Intro and Twin loss
nuttycoconut
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After a year of TTC, 3 (unsuccessful) IUIs and 1 round of IVF, my husband and I concieved b/g twins. We were thrilled and thought all of that heartache was meant to be because we were meant to be the parents of these beautiful twin babies. My shower was planned, cribs were set up, we purchased a new car, things were bought for the nursery. My husband talked about coaching their soccer team, read books to the babies in my belly, and felt their first kicks on December 4. We saw them kicking away, trying to touch each other through the placenta on the ultrasound on December 5. At that ultrasound, however, the Dr. noticed my cervix shortening, started me on Progesterone and talked about the possibility of upcoming bedrest. I finally told my class of first graders about the babies on December 7 at 22 weeks and 2 days, just in case I was to go on bedrest. That very evening I ended up in labor and delivery with spotting and contractions. I will never forget the horror I felt when I realized our precious baby Molly was coming out months too early. The worst feeling I've ever had in my life was knowing I had to push her out since she was already on her way, but that she was alive and healthy and my actions were about to end her life. Baby Molly was born early in the morning on Dec. 8. She came out moving and alive but died shortly after. She looked just like me. There was a possibility of saving her twin, Max, but he wanted to be with his sister. He came out 55 minutes later alive as well. Max looked just like my husband and every time I see my husband I think of Max and feel a huge sense of loss, as my husband does when he looks at me. I kept asking the Dr. if there was any possiblity of them making it, but they were just too small. I just can't believe that they are gone. We wanted them so badly and had such a long journey of becoming pregnant. We had so many dreams for our family and now they are dead along with our babies. And I can't fathom another IVF cycle. I thought our family was complete and that I'd never have to do it again. I just feel empty and lost. 
Re: Intro and Twin loss
I'm so sorry for your loss-- I like you did IVF and waited for an eternity to tell everyone we were pregnant and get excited. At 20 weeks we announced and less than a month later we found out our daughter would not survive-- I carried her for three precious weeks praying for another miracle. It's heartbreaking. It seems so unfair to deal with this on top of infertility. I hope you find the strength and funds to do IVF again... because you are meant to be parents.
Molly and Max are lucky to have known your love.
Married October 28, 2006, TTC since March 2009 IUI #1-8 w/ clomid = BFN
IVF # 1 May, 2011 = BFP!!! Stillbirth at 26 weeks (placental failure/severe IUGR)
FET #1 February, 2012-- BFP! Beta #1=84 Beta #2= 207 Beta #3= 3,526
Our Rainbow Baby is on the Way!
I'm so sorry. To have IF and then lose babies late in pregnancy is so cruel. I hope you find some comfort from this board. It is full of amazing women.
We are here for you.
Congrats to Heatherhah! Baby girl has finally arrived!
Congrats to my Labor Buddy SouthernBellaKS
I am so sorry for the loss of your Max and Molly. You have found a safe refuge and just know that anytime you need to talk or vent. We get it. I hate that you are here with us but since you are, welcome to the family.
I say family because often times the things we share and the ammount we lean on each other is much much more than a board or a group, we are definately intertwined as family.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
This exactly. Pottermommy always says it so well.
***Congratulations to my TTCAL buddy Roxyttandme!! It's a GIRL!! Charlotte arrived on 9/29!!!!***
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Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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I am very sorry your loss. I also lost boy/girl twins after IVF. It is heartbreaking and very overwhelming to be back at the starting line knowing you can't just have sex and get pregnant again.
Hang in there hon. huge((hugs))
Me: PCOS, Blood/Immune Issues DH: Low all 3
Jun.- Sep. 2010 IUI#1-#3 = BFN
Oct. 2010 = IVF #1 = B/G Twins (passed away Feb. 2011)
May 2011 = Myomectomy and trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC)
Sep. 2011 = Surprise BFP = C/P
Feb. 2012 = sFET #1 = BFN
Feb.2012 = Hail Mary IUI #4 = BFN
April/May 2012 = FET #2 w/our last two embies = BFP (Please let this be it!)
Beta #1 8dp5/6dt = 234 Beta #2 10dp5/6dt = 695 Beta #3 12dp5/6dt = 1796 Beta #4 17dp5/6dt = 17,888 U/S #1 May 17, 2012 = Twins
Baby B's heart stop beating at 9 weeks 5 days
Our little miracle baby is a boy.
Baby Boy Owen and Baby Girl Avery were born too early on Feb. 13, 2011 due to a pedunculated fibroid, incompetent cervix and suspected placental abruption.
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose." - Henry Ward Beecher
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Lots of love and luck to my PAIF/3T/IF Veteran ladies, especially my dear friend Zookie. Congrats to Papps, Teach84 and Starbuck on their little ones.
I'm so sorry for your loss. My Gabriel was also born on December 8th in the early morning. He however, was Potter's Syndrome and was 36 weeks. We're still in the midst of the greiving process. Take your time sweetheart. Trying to fathom getting pregnant again is scary, your heart needs time to heal before you can logically start thinking that way. I know the insane "baby fever" is hard to handle sometimes, but you have to take some time for you.
My heart is with you...
IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer
Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
**P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**