I never in a million years thought it would be this hard for me to 'hurry up and wait.' When I had my internal this morning and found out I still havent progressed (still just a soft cervix since 36 weeks), I just couldnt hold it in anymore.
I felt like such a baby but my MW was great, consoling me and just explaining things. For so long I had myself convinced I was going to go early (even though the MW told me 90% of her FTMs dont) that I think its just been a harder pill for me to swallow.
Ive been very lucky and have had an easy pregnancy with no complications or scares so I should feel blessed rather than frustrated, but its just so hard for me to sit and not have any control over my situation whatsoever. I feel like Im doing something wrong (even though I know Im not).
I think I just want to meet him so badly. My DH has been fantastic and so supportive but its still so tough. Its like he is so close and yet so far away at the same time.
OK, enough of my whining/pity party. Thanks for reading...I always tend to feel better after I vent to you ladies. XOXO
Re: I cried at my appt this morning
Im due tomorrow and have no progress, not even softening. I totally understand the pity party, I cried all day yesterday. If I go til tues, they'll induce me, but that feels like forever away, even though logically I know it really isn't.
Im glad Im not alone.
I just have negative desire to be induced. For whatever silly reason I feel like Im being cheated if I dont get the whole contractions-water-breaking-at-home-drive-to-the-hospital-all-amped-up experience, you know? Plus, I really want to do a natural birth and its my understanding that after getting pitocin that makes it really hard.
Waterworks city!
zachary happens! | little fish
Yes! I kinda feel like I am failing somehow if it doesn't happen on its own. Also, I had to be born via c-section after my mother had a terrible (I will save you the story) experience with pitocin.
I had the same experience yesterday. I didn't have an appointment last week and I've been feeling so different that I thought for sure there would be major progress and then nothing! It put me in a rotten mood all day.
I feel better today though. I just tried to think about the few little things I can still do before baby comes... brunch with friends, a few final touches to the nursery, finish reading my baby books. I hope you feel better tomorrow too.
This is what I keep trying to remind myself of. It's SO TRUE. My OB basically tells me the same thing.