I haven't been on much lately, but I need to vent. I am so frustrated.
AF just showed up, so I am on to cycle 9, but month 12, as we started TTC last February. I understand that it is completely normal for TTC to take awhile, and I am not concerned that there is something wrong, but I am frustrated because my DH travels constantly for his job, and as a result, the odds of having perfect timing during any given cycle is slim. We can usually hit 1 or 2 days during the FW, but it is impossible to time things any better than that.
I just found out that DH will not be working OOT at all this month during my expected FW, which would be AWESOME except he decided he wants to take that opporunity to fly back to our hometown. I told him that week was pretty much our only shot of getting KU this month, and he told me that we should be "having fun" and not being so scheduled. FWIW, I NEVER tell DH when I am in my FW, so things have never felt scheduled.....until this month apparently. Meanwhile, he asks me all the time when I am testing, talks constantly about being a dad, etc. How the hell does he think it works??? I am getting so frustrated watching the months tick by, having so little control over timing, and then we have an opportunity to time things perfectly and DH wants to leave.
FWIW, traveling is a part of the job....it won't change. So that isn't an option. I knew that this might make things more challenging, but I am getting burnt out and depressed. How do you all find a silver lining? How do you stay positive? What hobbies keep you occupied? For some reason this cycle is hitting me harder than others have and I just need a pep talk or something.
Sorry for the long vent.....just needed to get it off my chest.