So, I hoped to avoid PPD this time around but it hit hard at 4 weeks. I talked to my OB about meds and am awaiting a RX. Last time I "toughed it out" but this time is a lot worse. I've actually spent the last 3 days at my parents house just so there would be more people around to help care for the baby (things are a lot harder now that we have a 2-year-old and a newborn - forget napping during the daytime at home!).
Just curious if anyone else is on medication for PPD/PPA and what you are taking (medicine and dose) and how well it is working for you. I've already tried Lexapro but had some yucky side effects. Sometimes I just feel so alone, it would be good to know if others are dealing with the same thing.
Re: anyone on meds for PPD/PPA?
I feel for you and know where you are coming from. I experienced this when our son was born. He's now 16 weeks. I had Zoloft sitting on my counter, I took one pill and later that night my heart was beating sort of hard, so I just stopped taking it.
I ended up toughing it out. It was very very hard. I was really sad, lonely, and depressed. So much so that my Aunt flew out here to FL from AZ and stayed with us for weeks! She got us through the rough patch. I will be forever grateful to her. I was actually sad and lonely a little after she left too. I am a first time mom and have no family here, so the depression hit me really hard too.
I must say that now, after 4 months, a lot has subsided, but I still get sad and lonely at times. I've heard meds and counseling help a lot. Also, if you have family ask them for help. Ask them to just be near you. You have to ask though. Most people, even family, can't always read the depressed signs, and need you to reach out for the help you need.
I'm on Celexa, started out on 10 mg and am up to 20 mg. I started at a week and a half PP. I have never felt so horrible in my entire life. I am so grateful for my husband who called the OB, OB seeing me within a half hour of when my husband called and for the psychiatrist who saw me immediately after my OB. I was in such a bad mental state, it wasn't even funny. I would do nothing but cry. I wouldn't eat, I barely slept. I would just lay in bed. I had a lot of terrible thoughts. I really crashed super hard.
It's really really helped being on meds. I was nervous about starting medication. The only major side effect I had was headaches....and if I go too long between doses, I get a headache. (Like, I usually have dinner at 6 PM, so if I eat dinner, say 9 PM and take my Celexa then, I start getting a bit of a headache).
On top of that, I also go to therapy once a week and joined a PPD/PPA support group to help with the feelings of isolation I have. That has truly helped with a lot of the feelings I'm having and it's been reassuring to know that there are other women dealing with the same thing.
You are definitely not alone. Also feel free to PM me if you want to talk. PPD is hard to deal with and the ladies who have reached out to me have been a Godsend. Also, try the PPD board. There isn't always a ton of action there, but it's good to have others on your side.