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Irrational ER fears (I'm a psycho)

I really haven't had difficulty with anything so far. Stim shots- I got it. HSG- no big deal. Etc, etc, etc.

The retrieval process however, freaks me out. Here's what I'm currently worried about:

1. Saying something really, really embarrassing to my RE when I'm under. 

2. Getting a nervous stomach (because I'm a pro at that) and having some sort of embarrassing accident on the table. 

 

Yup, that's what keeps me up at night.....

Any "it's really no big deal" posts (even if you're lying) would be much appreciated. Smile


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Re: Irrational ER fears (I'm a psycho)

  • Hehehe... definitely no big deal.  This was surprisingly that part I was the least freaked out about since I was going to be "out" during all the big scary needle stuff (and we had to keep my IV covered so I didn't look at it and freak out).  You get some really fun drugs... enjoy them!

    and remember

    1.) You're mediated so you have total deniability

    2.) If something happens, you won't be aware and they probably won't tell you so really it's like if a tree falls in the wood and no one is around to hear it...

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  • It really isn't a big deal!!  They definitely won't hold anything you say/do against you while you are under (or immediately after, either)!

    You will probably sleep really well afterwards, too!  I know I did.  I was also able to get MH to get me a milkshake afterwards!

    Best of luck, hon!!

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  • I haven't had an ER, but I was totally nervous about saying something crazy when they put me under for my lap.  I don't remember a thing from the moment that they started the happy drugs, so if I did say anything strange, I don't remember, so it doesn't count!  Good luck!
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  • Well, I don't have experience, so I can't say it's no big deal -- but I can say definitely share the fear of saying something obnoxious while under!!  I've been thinking about that more and more. 

    I didn't even think about your accident fear!  I'm going to pretend I didn't read that!

    I'm sure it will be fine.  Plus, I'm sure they don't think much about any of these things because they see it all the time.

     GL!

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  • I had my D&C at my RE's office and was under the same type of sedation you'll probably be under for your ER.

    Yes, I was embarassing. I kept whipping my blankets off in recovery and looking down and yelling "is my vagina bleeding? Look Kevin, there's no bleeding..."The good part is that if your hubby doesn't tell you about it, you'll never know you did it b/c the drugs cause some amnesia. So tell your hubby not to tell you anything anout what you did or said

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  • I can't help you because I am also guilty of harboring irrational ER fears.  I have to say though the biggest one is having a giant-ass needle punched through my VAGINA... which is guaranteed to happen.  Crying

    I can say however that a few weeks ago, I had eye surgery while I was awake.  Before the surgery, I was totally terrified.  But it turned out that the worst part was getting the IV in -- the rest was a piece of cake!  (Because they gave me fabulous drugs.)

    I do remember asking the doctors if this is what it's like to be on acid.  (They were shining a light in my eye so it looked like a lava lamp floating in front of me.)  I don't remember their response but I'm guessing there was some laughter.  Embarrassed

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  • I don't have any experience but I know you will do great! 
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  • You can do it and it's TOTALLY not a big deal Wink 

    Seriously, anything you do is not going to surprise them or shock them. They're medical professionals. So, it really isn't a big deal. You're going to do awesome, babe! 

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    I had my D&C at my RE's office and was under the same type of sedation you'll probably be under for your ER.

    Yes, I was embarassing. I kept whipping my blankets off in recovery and looking down and yelling "is my vagina bleeding? Look Kevin, there's no bleeding..."The good part is that if your hubby doesn't tell you about it, you'll never know you did it b/c the drugs cause some amnesia. So tell your hubby not to tell you anything anout what you did or said

    That is the most hilarious thing I have heard someone say coming out of sedation.  I am sure it was embarrassing when you first found out you said that but hopefully you find it funny now!

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  • Hey, if your asleep you will never even know! I am sure they have seen it all! You will do great. Think about this way, when you go to deliver you will be yelling a lot of things you might not mean, and stuff that you never knew existed will come out of you onto the table. So, this is nothing ??
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  • Aw, thanks for cheering me on and for the funny stories!! I'm hoping that I have a ton of follies that I can't wait to get out so ill be more relieved than nervous. That would be awesome!

