I was. She's been gone two years next month. I do understand and hope you get your BFP very soon. I hope that for us all. Hang in there.
    TTC #1 since 2/10 Me 38 FSH 12.9 & AMH 0.16 DH 47, low sperm count due to meds. 07/11 We have sperm! 28 million, 70% motility, morphology 1% normal. 08/14/11 1st IUI unmedicated BFN. 09/11/11 2nd IUI w/ Femara + trigger BFN 10/14/11 trigger & Final IUI 10/16/11 BFN 10/21/11 Started acupuncture and loving it! 01/21 ET one embryo 6 cell grade C. Beta 02/02. BFN. Taking a much needed break. image
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  • happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member
    imagedebnut39:

    I am SOOOO sorry to hear this news. Sending you big Hugs, thoughts and prayers.

    Although you haven't achieved your BFP YET, you have become a much stronger, assertive and beautiful person after enduring this past year. I will continue to pray for you that you will get your BFP. This Egg Whisperer just needs to figure out how to whisper to your little eggies. Your eggies need to be romanced a little by his whispering first and next time they will behave.

    You have been such a positive presence to all of us on the boards and are always there to cheer us on, give advice and comfort us when we need it most. You don't have to do this but you do it because you are truly wonderful. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

    I wish I could offer the magic comfort cup of tea to you. Take care and know that you are in all of our thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))

     

    I could not have said this better!  Thinking of you and hoping that your new RE will be your ticket to a BFP.  If we change RE's, I will also be on my 4th RE in a year.  This journey has been long and not easy......but remember to take things one day, one cycle at a time.  Looking at it all over course of a year can be overwhelming.  Hang in there!

    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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  • XV11StarXV11Star member

    I agree with Melle and everyone else that said Riley is working his kitty magic...

    (warning, pg story below, hope it's ok)

    I have a friend who just lost her soul mate horse after almost 30 years.  She was absolutely leveled, and then thought she was getting the flu on top of it all.  It turned out she's pg.  She totally feels as though her horse sent her the baby... 

    I pray that you get the same type of blessing!!  Huge hugs McIrish!

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  • Bubs711Bubs711
    I am so sorry you are going through all this!  {{{HUGS}}}
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  • Rorr2Rorr2 member
    Totally not silly at all. Hugs. 
    Me-39, DH 36 Married May 2010 TTC since June 2010 Un-monitored clomid cycles 1/11-3/11 Began seeing RE March 2011 4/11-6/11 Femera +IUI =BFN 7/11-8/11 Femera +trigger shot +IUI =BFN Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy on 9/8/11 Surprise natural BFP! on 9/30/2011 M/C at 8 weeks D&C on 11/3/11 2nd M/C on 12/25- natural Feb-June Follistim + IUI= BFN IVF #1- Start Stimms- 8/3 ER- 8/18 5R 4M 3F ET- All 3 on 8/21 =BFN IVF #2- Start Stimms- 11/5 ER- 11/19 9R 8M 8F ET- 11/22 3 8 cell embies. BFP HPT! 12/4 Beta #1- 12/6 976! Ultrasound on 12/21- Twins! BabyFruit Ticker Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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    imageMelleTX:

    HUGS.

    Give Riley a little time to pick out the right baby for you. He JUST got up there. He needs to make sure you get the best one! 

     My thoughts exactly!

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