Is rage and instability a sign of labor?

Sascha3 · January 2012

I am joking, but, I don't know what is wrong with me today!! I am the most even tempered person, have hardly been emotional this whole pregnancy and it is rare for me to get angry. I get annoyed, but not angry.

Yesterday I just started feeling funny. Crampy, nauseous, headache. I thought about labor and almost started crying at work because I suddenly got absolutely terrified. On my way to NST monitoring this morning, I cried twice just thinking about it. And then...the rage.

Got to the doctor's. My secondary insurance is new so they weren't able to get preauthorization. Whatever...I don't care...my primary covers everything. Then they tell me my primary is terminated. ?? They call and are told the same thing. My HR rep in NYC is at lunch. My nurse has no appointments for 2 days, so I end up paying cash because I feel funny and want the monitoring. (She was a 10 out of 10 again...happy moment in the day).

Get home, accidentally knock my husband's laptop off a ledge, tell him it is his fault for leaving it there and it is his fault if I broke it. HR calls and says she called the insurance and it is fine and nothing has changed with the new year as far as numbers go. So someone is doing something wrong. Call the doctor and they put the lunch answering service on 15 minutes early. By the time they get back my HR in NY will be about to leave. I try with all my power not to throw my phone, so I slam around the computer mouse a few times and try to resist punching something. I am NOT like this. I hate people that have rage issues and I find them incredibly annoying. My husband comes out and trys to help. Then I sit on the couch and cry so hard I am sobbing out loud and unable to breathe and I almost throw up.

I am terrified I am going to go into labor, having tons of contractions, and something is wrong with my insurance and I can't seem to get both parties together to figure it out.

Furthermore...what in the helll is wrong with me? I feel like a crazy out of control psycho. I haven't cried that hard in years and years.

And my excitement to have my baby is suddenly overshadowed by the fact that I am physically sick with a sudden fear of labor. I don't feel ready anymore.

DEBBIE33CASEY · January 2012

Sorry

If it makes you feel any better I'm scared to death, too. I'm worried that when my water breaks or when my contractions get close enough together that it's real labor that I will cry b/c I'm not ready and don't want to do it yet. L&D went REALLY well with DD so I feel like I won't have good luck twice. I'm scared of everything. The labor itself, not getting any sleep for another 2 years, trying to make BFing work (since it didn't last time I have this HUGE fear I will have another repeat of that failure), how in the world will I be a mom of two? I'm already stressed being a working mom of 1.

I keep psyching myself out and I'm having more terrified days than good ones right now. I am avoiding doing housework, eating spicy foods, exercising, etc b/c I'm *hoping* it will stave off labor.

You are not alone. It was so much easier when I was a FTM b/c I had no idea what to expect. Now I know what to expect and I have much more fear...... I wish I could be positive about it but I'm just too terrified right now! I even cut my hours at work to only 5 hours 3 days a week b/c I am so mentally stressed. I'm sure everything will be okay but it's really hard to focus on that right now! I hope you find something to calm your irrationality- if you find anything out pass it on!!

fyrefairie · January 2012

idk but if it is i should proly head to l@d

Sascha3 · January 2012

Debbie...I am so glad you understand! My first labor was so easy and uncomplicated and that was without drugs. I don't know what my problem is. I am so afraid. I went back to work and was supposed to work through Wednesday but since I was unable to calm down enough earlier to stop crying, I am done as of yesterday.

On a side note, my doctor finally returned my call and said there must have been a glitch in the system that they showed I was uninsured. So I had a breakdown over nothing. And instead of feeling relieved, now I am even more pis$ed about that because I feel like they did something wrong, since my employer had no problem. And they took over 3 hours to return my call. At least they are refunding the money I paid them today without having to go through some sort of claim on my insurance.

DEBBIE33CASEY · January 2012

Sascha3:

Debbie...I am so glad you understand! My first labor was so easy and uncomplicated and that was without drugs. I don't know what my problem is. I am so afraid. I went back to work and was supposed to work through Wednesday but since I was unable to calm down enough earlier to stop crying, I am done as of yesterday.

On a side note, my doctor finally returned my call and said there must have been a glitch in the system that they showed I was uninsured. So I had a breakdown over nothing. And instead of feeling relieved, now I am even more pis$ed about that because I feel like they did something wrong, since my employer had no problem. And they took over 3 hours to return my call. At least they are refunding the money I paid them today without having to go through some sort of claim on my insurance.

I'm glad it was a glitch in the system instead of something else! I can't imagine how stressful that would have been. Not a fun glitch to be done to a pregnant lady.

FarmvilleLover · January 2012

Awwww, hugs to both of you. I think the nerves are just getting to us all. Tomorrow is a new day, and I hope it's much better for you. I'm feeling the anxiety too, just not to the ragey part yet.

Perhaps do something nice for yourself tomorrow, like get a mani/pedi?

KitKat83 · January 2012

Hugs! I can relate, my tolerance for bull$hit is at an all time low right now. I'm pretty mild tempered and easy going, but have had my fair share of breakdowns lately (over life insurance that I have plenty of, but I just found out my husband has none). Glad your insurance worked out though, what a relief! I find these days its a lot easier to cry it out than hold it in.

Sascha3 · January 2012

FarmvilleLover:

Awwww, hugs to both of you. I think the nerves are just getting to us all. Tomorrow is a new day, and I hope it's much better for you. I'm feeling the anxiety too, just not to the ragey part yet.

Perhaps do something nice for yourself tomorrow, like get a mani/pedi?

That's exactly what I am going to do:) After my dr appt last week I changed my daughter's ticket from Jan 1 to Jan 6 since she only has 10 days off of work. She ended up not getting scheduled the next 2 days, so I changed her ticket again to fly her in tonight!! My husband is taking me to a nice dinner on the Strip, then we are getting her from the airport at 11pm. Then manis and pedis tomorrow Smile (Unless I go into labor tonight)

FarmvilleLover · January 2012

Perfect! Have fun!

And omg, I didn't realize you are at 40 weeks tomorrow. Eeeee!

Sascha3 · January 2012

FarmvilleLover:

Perfect! Have fun!

And omg, I didn't realize you are at 40 weeks tomorrow. Eeeee!

OMG you scared me!!! I am 40 weeks next Tuesday, 39 today. But for some reason I thought you were right and I was wrong, hahahaha!

FarmvilleLover · January 2012

Oh woops hahah! I saw 39 and 7 but didn't look that close. lol!

Kristine Schilling · January 2012

the last 2 nights in a row.... Cranky short tempered ill mannered and downright difficult to have a conversation with.

I hope its a sign of upcomeing labor! I really do.

SoonToBeMsP · January 2012

Nothing is wrong with you! People are proving they are incompetent, and that is frustrating to anyone involved! Fingers crossed they get their heads out of their azzes and fix this quickly!

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