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    I really haven't had difficulty with anything so far. Stim shots- I got it. HSG- no big deal. Etc, etc, etc.

    The retrieval process however, freaks me out. Here's what I'm currently worried about:

    1. Saying something really, really embarrassing to my RE when I'm under. 

    2. Getting a nervous stomach (because I'm a pro at that) and having some sort of embarrassing accident on the table. 

     

    Yup, that's what keeps me up at night.....

    Any "it's really no big deal" posts (even if you're lying) would be much appreciated. Smile

    I have no idea what you are taking aboutWink

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  • I've been "put under" for stuff five times...and from what I've been told the funniest thing I ever said was to my Doc for my breast reduction surgery.  Right before I feel alseep I tried to convince him to buy television advertising from me for plastic surgery (I sold ads for NBC in WV at the time).  I was trying to sell him while the twins were in full view and my arms were stretched out in Jesus form.  LOL.  Oh, and I had a surgery where they removed a cyst from the crack of my a$$ (plylonidal cyst) so yeah....nothing can embarass me.  I've had them looking at my T & A - literally! 

    You'll do fine!  And like others said - I'm sure they will not mention anything if you say or do anything you might find embarassing.  Good luck sweetie!!


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    I really haven't had difficulty with anything so far. Stim shots- I got it. HSG- no big deal. Etc, etc, etc.

    The retrieval process however, freaks me out. Here's what I'm currently worried about:

    1. Saying something really, really embarrassing to my RE when I'm under. 

    2. Getting a nervous stomach (because I'm a pro at that) and having some sort of embarrassing accident on the table. 

     

    Yup, that's what keeps me up at night.....

    Any "it's really no big deal" posts (even if you're lying) would be much appreciated. Smile

    I have no idea what you are taking aboutWink

    You better hope I don't rat YOU out while I'm under too!

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  • I don't think I said anything while I was out - I was just lying there.   But I promise the entire procedure was very easy.   I've had laser eye surgery - which means you are awake and you see what is happening - and that was 1000times scarier than ER was.  

     

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  • It is totally no big deal and you will be sleeping nicely a few short seconds after they administer the medication. I remember the anestheiologist giving me the sedation medication and passing out not long after (it seemed like less than a minute). I have only had it one other time and the only thing I remember is yelling "WEEEEEE, this is like a fun" as they pushed the gurnee down the hall to the OR. Oh, and that I woke up crying for no apparent reason from the medication. You will do great!
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    IVF with PICSI #3: ER 9/8 (11 ER/8 Mature/7 Fertilized)/ET 9/13 (2 AA blastocysts transferred) 
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  • imagesbrowns08:
    imagebyrne15:
    imagesbrowns08:

    I really haven't had difficulty with anything so far. Stim shots- I got it. HSG- no big deal. Etc, etc, etc.

    The retrieval process however, freaks me out. Here's what I'm currently worried about:

    1. Saying something really, really embarrassing to my RE when I'm under. 

    2. Getting a nervous stomach (because I'm a pro at that) and having some sort of embarrassing accident on the table. 

     

    Yup, that's what keeps me up at night.....

    Any "it's really no big deal" posts (even if you're lying) would be much appreciated. Smile

    I have no idea what you are taking aboutWink

    You better hope I don't rat YOU out while I'm under too!

    hahaha I actually thought of that.  You will be the innocent by stander in the situation.

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  • I have no advice for you, but I know you will be just fine!
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  • I hear ya! But I will tell you that it really is no big deal. You will be in la la land! You will have no idea whats going on. Supposedly I was moaning or something during my ER, they ignore you. They are more focused on what they are doing and sometimes there is even music playing in the OR so they drown you out. lol It has not come back to me that ive ever done or said anything that embarrasing lol, yet. And about the stomach, well I definitely understand that, but again, when you are in la la land, nothing hurts. You wont be nervous, you won't care what you are doing or where you are going. They do their thing and it is so quick. Seriously ER takes about 15-20 minutes. Barely enough time for you to mutter anything silly Wink

     

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