Ever since Mason was born via an unscheduled c-section I can't watch a baby story or one born every minute. I used to love those shows, watched them all the time. But now when I see them it makes me wish I could have a do over and try harder to push him out instead of a c-section.
Yes, my c-section was necessary and I realize that. His head was tilted and got stuck on my pelvic bone. I pushed for 4 hours and while my doctor was willing to let me keep going he didn't think it would work. But it still makes me sad and I can't wait to get pregnant again so I can hopefully experience a vaginal birth.
Re: I can't watch Birthing shows on TV anymore
I totally understand...I went through pretty much the same thing.
With me, my little one's heart rate went down, and since I had a midwife she told me to take a break. I didn't want to because I could even feel my baby's head if I reached down...but I took the break. It took only 20 minutes for him to go all the way back up the birth canal, then he got stuck! I had to go for a cesarean because he couldn't be turned.
And I even had to stop watching birth shows as well. I get all miserable and upset. I wish I could have delivered naturally as well, but in the end, we both survived. That's the most important thing.
I hope you get to experience a natural birth just as much as I wish I can experience my own one day.
And maybe we can finally watch those shows again! Haha, I mean it!
Happy Trails
I had a rather traumatic experience with my previous Emergency CS. so yeah, I get your reservations. I couldnt watch those shows this time around at all. I wanted to cry several times while watching "the business of being born." and the other day, we were watching a movie(dont remember what) but a lady was in labor and I had to leave the room.
Going VBAC this time. Wish me luck!
I am right there with you. Hunter was born via unscheduled c section too. I had been pushing for like 3 hours with no pain meds and he would not come out. He was sunny side up and stuck on my pelvic arch. He had a line across his forehead from where his head was hitting my pelvis.
I used to live for the baby shows, wathced all of them all day long throughout my pregnancy. But now I just get mad at all the women who have these "perfect" births. My c section was medically necessary, LO might not be here without it. His heartrate had dropped, from incision to birth it was 3 minutes. It still makes me sad though. I so badly wanted a natural delivery. I am happy we are both here and healthy, now.
But baby shows are a no-go these days. I just can't anymore.
I was thinking about posting this myself!
I can't watch them either. I had an unscheduled c-section after being on pitocin for 30 minutes (induced early because of PIH). I never went into labor. DS had five heart rate decelerations in the thirty minutes. I know my c-section was necessary, but doesn't stop me from feeling disappointed with my birth experience.
I went through the same thing. It took me a while to realize my c section was necessary too. DD was breech, but small.
But, i would torture myself and watch them, and I found myself wishing bad things on people, I was in a very dark place. But 8 months later, and I am doing much better. I was happy to see the 2nd season of One Born Every Minute had started. While I am going to do everything in my power to VBAC, I have accepted that it is very luckily I could have a rcs. I am O.K. with this, as long as I get to stay awake. And I want a mirror.
I have a hard time watching them too and if I am able to get pg again I will most likely end up with a rcs.
P.S. You have great taste in names. My son is Mason James too!
I went through that, too. I'm one and done, so that only intensified this. I came to terms during the third tri. Breech baby who refused to budge decided for me his delivery method. I was just happy to have a healthy baby at that point and everything happened so fast with my emergency c-section that I didn't have time to process major surgery. This was the first time I was ever in an OR or hospitalized in my life. Talk about scary and unprepared. The anxiety hit me a few hours after my section realizing what just happened.
I never went into labor since LO was so high up in my ribs that he never set the 'wheels in motion' so to speak. Some people say I was fortunate to skip over that part, but still feel like I missed out on birthing my son myself. My son is almost a year old, so I must move on from those feelings. He is a happy little boy and almost quadrupled his birth weight. He came a long way from being as small as he was.
5lbs 9 oz, 18.5 inches long
6 months: 16lbs 15 oz, 27 inches long
I can't either.
I feel like I have come to terms with ending up with a c-section but I have not fully comes to terms with being under general anasethsia and missing my son's birth. I feel a lot of bitterness and sadness when I see the experience mother's have seeing their child being born. Some day I will be able to watch them again though! Just not now.
Mom to Carter (6), and Calianne (1).
Proud VBAC, natural birth, breastfeeding, cloth diapering momma!
I have a hard time watching them also. I can never have a vaginal birth because I'm too narrow. My ob has said that even if DD had been 3 lbs, I would not have been able to push her out.
I had a scheduled c/s. I was able to see DD for the first 15 minutes. While I was recovering and they were trying to locate a room for me to move to out of recovery, I was separated from DD for almost 5 hours. That's the part that is heartbreaking for me. Not being able to hold her as soon as she came out or even keep her near me.